Chinese Energetic Medicine by Grace

[Adrienne]

thanks

"The Race"

"Quit! Give up!
You're beaten!"
They shout at me, and plead"
There's just too much against you now.
This time you can't succeed."

And as I start to hang my head
In front of failure's face
My downward fall is broken by
The memory of a race.

And hope refills my weakened will
As I recall that scene
For, just the thought of that short race
Rejuvenates my being.

A children's race, young boys, young men
Now, I remember well,
Excitement, sure!
But also fear,It wasn't hard to tell.

They all lined up so full of hope
Each thought to win that race,
Or, tie for first, if not that,
At least take second place.

And fathers watched from off the side
Each cheering for his son.
And each boy hoped to show his dad,that he would be the one.
The whistle blew, and off they went

Young hearts and hopes afire
To win, to be the hero there
Was each young boy's desire.
And one boy in particular,
Whose dad was in the crowd,

Was running near the head and thought:
"My dad will be so proud!"
But as they speeded down the field
Across a shallow dip
The little boy who thought to win,
Lost his step and slipped.

Trying hard to catch himself,
His hands flew out to brace
And 'mid the laughter of the crowd
He fell flat on his face.

So, down he fell, and with him hope- he couldn't win it now -
Embarrassed, sad, he only wished
To disappear somehow.

But, as he fell, his dad stood up,
And showed his anxious face,
Which to the boy so clearly said:"Get up and win the race."

He quickly rose, no damage done,- behind a bit, that's all -
And ran with all his mind and might
To make up for his fall.

So, anxious to restore himself- to catch up and to win -
His mind went faster than his legs;
He slipped and fell again!

He wished, then, he had quit before
With only one disgrace.
"I'm hopeless as a runner now;
I shouldn't try to race.

But, in the laughing crowd he searched
And found his father's face.
That steady look that said again!
"Get up and win the race."

So, up he jumped, to try again-
ten yards behind the last -
"If I'm to gain those yards," he thought'
I've got to move real fast."

Exceeding everything he had
He gained back eight or ten,
But trying so, to catch the lead,
He slipped and fell again!

Defeat! He lay there silently-
a tear dropped from his eye -
"There is no sense in running more;
Three strikes, I'm out, why try?"

The will to rise had disappeared
All hope had fled away
So far behind; so error prone
A loser all the way.

"I've lost, so what's the use," he thought
"I'll live with my disgrace."
But, then he thought about his dad,
Who, soon, he'd have to face.

"Get up!" an echo sounded low,
"Get up, and take your place
You were not meant for failure here,
Get up, and win the race."

With borrowed will, "Get up," it said
"You haven't lost at all.
For winning is no more than this;
To rise each time you fall."

So, up he rose to run once more,
And with a new commit
He resolved that win, or lose,
At least he wouldn't quit.

So far behind the others now-
the most he'd ever been -
Still, he gave it all he had,
And ran as though to win.

Three times he'd fallen stumbling.
Three times he'd rose again.
Too far behind to hope to win
He still ran to the end.

They cheered the winning runner,
As he crossed the line first place,
Head high, and proud, and happy.
No falling, no disgrace.

But, when the fallen youngster
Crossed the line last place,
The crowd gave him the greater cheer
For finishing the race.

Even though he came in last.
With head bowed head low, unproud,
You would have thought he won the race
To listen to the crowd.

And to his dad, he sadly said,
"I didn't do so well."
"To me, you won!" his father said,
"You rose each time you fell."

And now when things seem dark and hard,
And difficult to face.
The memory of that little boy
Helps me to win my race.

For all of life is like that race
With ups and downs and all,
And all you have to do to win,
Is rise each time you fall.
__________________
Kiran

I could not help but post again this fabulous poem!! Thank you so very much Kchannar!!

Grace, Thanks for posting this.. and maggies poem...
as befor.. i don't always get your poems maggie.. but that just tells me there is so much more...more than i can conceive... meaning i can't possibly get bored Thank you
Love and Light Adrienne

[Adrienne]

Hi Adrienne. Thanks for posting. I'm feeling less "panicked" now, thankfully. I think you're right that something is shifting. It kind of scares me in the sense that I'm hoping I won't slip back again into complacency, if you know what I mean. While I don't like this feeling, I like the fact that it may be a breakthrough of some sort and hope it's not just a stress reaction to my hectic life. I'm having little insights though where for example a song came into my head but I messed up the lyrics...The song goes "free your mind and the rest will follow", and I was thinking "clear your mind...". LOL Either way would have been appropriate though! LOL Then as I was driving the words came to me "you're trying too hard... just relax"...so there's a message trying to get through clearly! I should probably write these things down as I don't realize how much insight I am being given if I just slowed down and paid attention. You're probably right about the breathing too - I know I tend to breathe quite shallow.

Yes, I've read the Conversations with God books and loved them.
Thanks again. I'm breathing easier now!
Kim

Grace, aside from waking up thinking that, I often wake up with a fast heartbeat which I can hear in my ears, no matter how I'm feeling (relaxed or not). It's been an ongoing thing for years and I've had medical tests for high blood pressure (24- hour monitors) and I'm supposedly fine, but it really bugs me as that doesn't seem right! I'm really trying to intend wellness for myself in all areas but an extra push in that direction would be appreciated.


