Chinese Energetic Medicine by Grace

[cassiopeias_dream]

Thanks, Sunshine

When I posted that I was crying hysterically and considering cutting myself because that felt like the only way to numb the pain out (used to be a cutter way back when, thought that was over and done with but lately I've been having a lot of relapses!). But some short time after reading this thread and posting I calmed down, and went through some really interesting, albeit painful stuff, just lying and feeling the pain and where in my body it originated. Mostly it struck me how subconsciously I really don't want to let go of my pain, for several reasons - because change is scary, the pain is familiar and a part of me that I've lived with for so long, because the pain is tinged with some kind of strange pleasure - and so on. And those reasons are still there, but it was interesting to realise just how much I'm clinging on to my issues for dear life.

Still, it's disheartening because I've been working *intensely* on my issues (mostly with EFT) for over a year now, and I've had so many of these moments that seem like healing crises, and I keep telling myself it's one step back, two steps forward, but really it just feels like two steps forward, two steps back all the time. Paths really feels like my last hope because I just don't have the energy to be optimistic about my ability to overcome this anymore.

I feel better today. I hope all this @#%& is at least a sign that the Trauma Free module is working for me.

[Empath]

Grace's post about freedom triggered some explorations. My exploration has to do with the literal unhealed wounds on my ankle and feet and how the metaphor of Chiron as both a mythological and astrological entity may help me with this lesson.

What I found on Martin Lass's site works on many levels, addressing several recurring themes of this thread.

Love and Wholeness,
Eileen


Martin Lass - The Moon

The Healing Power of Gratitude
Chiron’s Final Trump Card
The Miracle of Gratitude
Healing is about gratitude. I have glimpsed the divine plan behind my creation and acknowledged the part played by my father, mother and violin teacher (and many more). I love my father for everything that he was and was not—just for being who he was for me. I love my violin teacher for everything that he was and was not for me—just for being who he was. I love my mother for everything that she was and was not to me—just for being who she was. Without these people being exactly who they were, I would not be the person I am today. I thank them for that; I thank God for that; I thank myself for that. I am grateful for my life… that is what healing is all about.

Perfection exists in every way throughout the universe. The more we see this perfection, the more gratitude we have. The more gratitude we have, the more healed we become. The more gratitude we have, the more love we experience. The more love we experience, the wider our consciousness expands—the more we evolve. We are actually infinite beings, extending in all directions to infinity in the universe. Science is beginning to understand this in terms of wave/particle interactions and field theory.

Simply put, what we have learned to love in our lives determines the rim of our sphere of consciousness. What we have yet to love is what lies outside that sphere of consciousness. What we love we are the masters of. What we have yet to love rules us. Seeing the inherent perfection and balance in the mis-perceptions that we call ‘wounds’ and ‘blockages’ brings gratitude. Gratitude is the levitative force that bring us to greater love. Healing is the process of discovering that our true nature is love.

Every day now, in the morning and at night, I list the things in my live that I am grateful for. I keep listing and digging deeper until my heart opens once more and tears of inspiration flow from me. In this space of gratitude and love, we can hear the messages of the soul more clearly. We can know where we come from, where we are going, why we are here and who we are. Would that not be worth it? The process is now known and is scientifically proven and repeatable. It our choice now.

[ImBill]

I've already been working on letting fear go when it comes around for the past few weeks. I am replacing it with confidence and a devil-may-care attitude. Who needs it? Thanks for the reminder! I am extremely happy to hear how wonderful things are going for you, Grace. Keep up the good work!

[Sunshine]

Hi Casseiopeias

Just hang in there. I know what you're going through. When you get these feelings just go with whatever feels best for you and know that they will pass. I know it doesn't feel like it at the time. It could just be the modules you are on bringing stuff up. I know when I was on the trauma release module I went through a pretty rough time I know what it feels like when you just feel that nothing will ever change and you're just really weary of how things are. If you are able to sleep then that can help. You will still be processing things whilst you're asleep. And Grace will be doing corrections for you because you posted on here. I don't know if you've read all the posts on here (there a quite a few! ) but when you get a moment it can be helpful reading what you can because you will pick up the corrections from previous posts and it can also help reading what people have been through.

Sallyjane. I am so so happy that you've got yourself a house and that your California move is getting closer. And that you've got interviews lined up and that things are flowing. That is just so awesome. And it's encouraging to read that you had doubts about abundance and managed to move beyond and things are happening for you.

Grace. Can't wait to hear what you have to say about freedom and release of fears. Both of these have been coming up strong for me in the last few weeks. Please would you be able to do some corrections for me regarding freedom from things I don't want/need anymore? Also anything that I need to release to allow things to fall into place. Like Sallyjane, I am having doubts as regards abundance and have also just had a bad episode with my mcs which is still affecting me so I'm feeling a bit out of sorts right now. I need to be fully functioning to handle moving, finding somewhere to live and a job etc and could really use some help right now.

thank you.

