Chinese Energetic Medicine by Grace

[prose10]

It's never boring!

Hi Grace,

I need some help. I don't know what's going on, but it seems like whenever things are going well and I acknowledge and express gratitude for the good things in my life, it's like a door is slammed shut and everything goes back to "normal" or gets worse. I have wanted to post for over a week, but I was hoping this would pass. I had a couple of days when almost every thought I had was negative. I would force myself to find the good, but it was a fight.

I don't know if it's the corrections stirring up past issues, or if it's just a part of the PATHS process, you feel better, then worse, then better again, or cognitive dissonance?

Then things started breaking. My DVR isn't working. My computer went nuts, I lost all of my bookmarks and my browser got hijacked. My washing machine broke; the repairman came 3 times and it still doesn't work. What's going on here? I feel like I am going insane.

Financially I'm down to the wire. My ex wants me out of the house, I have no money and no job, just a paltry amount from disability. But I know something will turn up... it always does. A couple of people owe me money. My right and perfect income opportunity will come to me right in the nick of time. I took a leap of faith last week and ordered the Platinum module and put it on a credit card. Let's get this show on the road! I got a part-time job to cover my expenses.

I haven't been in pain for over a year... until last Thursday. The first day on the job, I lasted 3 hours before the pain began in my back and then my knees. An hour later I could barely walk or stand up straight. Not enough to drive me back to pain pills, but it's getting close. My back took almost a week to recover, and my knees still hurt. I'm telling myself that it's ok, I'm ok, and everything is in Divine Order, and I didn't really want that job anyway. So the ex wants me to go to a temp agency on Monday and work in an office and be a day person like everyone else.

I've always wanted to be a real estate investor, but the ex was not supportive, saying all real estate investors are crooks and you can't really make any money in real estate. Buying the worst house in the neighborhood and fixing it up is not my thing; I prefer pretty houses. I'm highly sensitive and the energy of a trashed house drains me physically and emotionally. Last year I took a 3 day "boot camp" for a system that I felt was a good match for me. Pretty houses, no repairs, full price offers and I still make money... a win/win situation. I haven't done anything with it because I've been too afraid (no cash, no husband or partner to help me and I didn't have faith in myself), but it's been in the back of my mind and I've been hoping that the modules I am using will increase my confidence and synchronicities so I can get this started soon. I sure could use a refresher course... I wish they'd come to Tampa soon.

So I'm sitting here writing all of this negativity down, not wanting to give in to it, but honor it as my creation, forgive myself and move on. I'm wondering what happened to all of those synchronicities that were everywhere I looked a couple of weeks ago? I sure could use some now.

I decided to write to Team Support about my Platinum module. I have narcolepsy and I'm still not sleeping without medication. I'm not sure exactly how much I can put into it, but I need to change my financial situation. As I'm typing, my cell phone rings and it's the people from the R.E. seminar. They are coming to Orlando this weekend, and would I like to attend? Since I've already taken the seminar, it's free! Perfect!

So maybe those synchronicities are starting again. But I sure would like to know why it seems to come and go. And what's with all the broken stuff? And why do my knees still hurt? And I might need help choosing new modules.

It's never boring!

With Love and Gratitude,

Pam

[zartgirl]

Today was interesting...

So I have been frustrated with my kids and the neighbors dogs who start at 5am barking... My kids don't do their chores when I am gone, and those dogs just bark and bark and bark! This morning I was ready to go over to the neighbors and just tell them something or another about their dogs needing to be dealt with! Also very frustrated with kids cause no chores getting done and my plate is way too full to make up the slack! Then I thought about it for a minute... Does fighting against it, actually eliminate it, or does it create more of it? So the more I fight with my kids to do their chores... The less chores they do! Hmmm... Dogs barking... Will yelling at my neighbor really make dogs stop barking? Answer:NO! So decided to 2 point kids and dogs before work, and while I was at it decided to 2 point phone calls at work to be short and sweet (work in collections, soooo) Got home tonight after 11.5 hour shift and Izzi had definitely did her chores and Nat was in bed... Still have to continue to work on Nat with 2 pointing and chores... Tomorrow we will see how dogs do, or if dogs bark if I will even hear them or care if they are barking!

