Busting Loose

[Adrienne]

HI

thank you for all that you have all shared.

I am not going to work today cuz my boy is fighting a chest cold, and he need mom to take care of him..

well, or i created this so that the HUGE egg that is here could comeinto my hologram and show itself...which is more likely...
I get pissy when things don't go my way... and when things are interfering with my AGENDA... which yes the agenda in it self if it actually worked would make life seem easy and fluid...... but i guess it's all the stuff in between that matters, and that is where god/ES is....
The Power of NOW, was recomended to me by Pamela and stephen and now it is pasted all over these posts....

Darn library....lol Someone else has my book

I would love to hear more about the diving into the uncomfortable feelings, as that I think i am/have felt uncomfortable most of the time... and therefor to hear of ones process of doing this would be helpful i hope.

thank you SallyJane for posting on the ways of reconnecting to self... that has helped me be on the moment more... like siting in silence and listening within the silence... been doing that everynight since you sujusted it... and also listening to music that touches my soul... I am working on the creative stuff...
have bought the ingredients for my favorite cake...
almond cherry bunt cake...YUM
and am also getting the art supplies for my son, he's excited about that...
Crazy thing is...I find that my ego or whatever it is, is constantly side tracking me...

In the moment, In the moment, In the moment
It's the only thing on my mind right now...
can't wait to get "The Power Of Now"

What i find helps me too, is that when something happens to me...lol...OK, in my hologram, then i tell myself that this doesn't give me identity, it's not who i am....

and it doesn't make me whi i am... those things are illusion created by me to convince me that i am the opposite of who i am....And Holy COWFISH... they seems so damn real... wow am I ever powerful to have created this.....

Although when convinced of it's realness, it sure has been difficult to come back to that or even wrap my mind around it.

thank, love and gratitude......Adrienne

[zartgirl]

One tracked...

That is cool that you have that design instinct... I also believe that you could learn to draw and paint... My guess is that you judge yourself to harshly! You try to make it perfection... I am guessing this just from reading your posts. One thing I learned early on is that nature is not perfect (well it is in the fact that it is nature and made the way it is, but..). Take a flower... Not every leaf is shaped the same, and flowers are not perfectly symetrical either. When I was little I use to try to draw them symetrical and perfect, but it was not till I just allowed myself to draw the imperfections of the flower that the flower looked perfect! Does that make sense?

Hmmmm... So what does this have to do with busting loose? Everything! You said you would be an intellectual artist one who spends great deal of time planning and organizing a painting... I find it interesting that you chose Van Gough... The man went MAD! I am not sure if it was from trying to reach perfection or licking / cleaning his brushes in his mouth (Lead poisoning) or a combination of both. The point being that striving for perfection with the mind is insanity!

When I paint I paint from the heart... Yes, I have an idea of what I want to paint, but it is not till I start to put the paint on the page that the true idea comes to life. I do not see a completed painting when I start. I do not see a completed design when I start with my illustration or graphic design. I start to work and the image or story starts to come to life on the page. Sometimes I paint with my right hand and sometimes I paint with my left hand... Whatever strikes my fancy! Sometimes the original message changes completely with my paintings. What is interesting is that if you were to look at my work you would say I spend endless hours on details, but in actuallity my paintings look detailed but are not...

The reason I am telling you this is to get back to the idea of turning off the mind and really focussing on the feelings and the heart! I know this is going to be hard, because you have trained yourself very well to trust your mind. You have invested a lot into your mind, but in this journey it is about learning to trust your heart and your feelings and shutting down the mind... Not like becoming dull in thought, but to the point of turning off the ego and the constant chatter in your head that distracts you from connecting with your conciousness in a deep way. Trust me you will still be able to have awesome discussions! Stephen and Grace and my friends here all do! I believe more so, because we are not tied to the minds chatter and control!

The mind wants to control and limit us! Keep us away from our conciousness and unlimited abundance that is out there for us in every area of our lives. To get back in touch with your true self / Extended self the mind has to be shut down and the power reclaimed from it.

