Busting Loose

[zartgirl]

Adrienne

Well you posted on the CEM thread, but I decided that my answer belonged over here as it pertains more to Busting loose than CEM.

When dealing with fear, anxiety, and those kind of emotions... What we are really dealing with is a imagined time in the future that something will happen in a certain way that we do not want it to happen. In all your posts about your job, I hear fear of the boss or bosses and what they might do to you in a moment in the future if you don't do everything the way they want you to. This is just something that I have picked up on in your posts the last few days and it hit today as I was reading another of your posts.

One thing I was just reading in the Power of Now, because that is the book I am reading right now, and it hit me because I also deal with that fear of the future moment if... Remember that life situations are just situations and not problems! Problems are imagined with future outcomes, but situations are just that! Don't look out to the future and what might happen. When you have a long line of people at work just focus on getting the next person in line out the door in the best manner possible! Don't look at or worry about the next person in line. Then move on to the next person, and do the same with that person. Soon it will either be time to go home or the line will have gone away.

Then when things have calmed down you can then take the time to process any discomforts you felt. The more you process discomforts the easier it becomes and the faster you will be able to do the process. I find that I can run through the whole process in a matter of moments in my head if I need to. If it is something big though, I might wait till I have the time to really dive into the emotions, and then process them that way. But as a way of dealing with whatever I need to in the moment to get through the day I just run through it real fast.

Be very careful of future thinking, it is okay to set a goal and work towards it, but don't let it be your salvation! Don't let it consume you. For instance I have a goal of permanent housing, and I take the steps each day that I need to to reach that goal, but I don't let it consume me! It is much easier to practice being in the NOW when you it is calm and quiet, and as you get more practice that way then you gain more power in being in the NOW and eventually you will be at work with a huge line or in traffic or whatever usually is harassing to you and you will be able to just be there and not project out to the future! You will also find as you process more and more eggs and regain more and more power from those hidden eggs you will have less of them pop up... From the way I understand it there will always be eggs that come up as we grow along our journey, but those eggs will not be as big and not as often as they are when we first start. I am finding that my eggs that are coming up are smaller and smaller... Although as I approach mediation in my divorce, I am feeling a big one coming to the surface! I am thinking that I am going to start to work on that one right now tonight in a quiet space, so that when I get there I will have collapsed that egg completely and my X will hold no power over me! I have to say that my relationship with my X is better than it has ever been... My daughter says I talk to him more now than I did before when we were together... I realize that is because I have taken the power out of the eggs that pertained to him so much! I no there is at least one more that I need to process.

I hope this long post helps!!!!
Love and Gratitude Sj zartgirl

[zartgirl]

Whooooohoooo!

LOL! I decided to take some temporary work, so all week I have been taking tests on things like MS Office software, and data entry, and typing test... The typing test was really freaking me out! It was the last one of that group that I have to take (have two more sessions of tests to do, this was the first session of tests). Arrrrrgggh! I was majorly not wanting to take that typing test because I had not typed for a long time where I had to be accurate and I type fast, but I correct as I go, so the backspace key feels to me like part of home row... Yea! Well I finally laid down on my bed and did the process and then just focussed on Gratitude and praising! Then all of a sudden I wanted to and needed to take that test (needed as inside me there was this need to get that test done). I got up and took it! My Raw score was 45 words per minute and I made only two mistakes that I did not correct already was 2 words per minute, and my total score was 43 words per minute! That is a cool score!

My point is that the process works! I don't think it raised my typing score, but it did calm me down enough to take the test! Hehee

Yesterday I was in the store, and I had not eaten breakfast... I was wanting sweets... craving sweets... I was going to get me some sweets! LOL! I was thinking I was going to go to the bakery after I found what I needed... I stopped myself and started to observe the thought process, and then I did the process on those feelings! Finished finding my groceries I needed and headed towards the bakery... I got to the bakery and the donuts and such looked soooo disgusting to me... I left the store with out any sweets, because anything with sugar looked gross to me! I am sooooo Awesome! First to create the addiction to Sweets, and second to stop and process it and then walk away from a craving! That is POWER! That is Awesome!

Love and Gratitude and more Gratitude
zartgirl Sj

[Adrienne]

hi

quick note:
wheni apply gratitude throughout my day... the process is much stronger... and i ca feel it working much more powerfully...
I'd say it's equivilant to expressing appreciation to everything in my life...


Awesome on your the book cover Zartgirl....

Adrienne

[adam ant]

hey that is pretty cool.

[zartgirl]

Eeeekkk! Things are happening!

Okay I have done several book covers, but now one is up and for sale! Actually published! I am soooo excited!!!!

Okay here is the link to the publishers website:

http://bookstore.astemari.com/zugspitze.php

My hologram is really starting to change majorly! Okay I just had to share that bit of news with you as soon as I got it! Last I was told, the publisher was going to use one of there illustrators... They just could not get around the patterns I am putting into the field!

Hehehehehehe! Okay Now I just can not wait to see what is going to happen next!