Got to work just in time... something else I had decided to 2 point, because I have this fear of being late so I show up incredibly early... Today I just wanted to be on time and not too early... I was just that and more importantly calm... Then I started taking calls, and I got the easiest calls today while the people around me were having people yelling and cussing at them and supervisor calls! It was cool! Then I was talking to another rep and he was saying he could not calm down an upset customer... I was saying how they all seem to calm down for me! I realized that that is how I have created my world! I have a calming affect on people who just call in!

I just thought this was all soooo cool when we can calm down and we stop fighting against things and just start to send the right energy towards it!

I was just so excited with the results of my little test in changing my energy I was throwing at my family and the world... So this afternoon I sent my kids a text message with instead of the list of chores they are to do... just an I love you! Mom!

Blessings All and HUGE HUGS Sallyjane

[Adrienne]

hmm

notice how my format for writting has changed too... huh, interesting...A

[Adrienne]

thanks

those are powerful words... beautiful words

thank you
well as it seems i am projecting much stuff, and the theme seems to be about taking my power back
with the guy i was dating, with the women at work, and with my son

not sure what words to use to describe what i mean...
but a huge sense of,I am worth it

And the voice i have felt i hadn't had most of my life is surfacing amazingly
wow... the public speaking modual was a great choice i made, and wow, how remarkable of me to create paths to give me these great tools

even tonight.. when i was speaking loudly
with tristan (not liking the tough love) I am not being nice... but i am being kind
loudly... well firmly and through the door... and also just after a time where he resisted hard and i stood my ground... You know

the power in my voice...wow
my voice sounds different
and it isn't just the sound but the feel of it, the energy i guess

anyhow
amazing
and i wake up in the morning and i feel so strong and energized... and i feel this ecstacy oozing in me
i feel it now
it is beyond desciption of words
so i do see the perfection, in what at times i haven't been able to see
i am creating my own freedom


interesting side note...
in standing up for myself.. and expecially so close to home (tristan).. I have always had that fear of the other shoe dropping...
and a couple of weeks ago my girl friend said to me " Adrienne it seems like you have grown up beleiving in a punishing,condeming, angry god"
(something like that)
and i never really saw it befor.. or heard it
and in being afraid that the other shoe will drop... i asked my self today who is gonna drop it on me???????????????????????????????????????????????? ????????????????????????????????????????

well it would be me..
so to speak
althoguh i do come here and vent and share, i am aware.. although sometimes(or often have been) unable to see clearly

anyhow, once again.. not sure if that is coming out how i am feeling it... but it has been some very profound times.. and is... I am blown away

OH SallyJane

I am on the family communication modual
i have noticed things... thing that weren't in my awareness.. or like me to be in regards to my family

it has seems to come with more simplicity.


I am reading this book.
I am looking at things like what is my pay off in the thing i continue to create/do
cuz... man if there is a payoff.. i'd like to be aware of it..
and if it isn't really useful... which the things i experience (like the financial frustrations) well is it really matching anymore
NO
Hmmm, that statement makes me think of the power of intention tapes
Hmmmmm
anyhow..
I guess i did have something to say...
and I am also accessing the tool of looking at alll of tristans wonderful qualities... when i remember
Honestly, since i am putting my foot down..
he is displaying behavior that says "i feel loved"
although he is pushing to see if i am serious or mean it
it has been an amazing place
of healing
of insight
of love
of joy
of OMG
lol
kind of neat

and here is another wondrful thing that is happening this may long weekend... also know as Victoria day...
yup we have a heiarchy of royal dead people in canada
and holidays to go with them