We are back to observing the mind and all its workings... And applying the process without agendas and reclaiming as much power as is absolutely possible. Here is the cool part when we get to the point of Busting Loose, we will then be in a place to create anything we want to create in our lives. As the author says "Play with any idea or concept we want to play with for the fun of it". You can then have appreciation (money) just appear in your accounts, or you can create a business model to create the appreciation. You get to choose how the actors in your hologram act when interacting with you... You will be in full charge of your world, in a way that goes way beyond what your mind is offering you. Your mind is actually controlling you not you controlling your mind (even as hard as you try to control it, it still controls you). Your mind is part of your ego, and it does not want to loose control of you so it is going to do everything possible to keep control of you.

Hmmmmm... just in case you are wondering... I don't sidetrack easy! Because, I work from the heart... It will not let me get off track when working with you. Your ES created me here to tell you this and because I am working from the heart... I am led to just keep on this same subject till it sinks in or I get led to another subject or person to keep going on. Now you have a choice to choose to do what I am talking about or not! That is the awesomeness of all of this... We have a choice in it! I am still learning too, and I have only been here for a short while soaking up the information from others. So when I started answering your posts it was definitely a heart thing because my mind still does not think I know anything! I think I will keep it that way, because then I can not depend on it!

Love and Gratitude zartgirl Sallyjane

[adam ant]

i have purposely developed my brain to be somewhat "one tracked" to help me stay more focused. the only problem, as you pointed out, is that i cant always pick what track im on!! but here is the good news, eventually i always come back to the original topic... as i seem to keep them always at hand. i imagine this is sort of like a train, with the Engine as the current thought, and all others i want to address get organized behind it like the rest of the cars. once i exhaust the engine, it goes to the back and the next thought comes up.

amazingly, these last two years i have been able to run "multiple trains of thought" at the same time. it gets very tiring after awhile though.



artistic... hmm, if i were to class my artsitic abilities, it would be like that of van Gough or Pablo Picasso. (intellectual artists)
my family on my moms side is all artists... my grandfather is an accomplished painter, my uncle owns a huge Graphic Design studio in Chicago(which i also studied for a while), my other uncle used to draw flawlessly, his sons are drawing experts, and even my mom is into interior decorating.
im not good at freehand art like painting or drawing, but as far as design goes, i can hold my own, and i also do natural and abstract photography.

[zartgirl]

Adam Ant / Brian

my point of that was to bring attention to the ME method of time travelling.
-b

Umm... Well I have not bought the ME book or studied any of the ME yet. I am very interested in both ME and CEM...

I am still working on the Power of Now book. You said your mind never stops! Mine never really got started! I think it is an Artist thing, because we tend to naturally tap into the creative spirit naturally instead of into the brain. That said... It takes me a long time to read some books, because they overwhelm me! I literally have to set them down and just let my heart process the information at its own pace. My mind never even knows why I have to set it down and not read for awhile! I am not even sure what I got hung up on in the Power of Now or why! I just know I had to put the book down for a while. The bonus to this is that once it enters and is processed... I go into a hyper growth spirt! My ES shows me emence amount of truth about who I am and reclaims huge amount of power for me!

So, I know that you are probably still trying to figure out how to apply the process without an agenda! LOL Thats okay! It took me a while too!!! I feel the need to challenge you to try to attempt to turn off the brain for a while! Intellectualism will keep you banging your head up against the wall and may be the reason why NO AGENDA is so hard for you! In the Power of Now it talks about how the constant running of the brain or mind is actually counter productive to acheiving all that you are trying to achieve. For me it meant turning off the constant chatter of memes or negative thoughts like "you arn't worthy" and that kind of thing... But for you it will be that constant analyzing of every word you read!

I have noticed in your posts that each post I answer for you, you come back and one word has triggered a whole new thought pattern, and your brain is now off and running in a new direction. This is your minds way of distracting you and keeping you from the Real Magik that Stephen talks about! Stephen would be a good person to talk to about this as he has told me, that this was the thing that really slowed him down!

