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this kinda fits in with the art thread
i just posted this in the cem thread, but i thought i would share with my fellow artist incase you miss it in the other thread....
hi grace. hi everyone.
I just started my new modules today.
spiritual enlightenment
stand out at work
successful living phase 2
stay young
wow...its been a crazy evening.
first of all... i wanna say that i was thinking of going to new york to see some friends, and a concert, of a band that i used to listen to quite alot in my youth. then i found out from a friend who was also planning to go, that our friend who lives there has been having a rough time. he's been getting extremely drunk and has been using an extreme amount of coccaine. when i heard this it really bummed me out. i mean.. i was going to be visiting with him on this trip, but then i thought maybe nows not the time, because its possible that his wife could leave him. she's totally not in to that scene. i just felt so bad for him and his wife, and felt like theres nothing i could do. it just made me really sad.
after that... i felt tired and didn't wanna go to my oil painting class that i just recently started. a friend was on his way to pick me up, so i didn't wanna flake. when i got to class i really wasn't prepared. i was going to print out a photograph from my teachers computer, and she wasn't really cool with that, so she told me to pick a painting from the box. the boxes basically just have pictures of paintings that are mostly impressionistic or they are just out right boring to me. i guess i tend to be into realism, modern art, and surrealism. i'm really just a beginner, but i have this weird perfectionist thing going on. its like i wanna do what i wanna do. i want it to be perfect and i wanna feel completely comfortable at all times. ugh... what is that??? so i felt myself turning into a five year old , and i was battling with the teacher. i told her i didn't like what was in the box, but i did choose a few that were alright. i was just so resistant. before i new it i was crying in class, and i couldn't control it. i was so embarrased . all of these emotions were coming up, about not finishing things, being resistant to challenges, resistance to being told what to do. feelings of failure that i couldn't do what was being asked of me. feeling like i just i can't be good at anything, because i am impatient. ugh... so much stuff came up.
the thing is it needed to come up!!! these are my blocks to creating success in my life. I mean after all this is why i'm using paths in the first place. i wanna work on things. anyway...i'm feeling alot better now. i just wanted to share.
thanks for listening/reading.
love you
heather
i just posted this in the cem thread, but i thought i would share with my fellow artist incase you miss it in the other thread....
hi grace. hi everyone.
I just started my new modules today.
spiritual enlightenment
stand out at work
successful living phase 2
stay young
wow...its been a crazy evening.
first of all... i wanna say that i was thinking of going to new york to see some friends, and a concert, of a band that i used to listen to quite alot in my youth. then i found out from a friend who was also planning to go, that our friend who lives there has been having a rough time. he's been getting extremely drunk and has been using an extreme amount of coccaine. when i heard this it really bummed me out. i mean.. i was going to be visiting with him on this trip, but then i thought maybe nows not the time, because its possible that his wife could leave him. she's totally not in to that scene. i just felt so bad for him and his wife, and felt like theres nothing i could do. it just made me really sad.
after that... i felt tired and didn't wanna go to my oil painting class that i just recently started. a friend was on his way to pick me up, so i didn't wanna flake. when i got to class i really wasn't prepared. i was going to print out a photograph from my teachers computer, and she wasn't really cool with that, so she told me to pick a painting from the box. the boxes basically just have pictures of paintings that are mostly impressionistic or they are just out right boring to me. i guess i tend to be into realism, modern art, and surrealism. i'm really just a beginner, but i have this weird perfectionist thing going on. its like i wanna do what i wanna do. i want it to be perfect and i wanna feel completely comfortable at all times. ugh... what is that??? so i felt myself turning into a five year old , and i was battling with the teacher. i told her i didn't like what was in the box, but i did choose a few that were alright. i was just so resistant. before i new it i was crying in class, and i couldn't control it. i was so embarrased . all of these emotions were coming up, about not finishing things, being resistant to challenges, resistance to being told what to do. feelings of failure that i couldn't do what was being asked of me. feeling like i just i can't be good at anything, because i am impatient. ugh... so much stuff came up.
the thing is it needed to come up!!! these are my blocks to creating success in my life. I mean after all this is why i'm using paths in the first place. i wanna work on things. anyway...i'm feeling alot better now. i just wanted to share.
thanks for listening/reading.
love you
heather
, and it was rather astonishing for me to hear them say "Oh, do you see the face in that part of the flower?" and "Oh...Pamela, look over at that part...Do you see the eye?"
I thought to myself..."Where did THAT come from?" and "How did I MISS it?" When speaking to Grace about these features of those particular paintings that Aaron pointed out, she made it clear to me that SHE had noticed them as well!!!
) I think what I am trying to say here is that through all of this, I am NOW beginning to REALLY remember a great deal about Who I Really Am through the process of my painting and then looking even deeper after completion. It is most enlightening and brings me much fulfillment as well as delicious surprises!
Thank You, my Beautiful Friend, for your gift of seeing the world through my eyes with your eloquence with the written word. 
At times over the years, the act of cultivating my gift produced torment and frustration, but for the most part, it has produced within my being feelings of joy and wonder as it flourished and blossomed. I am so very grateful to be able to lovingly give my gift back to the world and KNOW that doing so brings people joy and encourages a sensitivity to love within their consciousness. 
I cannot express how deeply Blessed I am to have Sharyn in my life and I wanted to honor her with a painting created especially for her. I used iridescent watercolors in this painting to reflect the Light that IS Sharyn 
for all you have done for me...I Love You Deeply...
Or else, I will come energetically tapping at your window. 
It's about TIME you graced us once again with your Incredibly GORGEOUS photography!!! Hmmm...
It's difficult for me to choose a favorite because I Love them ALL, but I know that I want to jump into the one with the horses... That scene just looks so inviting and serene...
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