I am going into the mountains (Jasper, BC) with my dad, who invited me.. OMG.. i haven't spent time with him in yrs
at least three
and then who knows when befor that
so i am shocked, and kind of nervous about that
although thrilled
my gut is tense.. thats what i am noticing when i think about it
three days with him and my son... I spent so many yrs of my life feeling so hurt by my dad....
and desperatly wanted his attention as a kid/youth.

anyhow... I am excited to see what this shows me about me NOW those are hugs for me... cuz i love me so much when i think and see how wonderful i truly am.
thank you so much grace for your wonderful words

LOL...
a matirx thing that has stuck out for me
the matrix movie... there is no spoon
the matrix seminar... there is no shoulder
adriennes experience in the matrix.... there is no shoe....LMAO
well i get it

Matrix rocks
Thank you so much for your help and corrections Grace
I Love You
night all.... have less and less of a need to be on the computer... i miss out on my life... so i am becoming aware
good bye
Adrienne

[Grace]

For Sallyjane!

Ahhhhh Adrienne! I just wanted to send you a huge HUG! Okay several! I love reading your posts, and how far you have travelled in your journey! As I was reading your post, about Tristen and cutting school... Your frustration with your relationship... I kept thinking about a paths module I am on currently, "Effective Communication at Home". I go through the products list every so often and then test the ones that pop out to my intuition. That one was popping big time to me! I just started it a few weeks ago, and I will let you know ho it is going! I am sure I am already seeing the subtle changes in myself with my kids! Although, one area I need to work on is to stop doing my kids chores for them! Today I thought I would just wash the big pots and pans and leave the dishes for my daughter... By the time she came in the dishwasher was loaded and the sink and counters and stove scrubbed. Not sure exactly what my daughter learned from that other than if she doesn't do her chores mom will do them on her day off! Hmmmm.... Well it is time to get Nat into the bath... so I am off to do so and get my quiet time before bed in. Last night I did some more work on my sleep, cause I have been waking up at night, and I slept all night till 5:30 am... That is when I realized that I need to specify exactly what time I want to wake up bright and early at with lots of energy!

Adrienne, I will work on you tonight as well and your son, as I work on my kids tonight. Have been 2pointing love, peace, forgiveness, compassion, and patience towards me and my kids, so will add Tristen in there.

Blessings Sallyjane

SALLYJANE, YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!!

[Grace]

For Prose10!

Hi Pam,


Your Post is ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS!! It is a perfect example of the Power of ONE!! YOU are Powerful beyond measure and once you begin to have faith in your Power you begin to move MOUNTAINS!!

When I make corrections for myself I know that I am making corrections for the whole and vice versa. This is also what you are doing when you begin to have faith in yourself. You inspire others to do the same, and so the consciousness of the planet rises!!

With Gratitude the MAGIC flows, and YOU ARE MAGIC PAM!! Thank you for posting and WELL DONE!!

[Grace]

Hi KimJ!

Thank you so much for those helping me with my ongoing "saga". And thank you, Grace, for your infinite wisdom on so many levels. I love the story of the ocean water and I've referred to it a few times to keep centered.

I had a realization today, or just remembered is a better way to put it, about what scared me so much when I saw the "light" the other day. Among other fears that went on, I had a moment of absolute terror that I would just disappear if I all of a sudden understood and remembered the Truth. I had been making clearing attempts regarding my ego and releasing its hold, and it just all of a sudden terrified me when I thought, so what happens if I release it entirely... what happens then? Does the "me" that exists in this illusion disappear? Then when I started "seeing" things, I just had to stop it.

Anyway, it still makes me nervous to allow myself to go there again as I'm not really sure the answer to those questions and I'm still kind of nervous I'll disappear! LOL I can't help but think though that there's far more enlightened people than me and they're still here... in my illusion... so it must be safe. Wow... so amazing and baffling at the same time I'm not really sure what to "do" with it all...

