Oh girl, I am so sorry, I have been wanting to reply to you, but my wireless network went down and the only computer I could get online with was the one that this site will not let me sign into on. So I was not able to reply to you till the network guy came out and reprogrammed my wireless network. Normally I can fix this kind of stuff, but it was the cable companies equipment that was the problem this time, so I could not fix it myself. I felt so lost with out the internet on my computer and having to do everything on my X's computer till I could get this fixed. I do know how you are feeling, as I have felt exactly what you are feeling. I know I am supposed to be not in Walla Walla, but "OH MAN!" has this been a tough ride down here. I have experienced a lot. "Experienced" is my new word, as I am taking issues, challenges, problems, and etc. out of my vocabulary. I have also decided to take out the word learning or lessons, because I believe when I am looking at it that way the Universe says "Oh, she wants to learn!" and keeps giving me more to learn verses what I really want.
Focus on anyway you know of to clear those feelings. I have recently learned EFT at a free meetup. I am finding it awesome to be able to tap old beliefs as I find them lurking below the surface. Last night my little guy of 10 years old came home from school with lots of Math homework, and in the past he would get very overwhelmed by his Math homework. He started freaking out about it and how he could not do it. I guided him through a tapping of the issue, and then told him to go watch some TV we would deal with Math in the morning. I then went to get his sister, and left him in front of the tv. When I got back, he was back at the desk and was almost done with the Math. It was soooo awesome to see the change in him and soooo quickly! I was amazed, even though I know it works. I am using it to transform my thoughts to keep them from diving into low vibrational thoughts and to keep me in high vibrational thoughts. It has been very powerful. Find a way to process those thoughts as you go. Another great system I have used in the past is "The Busting Loose from the Money Game". It is awesome! I used that process all the way through living in the Shelter and into my house I got.
I am learning to look at the experiences as blessings and just trusting in them. Last week I found out that although I thought all of my mortgage was paid by my X I had been working for, in fact he had only paid 1/2 of it. Awe man! At first I was freaking out. Then he told me he was not going to pay the rest. I started to freak out. I went and got the help I needed from a different direction, but knew it would come up a little short... Then yesterday I talked to the person about my mortgage and I am fine with the half till I can get a job and catch up. We have to just trust the Universe that it knows what is best and put aside all the doubts. Again tapping or the likes would be helpful in that.
Hope this helpful
Love, light, and blessings
Sallyjane
I was so sure I was doing the right thing moving but right now I'm not so sure. I still think I needed to move from where I was but I just don't know where I'm meant to be and it's very unsettling. You so take for granted things like having a home, job, family etc but when you don't have any of them it kind of makes the world look different. Right now I've got blocked ears which has made my strange new world a pretty silent one! They're about 95% blocked and whilst I can't tell what people are saying I've got loud buzzing in my ears and a horrible squelchy sound when I eat and everything sounds loud and echoey. Very weird. I hope they clear themselves soon as I also feel off balance but then I guess that's how I feel anyway. Meanwhile I'm just going with the flow and praying that things will very very soon be clearer. Any corrections you can give to assist with this Grace would be much appreciated.
Well I have been struggling since I got down here with all sorts of stuff. I have learned so much while being here. I have been through so many emotions!
A lot of them were not happy ones either! I have felt sad, lonely, left out, forgotten about, trapped, and oh the list goes on! I have been having a challenge of sorts finding a job, and then feeling forced to work for my X. Money has been really tight, and even my cell phone and my Paths have been temporarily turned off. Arrrgggh! Well at least that was the first reaction. I have felt like I had taken all those steps forward and now was going backwards.
Heather


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