Love and Gratitude Sallyjane zartgirl

[adam ant]

you sure hit the nail on the head with that one Stephen.

The trick of course, is getting into the state of truly knowing you can do this and two-pointing your way into your Intention

im fighting myself every step of the way. BUT, the good news is that i always win!!

[sterlingpg]

A quick sidetrack from the BL thread lol...

Aren't you being the tease now, Stephen!

Might you not be willing to say more? Please? You've certainly piqued my interest! For what purposes might one do that? I'm having a little trouble getting my creative thinking cap on.
Thanks,
Chris

Hi Chris,

There are several elements of BL and ME that crossover, so I'd say that qualifies for a quick ME comment on the time travel into the 'future' with ME on this thread, yes?

Basically, in the Field of infinite possibilities, all possible future events already exist. There is no true linear time beyond a certain level of particle 'reality'. Its more like one big horizontal schmear that exists all at once! Or, as God describes in Conversations With God, this dynamic record is like an infinite stack of papers, each describing an 'event'.

Thus, with ME, though we use the words 'time travel to the future', I liken it more to accessing a pattern from the Field, or Matrix that already exists in a parallel universe and integrating it into this particularly conscious pattern that is 'me'. In infinite parallel universes, whether its 'true' or a 'useful fiction', makes no difference since something indeed occurs! There is a parallel universe where Adam Ant has practiced guitar for 10 years and can integrate this information into his current 'grid' or pattern that is 'him'. The trick of course, is getting into the state of truly knowing you can do this and two-pointing your way into your Intention. The conscious mind does not want to let go of what it thinks is 'the way things are' (ie that improved guitar skills only come from practice and talent etc), and so getting out of your mind lol, is a useful thing!

In Peace,

tephen

[Adrienne]

just gonna say... i have attracted this uncomfortable feeling of writting two posts i

just gonna say... i have attracted this uncomfortable feeling of writting two posts in response to silence... which was beautifully wrote BTW SallyJane..
The first one was erased by my darling child, and the second one was lost cuz my comp froze.....lol
perhaps i am to remain in silence then..????

But more likely to apply the process of the egg that came up.... Cuz I am now exstrememly frustrated.
thanks..
Love and Light...Adrienne

[zartgirl]

as for the rest, i have been getting better and better at this and the ME processes. Busting loose for defense(reactive) and ME for offense(proactive)

The ME sounds great! I will have to get that book maybe next... Right now I am working through the Power of Now... It has some great stuff on pain bodies... That is how far I have gotten into it (not that far)! I finally have been able to pick it up again and start reading it again. Now it is actually making sense and I don't have to keep reading it over and over trying to get it to soak in! LOL! What I love about it is that it is showing me how the process from the BL book works. As with your ears I have had a jaw problem since I was a teenager... Grace has worked on it with the CEM and I have had some relief from the pain. I am looking forward to reclaim the power from in and also observe that pain body to completely disolve it.

The coolest thing is that the more I do all this the more my hologram is starting to change / transform. Although the BL seems to be defensive, it really is proactive too, but probably not as much as the ME would be! What I do see changing the most is ME (Myself). I am much calmer and at peace with things. I do have some more discovery of who I am, and I can see areas where I am not calm yet, but I process those areas (for instance when my kids refuse to go to bed when I ask them too, or do chores I ask them to do). The secret is to just keep observing and processing the discomforts, and the complete transformation will come. I am sooooo excited, because I am feeling it like it is right around the corner! It is awesome too!

For me learning all about the pain bodies and how to disolve them along with the process is so cooool! Because I have lived in pain all my life, and know little joy. Now I am learning how to disolve those and live with true joy and love and gratitude. Isn't this all totally awesome!

Well I am glad to hear that it is all getting easier and feeling right for you! I will have to check out the ME so I can join you all on the ME thread too! I am also totally curious about the CEM and would love to learn to do it too.... I just want to learn it all!

Love and Gratitude zartgirl Sj

[adam ant]

Like I said I have frustrated many!

no frustration here, i dont have any desires to change you.




as for the rest, i have been getting better and better at this and the ME processes. Busting loose for defense(reactive) and ME for offense(proactive)

[Jure]

WOW, BL is really mind blowing. It will take awhile to accept all that. I started to practice The Process at the moment I ve read about it as I got so many issues comming directly to me like a big truck . But I got the power from the Eggs.
I think Phase 2 is a foundation for building a new life - better game to play.

Do you think ME is a tool to help you in The Process or is it a Phase 2 tool, when you allready bust loose?
How do you think PATHS relates to Pahse 1 and Phase 2 tools?
As I see it and understand the book, everything what is important is the Process and getting back the power with no agendas to play the Human Game and to make it more fun and all other tools are obsolete....
Huh, I get more questions with every chapter....now I understand how most of you felt...

[zartgirl]

Ouch!!!

Brian, that would be very uncomfortable! I personally can hardly stand that sound when they test the emergency testing system!