You know something else that's been interesting is the last two days I've had NO cravings and haven't been particularly hungry at all. I always get cravings and it's usually a matter of willpower to battle them, but out of nowhere I haven't had the cravings. Then I notice zartgirl asking for corrections on diet just the other day.. interesting. Yet I also tried doing the Z-point word while watching Paths and I'm on the Take It Off module (or whatever it's called). More hmmmm...

Good luck with your test, Adrienne. Thanks for your posts; I enjoy reading your insights!

Well, that's it for now. Thanks for reading.

Hugs.
Kim

Hi KimJ,

I couldn't wait to post to you when I read your post last Tuesday! I too would hold off on "Blissing out" ,not so much from fear, but from scaring friends and family. Until I realized with another great conversation I had with Jamie concerning this matter, that this fear of "disappearing" as you put it is yet another Ego/Mind creation of fear designed to keep us from the Truth of our true nature!

It is amazing how clever and sly the Ego/Mind is. Fear is an Ego creation and a Sin. (Sin meaning it is not the truth) So once again we are tempted to fall asleep in the face of the Truth, and to close our eyes in the face of our MAGNIFICENT LIGHT!

We are all capable of transcending the Ego and seeing the light! It is a finer vibration and so makes us appear as if we have disappeared. Yet, with this light you can also choose to be in this world, just not of it. When someone experiences the perception of death; depending on their level of consciousness (which is exactly the level they pass over with) they will let go of the physical body which is only a projection of the ego/mind a lower level of consciousness compared to an ascended Master such as Jesus, Buddha etc. who can project a physical body at will and appear to be in this world at will.

When a person passes over in a level of consciousness of great fear, they will have to re-incarnate to raise their level of consciousness over and over again until they transcend the ego and disappear at will.

So even though I understand your fear, SHOW YOUR LIGHT KIMJ!!! Feel the fear and do it anyway, and the TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!!!!


I tested these four modules for you, and I tested 3 months for each.

1.Sports Module
2. Self Esteem
3. Successful Living 3
4. Dao De Jing

You can also get on the Deserving Module now instead of the Self Esteem, and switch to the Self Esteem in two months.

[Grace]

For Inika!

Hello Grace and all,
I have been sooo busy and not been able to read much here until today. I just finished a Somatic Experiencing (trauma healing) workshop. The work continues to validate that we are all one. We were working on surgical trauma and anesthesia and the whole room got woosie! When I do SE sessions and feel the resonance with the other, realizing it is not the feeling that is out "there" but the feeling that is within me that resonates with the other person. So when I don't know where the "client" is I just have to check within. In thinking about this and expanding the resonance to include more than one person, many people, and the whole earth plane and universe.... not sure I can get there yet.... but I get the picture. Just feeling so much gratitude right now and knowing that we are all getting there with all our tools, even the ones that hurt. Because, as you say, Grace, there is no good or bad.

Grace, I will be coming to Ft Lauderdale May 20 through June 3rd. Would love to hook up with you again. I have Skype now: inikaji

Sending love and gratitude ,

Hi Inika,

Thank you for Posting Inika! I always learn so much about new healing modalities from you, and I am grateful! I would love to visit you and therefore my family again when you are in town soon. I found you on skype

[Grace]

Goddess Adrienne!

Hi Adrienne,


You are not your physical body, or the Ego/Mind (which is an illusion an incorrect thought of separation). You are your HigherSelf (an extension of God). This Illusory World of Linear Time and Dualism is simply not truth, an incorrect thought (a false split from the only Mind the Whole Mind).

Staying focused on the truth in every moment is the hardest work we will ever do. Yet it gets easier and effortless the more you practice. I know Adrienne that even though there are moments when we forget this, You are having more and more consecutive moments of remembrance.

When you remember who you are in this moment you are choosing against the Ego. You are saying no to the illusion, and Yes to the truth. There is only One, there is only Love. This World (this projection from a belief we have split from the whole mind) is of our own creation, but like a dream it is not reality.