[cassiopeias_dream]

Hi Grace

I'm new posting here, but I've been following this thread for a bit. Would you (or anyone else) be willing to do some corrections on me? I'm on Paths and I think I'm having a healing crisis (I hope it's a healing crisis at least and not just me being stuck in the same patterns of depression as always). I'm trying to keep positive and do EFT, etc, but it's so hard. It feels like my heart is ripping apart, there's too much sadness to bear, and so much self-hatred. I feel like giving up

cassiopeia

[Grace]

For All!

I have some exciting information to share with all of you soon, (including replying back to those of you personally). You will all have to forgive me for even though I read this thread daily and make the requested corrections, I have been focused on using the 2 hours I usually give to replying daily to my Karate training. My Tournament and week long Karate Workshop begins on June 22nd.

This exciting news will benefit all of us in many ways as it concerns True Freedom. I have been making many corrections on us, and what I have been made aware of is the importance of the vibration of Freedom. Especially for the next few days, become aware of your feelings, and the "release of fears". I will explain more soon.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for the Love and posts you are sharing. It truly does make my day to hear from each of you.

[zartgirl]

Thank you Grace

Thank you Grace for all the corrections you have been doing for me! I have been releasing my all of my doubts about my abundance that I had grasped onto. I realize just how true it is about how close I am to manifesting so much abundance. My X bought the house for me. I posted my resume on Monster and I am getting a number of employers wanting me to interview. I am going to be picky on that matter. Many new things are coming my way, and I have no idea what they all are, but they are better than my agenda, so I release all that I have planned and am letting the Universe take control and give me more than I have ever imagined.

So this weekend I let go and applied for many new jobs in California, and started planning my move... So what happens the plug in the dam that was putting off all of my sales started to leak a little bit and I scheduled some sales meetings, and will continue too! I am excited because I will be in California sooner than I had even imagined!

Well blessings and Love, light and JOY, and lets add some laughter in there too tonight!

Sallyjane

[Inika]

Lymes disease

Hi Grace,
I was walking in the woods here in Long Island where there is a lot of Lymes Disease and I muscle tested myself for Lymes and came up strongly positive. Can you test for me in case i am wrong and make some corrections? I tested that I have had it for 17 years. Maybe that is why I am tired a lot.

Thanks!

[yari]

Hi Grace

Hi Grace!

Yesterday I got through the day by practicing Gratitude it was not easy since my ego really wanting to fight. It gets easier once I notice what's really happening to me and. That it is my Ego trying to discourage me. Yes I do know that I can tackle this little by little by looking at it as an opportunity and not a threat. When I lose my cool I don't get down on myself I just get back on that horse and focus on something that I'm grateful for. Thanks Grace!! The girls are still not feeling good but for being sick they are in good spirit! Me and Sebastian are still practicing Love and Gratitude and I've been reading to him The Master Key system also.. He's still pushing my buttons but I've notice that when I get mad at him I just Flip that card to LOVE like SallyJane says to do and I let it go. I do feel that my feet are getting better!!! I've been doing a lot of running around and chores which should put me in a lot of pain but is all good now. I only have pain when I lay down so I focus on Gratitude to help me wake up with less pain so things are really started to make a lot of sense to me, thanks to you!! Ill keep you posted on the girls..

Immense Gratitude! Yari

[Raindancer]

Thank you, Pamela and Sunshine for your perspectives and experiences. It seems to me that both where you are coming from as well as where the Stoics are coming from are correct from my current perspective.

People who have had near death experiences are generally changed forever and become much more loving and appreciative. Many Indigenous, if not all, practice some form of death as an advisor. The Dalai Lama has included a dying process to do every day in his book on Happiness. Dr. Hawkins talks about his, "And then what?" process which generally takes the person that has fear to the point of, "and then I'll die." which then sheds light, (and love), on the fear.

Perhaps sending love and using death as an advisor to open the heart are two sides of the same coin.

Love, Light and Gratitude,
Raindancer

"Be yourself, everyone else is already taken!"

[yari]

Thanks soo Much

Thanks Grace,SallyJane, and Sunshine for your support!!
After Fours months of knowing Grace and posting here. I see how different I am compare to then. My fears were dominating my life and was causing me panic attacks. I can now say how much I realize that all my fears were not real. I WOULD LIKE TO LET M & M know to hang in there!! there is light in you, even when you don't feel it. You are very precious jewel!!

Also wants to show lots of love to Pamela and her amazing paintings that brightens my day!!

Grace Mi Vida is eating better Sebastian knock on wood is doing good. Yamari I'm working on still and Jonathan's got his photos done and they are fantasic!! I got some news today that I was suppose to go to Miami tomorrow for court, is going to be postponed. I was getting scared but then I realized that This is nothing really. Nothing can really hurt me I do remember you saying that I'm not going to court and that's what I'm sticking too thanks for ur CEM work on all of us.