Now the way you do that is to become an observer of this pattern. When a single word triggers the mind to start running in a new direction, sit back and watch it with your spirit. Observe every moment of the analyzing, and look at where it is taking you! Is it distracting you from the real message that your ES was trying to show you? Probably! Your mind wants you to listen to it and not to your ES. So when your mind picks out a word and starts to run with it, observe it and also observe what it is trying to distract you from. You have a lot of information in your mind, but now it needs to go to the heart, so you can feel it and experience it, and live it!

Remember, that you are creating both me and Stephen here to tell you some of these things. I find it interesting that you picked an intellect and a creative spirit to work together! That was some awesome creation on your ES's part! Although Stephen is an intellect, he has learned to shut down the mind and feel it like I do naturally! I tell you it will make all this so much easier when you shut off the mind and tap into the feelings, and actaully start to experience it and live it! You think this is exciting now! Just wait till your mind is out of the picture. The book "The Power of Now" is a book I would recommend to you to read. It will really help you to turn off that constant running of the mind that is distracting you from the magik you want to experience!

Love and Gratitude
zartgirl Sallyjane
P.S. you are an amazing creator, because over the last few days I have been dealing with a head cold (applying the process to regain the power from a pattern of chronic discomfort over the years). I have to tell you I believe the only coherrent thoughts I have had were the ones I wrote to you! I had a problem even applying the process to this discomfort, because I would forget what I was doing in the middle of it! So to be able to write out anything coherent... Is and amazing creation! LOL!

[KaliLove]

Please!

You are CORRECT!

I have used M.E. this way several times!

The subject is broached I'll say, YES!

Interest piqued a wee bit more, hmmm?

In gratitude!

tephen

Aren't you being the tease now, Stephen!

Might you not be willing to say more? Please? You've certainly piqued my interest! For what purposes might one do that? I'm having a little trouble getting my creative thinking cap on.

Thanks,
Chris

[adam ant]

ya, my mind never stops, and i dont think i would want it to. ive read both books, just trying to perfect technique... errr resume the results i was getting at first.






-b

[sterlingpg]

You're welcome Adam Ant

two excellent replies! thank you both.
my point of that was to bring attention to the ME method of time travelling.
if time can be "observed" in numbers going backwards, then it should also work forwards. imagine you are starting guitar lessons. you should be able to two point with this intention "how would my guitar skills be if i practiced everyday for 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 years?" or something of that nature.
is this subject broached in the seminars?
-b

You are CORRECT!

I have used M.E. this way several times!

The subject is broached I'll say, YES!

Interest piqued a wee bit more, hmmm?

In gratitude!

tephen

[adam ant]

two excellent replies! thank you both.




my point of that was to bring attention to the ME method of time travelling.
if time can be "observed" in numbers going backwards, then it should also work forwards. imagine you are starting guitar lessons. you should be able to two point with this intention "how would my guitar skills be if i practiced everyday for 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 years?" or something of that nature.

is this subject broached in the seminars?

-b

[zartgirl]

Adam Ant

"be in the now" now im really going to have fun with your head...

if there is no such thing as "time" then define "be in the now"

You are going to have fun with my head? Sorry I don't mean to laugh so hard, but well as I always tell Stephen who talks about intellectualizing... I have an advantage because I don't have an intellectual particle in my body! I don't know if it is because I am an artist who lives in her own little world or because I am blond clear to the root...
Trust me I have frustrated more than a few!

Here is the deal, I was trying to explain this to someone else and even my 13 year daughter that you have to read BL and the Power of Now and books like that with your heart not your mind. If you try to read with you mind then you will analyze every little part of it.

I think the real reason I do not intellectualize is because as a kid and a very creative kid, I was what they would today label with a learning disability... Well I actually learn differently than most do. I finally just got frustrated with school and learning and checked out. I was already a creative spirit, so I found it easier to go to what I thought of as my safe place, where I could create my world anyway I wanted to. I would then draw that world out on paper, and later paint it on canvas. I learned quickly to get the smart kids to do all my homework while I would draw pictures. My smart friends still talk about this and laugh! I promise that I did not beat them up or anything!