Remember how I told you a few posts up that I have frustrated more than a few... (mostly men don't know why?)

Okay here is my suggestion...

Hmmmm... remember in the book how it says to process any discomfort? Well I believe this qualifies as serious discomfort!

So as you feel this discomfort (which is probably all the time apply the process... Now here is the deal apply the process without an agenda
Yea I know it seems logical to want to apply the process to get rid of the ringing in the ears, right? But instead just apply the process while being in that place we call the NOW! Don't worry if it shuts off the ringing right away or not... Just keep applying the process! The point is to reclaim the power that the discomfort holds from you. Eventually, as you reclaim more and more power from that egg, and other eggs healing comes. As you start applying the process to that issue, it might bring about more issues from the time you spent in the service...

For me when I first started I was applying the process to all the discomfort I had from my divorce and custody issues. I was applying the process all the time! Ofcourse for a while I had an agenda to get what I wanted from the situation... Nothing happened! Then I finally came to the understanding that I could have NO Agenda! 1. because it was interfering with me reclaiming the power from the eggs being shown to me. 2. What I wanted is most likely a lot less than my ES wanted to give to me. So just apply the process and know that a total transformation will take place in you. It will be more awesome than you can even imagine!

Here is another thing... Watch what you say and how you say it. For years I HAD a chronic sinus and bronchial problems. So when I started to feel my sinus discomfort this last week, not only did I apply the process but I started rephrasing what I said about it. Notice that I said here that I HAD a chronic, because I do not want to give power to the egg I was processing. So start to rephrase any statements that refer to the ear discomfort you had in the past, not that you have it still.

Well enough harping on this subject! Like I said I have frustrated many!

Love and Gratitude Sallyjane zartgirl

[adam ant]

silence... i could stand for some of that. i have tinnitus in my ears from working with heavy weapons in the military. there is no silence for me.
when others talk about hearing the "HU" all i hear is a solid tone, like one would hear in the classic "This is only a test of the american broadcast system" doooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

[zartgirl]

The music in the silence

Adam Ant (I believe is Brian, right?)

I was reminded of something in Adriennes post...

The Silence! Can you stand it? When people ask me what my favorite music is or song... I always say the same thing "The MUSIC in the SILENCE" it is not performed by any human band, it just is there when you sit quietly in he silence tuning out any noise that man might make where you are. Most people can not stand silence as it drives them nutty. They have to have their MP3 players or stereos or whatever making noise drowning out the silence. To me there is music there that is more beautiful than anything the human mind can make! It is so totally awesome! It is in the silence that I paint my best paintings, and it is in the silence that I write my best creative short stories, and it is the silence that I often get the answers to my toughest questions, or where I left my keys... It is there in the silence that you can hear what I have always called that small still voice (that is a bible reference, because that is my training), but what you really find or hear is GOD, your ES, the Field, the Universe, or whatever you want to call it. It is in the silence that you can be in the NOW, and really listen to your intuition / heart / whatever you call it...

Argghhhhhhh! Again, it is in the silence that the mind screams the loudest, and that is why most people do not have the courage to brave the silence and want to avoid it at all costs! In the Silence is a place where you can really just sit and observe your mind and see it for what it is! The reason your mind will scream at you is because it does not want you to hear that small still voice, your true self calling to you to remember ME! It has to desparately fight against the silence, because the silence is not silent at all, there is beautiful music in the SILENCE!

I challenge you to sit in the silence and observe your mind and listen for the music in the Silence! It is Freakin' Awesomeness!

When I was still in my house with my x, I lost my ability to hear the music in the Silence (Field), because all I could hear was his voice telling me awful things about who I was, but since I have left I can now sit in the Silence and listen to the music there! Let me tell you, the Silence never tells me that I am awful or bad or anything else negative! The Silence sees Awesomeness in me!

Adrienne was telling me that when she sits in the Silence and listens to it, it is easier to apply the process of the Busting loose. I think she is right! Even when I am driving with my kids in the car and need to apply the process, I have to ask my kids for Quiet time, so Mom can Process this discomfort! It is also easier to stay focussed on the process and not get distracted and forget what you were doing.

Love and Gratitude
Sallyjane zartgirl

[adam ant]

I find it interesting that you chose Van Gough... The man went MAD!

yup

Take a flower... Not every leaf is shaped the same, and flowers are not perfectly symetrical either. When I was little I use to try to draw them symetrical and perfect, but it was not till I just allowed myself to draw the imperfections of the flower that the flower looked perfect! Does that make sense?

yes, it makes perfect sense, according to your specific perception. i do see the illusion of the beautiful flower(my favorites thinsg to photograph) but i REALLY like the cells, DNA, and atomic structures... which are perfectly symmetrical.

i bounce back and forth between the two, trying to find that perfect balance between symmetry and asymmetry, chaos and order, good and bad, light and dark, Yin and Yang... at the same time.

after all, to observe one doesnt make the other go away, they both are still there regardless of it being a hologram, light, frequency, ether or whatever.