Mucho love

Yari

[Sunshine]

Hi Raindancer

Oooh, I really don't like the idea of negative visualisation. Why in the world would anyone want to spend time each day imagining that they have lost the things they love the most?!?! Or if they've lost their health, imagine losing their life? I can see what they're trying to do, but for me it wouldn't make me appreciate what I had, it would just make me feel totally depressed!!! It's good to appreciate what you have today but I can think of better ways of doing it than negative visualisation!! Having desires is natural. We are creating all the time, so I would prefer to create something nice! It can be challenging enough concentrating on what you want to create and taking your attention away from what you DON'T want to create, without deliberately focussing on some horrible scenario.



Hi Yari

I'm so glad that you're making progress. I really admire how you are handling things. It sounds as though you have quite a challenging situation and I know how tough things can be when you're having to deal with it alone. Staying calm and keeping on with what you know is right is quite an achievement. I am sending some love your way.



Hi Musingmus

My heart goes out to you feeling you're in such a black hole and I understand your pain. Do you have any people you can talk to about how you're feeling? Sometimes just getting your thoughts out of your head can help. I don't know how you feel about doctors or if you've seen one or if they're helping in any way but if you're not, is it something that you might consider? I don't know what things you've tried so far but I do know that different things work for different people and it's really just a matter of finding what's right for you. I know how hopeless it can all seem and that you really don't have the energy to do anything. Medication from the doctors might be an option, even if it's just short term to give you the ability to take the next step. Or there are herbal remedies that can help with depression. I don't know if you've tried any or what you think but it's just something to consider. And things like counselling too. It might be something you've already tried or not. If you have and it's not helped it could be that the next person you try is the right one for you and things will just click into place. I know how hard it can be when you don't seem to be getting anywhere and you get tired of trying. And when you're feeling depressed it can be hard to see clearly. All I know is that it is possible to come through this. Even just a tiny seed of hope will help you to the next step and that's all you need. Just a tiny next step. I know that Grace will still be doing corrections on you and Sallyjane will be surrounding you with a blanket of love and that myself and others on here will have you in our hearts and be sending you lots of love. I used to think similar to you, but I know that God doesn't hate you. God is love and can't hate. It's just not possible. Even though you can't see it, you are love and you are loved. If you need someone to be there for you then you are welcome to message me. If you're able to sleep, then maybe sleep as you need to. And maybe listen to some soothing music. Here is a link which has some music on it which I found very healing. Don't worry about reading the message on there. Just listen to the music. It will keep repeating itself. The Power of "Awareness". Also, I don't know if you've come across something called quantumK? Here is a link to some healing which is totally free. Quantum K - Free Healing Experience
I am going to picture you as totally well and at peace.

[Pamela Vicik-Smith]

"Even realizing your goals, however, will not lead to lasting satisfaction. That's because human wants are insatiable.

Most of us are trapped on what psychologists call the hedonic treadmill. We work to achieve what we desire. Those things satisfy us for a while. But we soon adapt to them and dissatisfaction returns.

Negative visualization is spending time each day imaging that you have lost the things you value most. Vividly imagine, for example, that your job has just been terminated, that your house - with all your possessions - has burned to the ground, that your partner has left you, or that you have lost your sight, your hearing or the use of your limbs."

I agree with the first paragraph, but I look at that as a positive thing. I think the joy in life comes from working toward something. And while it is true that once we have achieved that thing we are satisfied for only a little while before we want something bigger, better, newer, etc, that is how we all expand. I hope I never get to the place where I am satisfied with what I have. When that day comes, I know it is the end of the road for me.

As far as the last paragraph regarding "negative visualization", I think that is a very, very dangerous thing to be doing. Knowing that the Universe is attraction-based and what you think about regularly will become your reality, I personally would never want to "vividly imagine" losing my home, job, husband, or limbs.

In the past two and a half years that I have been purposely directing my thoughts, I have manifested many wonderful things into my experience. I appreciate every thing I have but there is still so much more I want. This does not make me unhappy. Perhaps if I did not know about the Law of Attraction and if I believed I truly could not have the things I desired, I would feel frustrated. But I know within the core of my being, that if I have the ability to want it, I have the ability to achieve it.

I believe the perfect place to be is to be happy and appreciative of what I have but still reaching for more

I really appreciate your post Alex! You presented an interesting concept and it will be interesting to read other viewpoints.

[musingmus]

IM not getting any better. im getting worse.
i really just want to end my life SOOOOOO bad.
i cant take this stupid pain.
i cant take god hating me so much.

im so depressed, i dont know what to do.

[yari]

Hey Grace

Well Last night was ok!! Sebastian fought about his punishment but I remain calm and he gave up eventually. Thanks for the help!! Even today he push my buttons but I stayed focus and he just gave up trying. I'm happy that I'm gaining control now. Mi Vida is eating table food and she likes the soy formula, she has to gain weight so I think she's gona alright now that she eating more. Thanks a lot

Mucho Love

Yari