When you perceive good or bad in your outer world this is simply a projection of only one, only You. This is what I mean when I have often said that you created me, and everyone else. This is also what I mean when I say you choose your illness, death, and any perceived pain and suffering. Looking at your outer world and blessing all the good you see is easy. Blessing what you perceive as Bad is much more difficult until you realize that it is all the same.

The Bad that you see is simply a part of you that you have denied and hence made real when it is not real. You refuse to see it is a false creation of yours. You have chosen to believe that you are NOT an extension of God. You can also say that you have chosen to disassociate from the fact you are God.

When others mirror you, and you don't particularly like the mirror, then you are choosing in this moment to see imperfection. Look past this and see that all is perfect in them as well as YOU and the energy will shift instantly.

This I know Adrienne you have done and done well in many experiences. Our Family members are most definitely are greatest mirrors, and if we move away from them others will take their place, because your learning the truth of who you are is your only purpose.

Tristan is a projection of You, see the truth of who he really is, and you have seen the truth of who you truly are. In the first few days, weeks, months or however long it takes of practicing "seeing" the truth will be difficult in the face of fear (violence etc), but you Must for your sake, his and all of ours practice seeing the truth in all moments.

Begin to look for the good, instead of expecting the "norm" or the bad behavior. When you think of Tristan, focus on all the good things, and with this gratitude you will have an easier time when the "bad" shows up. Remembering that there is not Good or Bad only ONE. It is simple to Forgive when you realize that the ONE you are forgiving is YOU.

I am forever grateful for your post as the CEM (Chinese Energetic Medicine) corrections I have made for You and Tristan, and for many people that are resonating with these relationship issues has removed an immense amount of fear!!

[Grace]

For Sallyjane!

Today I took a good long look in the mirror... Well so to speak! My daughter mirrored back to me something that deep down I have known, but have not wanted to face yet I guess!

It has to do with diet, and it is not as much what I eat (and my daughter), but the control it has over us! It has to do with sugary foods and carbohydrates! They have a huge amount of control over us, and I have noticed that my daughter tries to avoid eating other types of foods. She does not like to eat meat, but does not really like beans or any of the replacements either. I know I am really bad at eating vegatables, and I use to absolutely love them and crave them! All I know is that in both of our diets something has to give on a spiritual level (energy level) for us, because I have tried doing the will power thing and I know it does not work!

Also if you could do some adjustments on my desire to work out! Well the desire is there, but the energy is not there... I know I have just so much on my plate, but if I could get to moving I would not be so tired all the time

Thanks in advance, and as you know I will also be working in these areas with my and my daughter! Blessings Sallyjane

Hi Sallyjane,


I have been working on both you and your daughter's emotional Bodies concerning your carb and sugar cravings. Please keep us Posted. I also wanted to let you know that when you initially posted earlier this past week, I immediately made corrections for various issues concerning movement for you.

I always make corrections first on what I am resonating with, and so was very happy when I realized yesterday that I had picked up the intensity of my work outs without any effort this past week!

I am always immensely grateful for all of your posts, because it never fails to bring awareness concerning issues I am resonating with that I wouldn't notice unless there was a mirror!

[zartgirl]

AAAAhhhhhh! Adrienne

Ahhhhh Adrienne! I just wanted to send you a huge HUG! Okay several! I love reading your posts, and how far you have travelled in your journey! As I was reading your post, about Tristen and cutting school... Your frustration with your relationship... I kept thinking about a paths module I am on currently, "Effective Communication at Home". I go through the products list every so often and then test the ones that pop out to my intuition. That one was popping big time to me! I just started it a few weeks ago, and I will let you know ho it is going! I am sure I am already seeing the subtle changes in myself with my kids! Although, one area I need to work on is to stop doing my kids chores for them! Today I thought I would just wash the big pots and pans and leave the dishes for my daughter... By the time she came in the dishwasher was loaded and the sink and counters and stove scrubbed. Not sure exactly what my daughter learned from that other than if she doesn't do her chores mom will do them on her day off! Hmmmm.... Well it is time to get Nat into the bath... so I am off to do so and get my quiet time before bed in. Last night I did some more work on my sleep, cause I have been waking up at night, and I slept all night till 5:30 am... That is when I realized that I need to specify exactly what time I want to wake up bright and early at with lots of energy!