Do you have a favorite music that touches the heart? It moves inside your spirit as you listen to it. That is how you want to read these books. I read all books this way. If it does not touch my spirit, then I put the book down till it does, or I don't read it! If you read these books with your spirit and not your mind you will come to understanding much quicker and find that inner peace. Eventually, you will also reach that point where your hologram starts to take on the image of what your true self really wants for you!

For me the NOW is not about time... It is a place where I find peace and understanding about things I have never understood before! It is really hard to put into words that which you know intuitively. It is something you have to feel and experience for yourself.

For me life is about dancing to a different beat. It is about speaking to the spirit and feeling, touching, experiencing words instead of reading them. This journey for me is to return to that place where I can create my own world. This can not happen in the mind, but has to happen in the spirit!

Love and Gratitude zartgirl sj

[sterlingpg]

Time to share a thought about time!

"be in the now" now im really going to have fun with your head...

if there is no such thing as "time" then define "be in the now"

I love to have fun with my head, so why shouldn't you?

Time, as shared in The Power of Now is either Psychological Time or Clock Time.

Psychological time is CREATED by the Ego-mind for its own reasons of survival. Living in the past and creating an identity of 'self' based on experiences, events, acquisitions (materially or otherwise) is the goal of the ego-mind.

The ego-mind also creates the idea of Future by living in a future. A future where there is 'Salvation', namely, 'if I can only have, do or be this, then I will be 'happy, fulfilled, complete'. This is also the place of energy-wasting worries, wherein no benefit is received except by the ego-mind's resulting further entrenchment of a false 'self'.

Psychological time is an illusion and false, for there is no other place but the Now. As I will share, even the 'Now Moment' as it is often called, is not TIME.

First though, Clock time is something created by consciousness, illusory as well, for the use of experiencing life SITUATIONS. Your 'life' is not the same as your life situations. Your LIFE goes beyond time and space and exists, it just IS. Clock time is useful and allows for a temporary experiential existence on the physical plane. Beyond this plane, where there is no time experience, things are perceived all at once, like a big wide schmear of events, as opposed to the perception of linear time, the step by step,existence that is what we are normally accustomed to.

So for me, being in the Now is stepping out of time. In that place of BEing and an awareness of all that IS, is where the Ego-mind dissolves. It is a very INSECURE entity. And entity is a pretty accurate description. IT is NOT YOU. The ego has some value, but not when it runs your whole life including all your perceptions. This is the source a particularly insidious insanity that affects human life on the planet today. Living without awareness of the Ego-mind is living unconsciously, giving up your power of choice to unconscious programming that at some point, you (just a general 'you' here, not picking on YOU lol) may decide no longer serves you.

Bringing about the Observer to simply put attention on the Ego-mind, in the Now, dissolves it and all its games. This is INCREDIBLY POWERFUL and cannot be overemphasized. However, one has to be ready to embark upon this course. The Observer is like the proverbial big flashlight on the alleged criminal who is undergoing interrogation. Shining that flashlight of the Observer brings out the Truth of what is going on!

I believe the Now moment is out of time because I ask: Just how long is the 'present'? A second? A millisecond? A picosecond? How small do we go to say 'this is how long a moment is? I say that it is not measureable, for it is not 'in time', at least not by any means I am aware of.

In Gratitude,

tephen

[adam ant]

actually im having a much easier time with BL than i am with the Two point.

when i Tell the Truth, it is easy to think "this is not real" and then reclaim the power. but as a passive technique, it is frustrating when you want to move forward instead of reclaiming eggs from your "past".

i am having fun with all of this right now, and my wife looks at me funny when im deep in thought and then burst out laughing for no apparent reason.