Adrienne, I will work on you tonight as well and your son, as I work on my kids tonight. Have been 2pointing love, peace, forgiveness, compassion, and patience towards me and my kids, so will add Tristen in there.

Blessings Sallyjane

[Adrienne]

KimJ and Pam

Hi KimJ
thanks...

Hi Pam
thanks for shairng...
i read your post on another thred, on the thread Illusions started and that inspired me, you have so much courage to be so open, same with SallyJane...
I am in awe, and admiration for both of you
as well as many others too who have been so open...
I copy and paste that openess to me...
Glad to hear things are improving and changing so quickly for you...
Love and Light...Adrienne

[Adrienne]

hey Grace

hello,
well as you know my boy is in grade 7...
and he has skipped school for the second time today
tells me he needs quiet time to think about things...
he tells me how he feels attacked by me... and how he can't stand it when we fight...
and i will threaten things... obviously i don't follow through and they only stay as threats.... something that i obviously need to change....
if i say it, then i need to follow through...
he has been very angry....
and at me, and as i am applying the Ho'oponopono to this too... (when i remember, and when it can complete it, without interuption)..
much more often, making it a habit....
the interesting thing is, it is mirroring things to me.
when i was a kid, i felt i had to be certain way or else i would loose things... then there came a point that no longer cared and simply said **** you to the world and my parents... did i wanted, threaten and take it all away , i didn't care any longer..
ended up in alot of trouble...
How do i stop this cycle???
How do i do something different???
How do i give him what he needs???
Hmmm, interesting theme coming up for me lately, the thing about giving...
when i was dating that guy... as well with my son... the thing about giving popped up for me...
and the other end of that is the part of me who desires to have people in my life and to be able to let people into my life, to let people see me.. to share who i am with others...
well...
there seems to have been a block in this area... and there appears to still be...
seems so instinctive to go back to this mind set, this way of being...(closed, protective, untrusting, defensive)
not all of those all the time, and it is much better.
not sure why i am writting this all, cuz i don't really have a point.
I found Tristan in an alley way, hiding...
I want to help him, yet am not sure how to... without going back to my old ways, once things have smoothed out.
I deeply desire to give to him, to give of me, to soo many..
and yet... something in me isn't allowing it...
however in all of this... he has just had his door removed... for his continous door slamming...
so what comes to me, is tough love, yet stil loving him.. and being kind, not nice.
which is another interesting thing...
cuz it is like in those moments of fear and being "nice" opposed to kind... I am afraid... afraid of rejection... afraid of something... Ah, perhaps afraid of the outcome... which could be violence... which i have experienced and don't so much care for... afraid of being left (perhaps emotionally as well)...
quit a big load to place on a child...
I know i resisted it.. and felt like i was my mothers parent
and have at times said to my dad to go get a coucellor or asked him if he had friends he could tak to about this.
and at one time i was embarrased to admit these things...
however so much of it has been unconscious
however becomng aware of it now
looking to get our "needs" met through other people...
like sarrogate parents through our kids...
there is much written about this
or sarrogate spouses...
although it is a lable...
and i have many new awarenesses about who i truely am...
and how powerful i am....
this is stuff that just creeps up to my consciousness
and felt inspired to write about it
it isn't useful...
so if you see anything that could use corrections... please do when it suits you...
however... thanks for all who have read, and listened...
and all is well... getting to go within.
And of course Matrix it too... which is so awesome too...
that is also becoming much clearer for me
I hope this helped somebody out there.
Love and Light...Adrienne
also not suprised this has popped up, cuz of what is being shifted within... blocks need to be removed to be free from self to move in the direction i desire...
Really it's all patterns in the field

[prose10]

Grateful update!