[adam ant]

"be in the now" now im really going to have fun with your head...

if there is no such thing as "time" then define "be in the now"

[sterlingpg]

Wonderful Sallyjane

This brought tears of joy to my eyes:

Let me tell you something though... When you give up your agenda, and just apply the process. Learn to observe your self chatter going on in the mind, and start blasting those memes out of the mind... You come to this place where Walla Walla can be beautiful, and sitting behind a tractor going very slow on a highway is an awesome opportunity to enjoy your own company or that of your families. I find it a great time to sit an observe my self chatter, and you know what as you learn to observe you start to neutralize the negative memes that are self defeating. They begin to make no sense at all! There is a peace in this life when you stop living with agendas and start to let life just flow.

Thank you SO SO MUCH!

You have an incredible gift in how you write. You have an amazing way of both explaining the more technical but also sharing the feelings (the more important part) behind the experiences you are having!

Love and light,

tephen

[zartgirl]

Agendas

Hehee, Yea! That is the tricky part Applying the process without an agenda! When I first read that in the BL book... I was like "WHAT? HOW? WHY?". Well he explains it quite well in the chapter that he introduces you to the process of Why.

To be honest until I started to read "The Power of Now" by eckhart Tolle I really had a hard time doing the process without an agenda! That and a lot of time spent talking with Stephen and Grace on IM and phone. The only way I can apply the process without an agenda, is to be in the NOW. For me that was hard, cause I did not like the NOW as my hologram is not the way I wanted it to be. Well I still want my hologram to change in a major way, but I have given up on determining how it will look exactly!

Now you are probably thinking but if you give up on how it will look then how will you create what you want in your hologram. I trust my ES! My ES knows what my true self wants more than I do. When you give up YOUR AGENDA (which is future thinking and placing an oppinion or judgement on what ever is making you uncomfortable), then you just apply the process, and observe (from the power of Now) all the chatter going on in your head (a major part of that is your agenda) you neutralize the slow vibrations and allow the process to work and your true self to reclaim power from the eggs.

But when you apply the process with an agenda... You are actually placing limits on the process and less power can be reclaimed. In the book it says that an agenda will nulify the process, because you are passing judgement. I believe that when we have an agenda we are actually reinforcing the eggs instead of collapsing them.

Trust me! This was a major blockage for me! It really held me back in my journey through phase 2. One reason was that my agenda was limiting, but 2nd was that when my hologram did not change to exactly what I wanted as you said the traffic did not get out of your way, I got really frustrated and angry and thought this is not working! You can ask Stephen who patiently talked to me and got me turned back around until the next time I did not get it Poofed into my hologram. It was both Stephen and Grace who have been working with me as a tag team, walking me through this and teaching me all this. It was not till this week that I did not get the job I wanted and everything I was thinking it would provide for me, that the big breakthrough came. Okay I have also been attempting to read the Power of Now... Attempting, because it is hard for me to read... Not as in I don't understand it, but it scares me a little bit, but I am starting to soak in what I am reading... I think I about ready for the book now! LOL!

Let me tell you something though... When you give up your agenda, and just apply the process. Learn to observe your self chatter going on in the mind, and start blasting those memes out of the mind... You come to this place where Walla Walla can be beautiful, and sitting behind a tractor going very slow on a highway is an awesome opportunity to enjoy your own company or that of your families. I find it a great time to sit an observe my self chatter, and you know what as you learn to observe you start to neutralize the negative memes that are self defeating. They begin to make no sense at all! There is a peace in this life when you stop living with agendas and start to let life just flow.

Today, I thought it would be good to take my Washington Drivers test, and get my Drivers licence moved from Oregon to WA. This afternoon I have a deep desire to take my teenager for a long walk around the park. In between I will work on some tests for the temp job agency. I am starting to just let my ES lead me to where I need to be. It is actually quite fun and adventurous, but relaxing. My ES knows exactly where my good job is, and it knows exactly what I will do beyond that! Today is just about today.

zartgirl sj
P.S. I know this is hard to swallow, but your ES has much bigger more awesome things in store for you than you do!

[adam ant]

so then how do you apply intent without having an agenda? isnt that contradictory?


as you say your ES stopped you from going onto the bridge before the earthquake... didnt your ES also CREATE the earthquake in the first place?