Hi Grace! I have so much to be thankful for... things are changing rapidly!

Thank you for your kind words. That picture was taken at my son's wedding last November. (I'd like to have some corrections for the issues surrounding that, please.) I would LOVE to get together with you and the other PATHers. The prospect of learning ANYTHING from you is exciting and I am looking for new like-minded friends. Your post to KimJ moved me to tears. You are an excellent teacher and a very wise woman.

I've been resting and reading the past few days, noticing all of the good things I have created because I love myself ( illusions), doing Ho'oponopono when I think of someone that upsets me, doing ZPoint when I watch my modules, and marveling in the changes that have occurred since I wrote you and asked for your help. I think "Ask, and you will receive" should be my new mantra!

Now for the synchronicities:

2 years ago, I had strabismus surgery on my right eye to correct double vision. When I came out of surgery, I was startled and confused. For the first time in my life, I could see depth! I could see that the table was closer than the doctor, and the doctor was closer than the back wall. It was so foreign to me, it was difficult to comprehend. The doctor said it would take some time for my brain to adjust. Everything was exciting to me. Trees, grass, my face, my nose, and especially billiard balls... I had never seen a sphere... it was just a flat circle. I knew what it felt like, but to see it was something new. I felt like a baby who is fascinated with their fingers! I looked at everything with child-like wonder. The ceiling fan in my living room is especially fascinating and beautiful now. I screamed a lot for the first few weeks... Putting on mascara scared me! I just did it by touch before, now I could see how close it was to my eye. I couldn't drive for 2 months: OH MY GOD, THAT CAR IS SO CLOSE! Suddenly, everything seemed "real". Now I understand why some people are afraid of heights!

When I went back to the doctor for my check up I asked him about getting lasix next. Wouldn't it be great if I didn't need glasses? He said he'd like to wait a few more months and let me adjust some more to seeing in 3-D, but he'd set up the tests to see if I was a good candidate. I got tested on Friday, he said I was a good candidate, and we scheduled lasix surgery the following Monday. I went home and read the literature and I got scared. All of the warnings about what could go wrong. My eyes weren't that bad, but I wanted them to be perfect. I dismissed the worry I felt about possibly making my vision worse and told myself I was just being negative and I needed to focus on the positive. But my gut told me all weekend to cancel the surgery and get a second opinion. I didn't listen to my gut. When I came out of surgery, I could see a bird in a tree 2 blocks away, but everything within 6 feet from me was blurry and flat. I lost that sharp 3-D vision. I couldn't see myself clearly in the mirror. I had to go back to putting on mascara by touch. I was banging into things again. My world no longer felt safe. I hoped it was temporary, but it was not.

I was devastated and furious with myself for not getting a second opinion, for not listening to my gut. I was furious with the doctor for not telling me this could happen. (I had to stop and do Ho'oponopono here) I was furious with God for showing me what could be, then taking it away. The doctor said it couldn't be undone. We talked about options, none of which are satisfactory. I need to wear corrective lenses if I want to see clearly. So I've been trying different contact lenses and glasses. Lately I've been considering tri-focals. I don't want to wear glasses all day, but it seems easier than the other options.

A couple of months ago I noticed my double vision is returning when I am tired. It is worse this month, my right eye is dropping again, and I am losing my precious 3-D vision. I'd been thinking a lot about scheduling another surgery, but since finding PATHS, I wondered if the Lean Muscle module would strengthen my eye muscles? Something to check into. Now, if only they had a module to correct vision problems so I wouldn't need glasses.

The reason I am relating this story is because this was not on my list when I asked Grace for corrections. 2 days after my original post, I started noticing subtle changes in my mood. I was less anxious, less fearful. I wasn't obsessing about money. I felt calm and almost confident about the future. I logged on here to post a quick thank you to Grace, and guess which module was just released? VISION! Synchronicity!

I went to the hairdresser and told her about PATHS and my experience with Matrix Energetics. (I was told there was someone's energy attached to me which was draining my energy and preventing me from manifesting and connecting to Source. She told me to talk to it, tell it to get a job and charge it rent, because it was lazy. ) Amanda (hairdresser) referred me to a clairvoyant she trusted to help me talk to this energy and convince it to move on. I thought about having a reading with Moira, but I didn't know if she dealt with this kind of thing. I decided to go by this clairvoyant's office/store and see what kind of feeling I got. I kept thinking about Moira all the way there. She is so highly recommended here. When I got to the store, there was a sign in the window: closed for the day and will re-open tomorrow! Synchronicity! Moira it is!

When I got home, I went to Moira's thread and started reading. I clicked onto her website and read some more. In her library section, I downloaded some ebooks. One of them was called ENERGY MANUAL. I skimmed through the beginning about applied kinesiology, (I know how to muscle test), and kept reading. I thought it was kinda boring, but something told me to keep going, so I did the exercises. "Check for split or multiple personalities" caught my interest. I was shocked, though not surprised to discover I had a split personality! I did the corrections and immediately felt a shift! The next section was "Checking for Attached Beings" I stopped breathing for a moment. This was my issue, and the answer was from Moira, through her website, and it was FREE! Synchronicity strikes again! I did the exercises and cleared the attached being!

The next section was "Removing Cords and Implants". I also did Ho'oponopono on all of the people I was attached to or who were attached to me. It took a while, but I was able to successfully remove all cords and implants. This was the first time I had ever done any kind of energy work. The shift was HUGE. It was palpable. I felt light... FREE! It was similar to when I first got 3-D vision... SURREAL, but this is how I am supposed to feel. I watched my modules and went to bed. I had a peaceful sleep with no nightmares. Thank you Moira!

I woke up the next day feeling happy. HAPPY! I have no memory of EVER waking up happy for no good reason, just to be alive. I lay in bed, smiling like a fool. I was happy. I am happy. Wow!

I thought about my son Chris, and I thought about asking Grace if she would give him some corrections too. I decided not to ask yet... maybe later. I did more Ho'oponopono with my son and also some ZPoint. He called me late that afternoon with some wonderful news. He and his wife were out celebrating. He got a letter from the VA and his disability status is 60%. He will be getting a substantial check (retro active) within 15 days, and a sizable monthly payment which is tax exempt. His money problems are over. I guess just thinking about asking Grace for something makes it so! Synchronicity!

I've got more, but this is enough for now.

Thank you Grace for doing what you do. I know that you get benefits too, and that is how it should be. If you are willing to teach me, I want to learn CEM. And I am NOT AFRAID to ask!

With Immense Love and Gratitude,

Pam

[KimJ]

New modules

Hi again, Grace. Boy, do we keep you busy! I so much appreciate your generosity with this thread! Whenever you have a spare moment, I'd very much appreciate your insight on whether or not I should try new modules. It's feeling like combining the Z-point with Paths has really opened a new door for me.

I forgot to switch out the Ho'oponopono to the Deserving like you'd suggested last month, but it's now time to move on from the rest of them anyway according to what you tested previously, and I'm feeling like it's time to move on as well. I'm on Ho'oponopono still plus Take it Off, Mood Elevation, and Good Luck and Fortune. I'm leaning towards something like the Dao De Jing, Unconditional Love, Deserving, and/or Breakthrough to Enlightenment, but I don't want to overdose on that stuff ( ), plus I could still use help with my business both in regards to staffing and sales, and helping get the 15 pounds I gained this year off. Any thoughts appreciated.

Blessings as always.
Kim