Love and blessings to you all.
Kim

Ohhhhh, I just have to express how much I love this thread!!! I decided to check it this morning and instantly on reading the latest posts I just get this buzzing feeling - it is just so infused with wonderful energy!!!! I practically had to tear myself away from it! LOL

Anyway, your posts Blake and Sallyjane are brilliant and I can so identify with what you both say. Funny you mention the Artists Way, Blake, as I just heard that book yesterday while I was listening to Flowdreaming on Hayhouse. She recommended that book yesterday too. I love what you say about the boxes too - that is so me as well, though I'm sure everyone really.... Find that that box doesn't fit anymore so let me find a different one... such all or nothing thinking....

Grace, thanks so much for making corrections on the heart racing issue. I'm not sure if there's been a difference yet but I haven't at least woken up hearing it so that's wonderful!

Anyway, I just wanted to express my immense gratitude for this thread and all of you for sharing yourselves here!!!

Kim

HI KimJ
I am glad you are feeling better, and glad to see you still posting...
i just want to share what comes for me when you share about the fear of slipping back. Makes me think of the fear of letting go and trusting... and for me i would try so hard to not have to let go and trust...(fear) (stuck in the illusion, that this is all real) cuz it felt safer to try and attain an outcome, then to be connected... "if i fall back then it means _____... which means_____.... Then that means_____ " and I would therefor use that to identify myself as who i was... this is/was in not acknowledging myself for who i truely am.
for me very heady(ego chatter) stuff....
and also i know i have been in places where i question what i am finding through this new path, journey... in remembering... which i relate to being complacent, but i don't have to act on the complacency.. i have allowed it to just be... infact my mind is taking me there a bit now... cuz it feels threatened (if the mind even feels ) but know to this shall pass... i can act or be... in being is like observing it... saying hello to it... thanking it for stopping by...sending it a blessing... and if it has taken hold of me... then no matter what stay connected to the people who have been helpful... even through the times that feels insane... or go within... and sometimes solitude is what i have needed too...
I guess it depends on what feels right in the moment...
hopefully some of it is helpful to you.

youmentioned a song going through your head... well there was this song that would pop up for me, and still does for me from time to time... the words that would stand out would be "just Breathe" lol.. and it would be in those moments i needed to breath and any thought that is perfect and like getting an answer, is the higher self talking to you/me.... that is so great that you are aware of the messages coming from yourself.... you are so amazing and i really appreciate yours and everyones sharing...
In everything i share here i am sharing with myself... it is so beautiful.... you are a Goddess KimJ

you were mentioning your fast heart beat when you woke up.... and how the Dr's said there is nothing wrong, well that is cuz there isn't
i used to go to the dr's alot... and i am also observing this with my son... but i needed there to be something wrong, i had some sort of attachement to it... whenit was simply in my head (not saying your is, however depends on how one would interpret what that could mean) i once was having some constant diarrreah as a teen and they found nothing... they even went in to do exploratory surgury, and after they found nothing it went away..
i guess what i am trying to say Accept that diagnoses... it is a very useful one...
Thanks...love and light..Adrienne
PS. I am gonna mention the Artists way..hehe

[Rin]

Grace, thank you! I am thrilled to report definite improvement in my physical condition, and something tells me it will only get better from now. Thank you so much for working on me. Now, I need your help with a slight adjustment. I have been on the Ho'oponopono module since the beginning of this year, and although it started wonderfully, I have been feeling progressively crankier and crankier in the past few weeks. I can't seem to switch off the rude, judgmental thoughts that I have about other people and situations, and it is wearing me out. Please help me to find the peace in my heart that I crave. Thank you very much.

[Grace]

I am truly Blessed to BE among all of YOU!

It truly is such a JOY to read all your magnificent posts! I think about all of you and this thread so often throughout the day that I joyfully make CEM corrections (almost) in every moment. Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined what this thread was going to do for so many of us. You have brought so much light into this world and into my life that I simply can not express these feelings into words.

The years that I persevered making corrections just on myself and a select few, was an effort that I now look back on and realize how powerfully effective those moments (years) were. I am so happy and grateful that I never gave up!! The times when I resisted my own healing the most were the moments I think back on and have the most reverence for! It has given me such a point of reference, that I can feel nothing more than IMMENSE LOVE AND GRATITUDE!

Sometimes one small word in one of your posts catches my heart, and pulls me in and I am amazed at the gratitude I feel for having this one simple word point me in the right direction for making corrections, not just for you who make the post, but for all of us!!

More and More, I clearly see, How you are all creating such a high level of consciousness, because you are WILLING! Willingness is such an immense Power.

Willingness to shift in consciousness, willingness to release old habits that no longer serve, willingness to LOVE! Willingness to focus on Gratitude in the face of illusions. Willingness to Persevere!! Willingness to inspire others, Willingness to learn a healing Modality, Willingness to SHINE YOUR LIGHT FOR ALL TO SEE!!!!

It is a blessing for me, and a daily gift in every morning when I wake up and read your posts. So much light and Wisdom!! I am immensely grateful!!

I will always make corrections for your specific requests, but also remember that when I make corrections for each of you it affects the whole, and when I make group corrections for increasing more strength as a whole it affects each and every single one of us. Your posts are powerfully assisting all!! Your consciousness affects everything!! Your thoughts, words, and deeds have immense power! Thank you from the deepest part of my being for BEING present in my life and resonating with me!!

[S.J]

[QUOTE=zartgirl;15812] SJ (Sonora) Welcome Back, so glad to hear from you! You have been in my thoughts lately, as I noticed you were not posting or I had not read any posts anyways. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you!

Hi Zartgirl (or the other "SJ"!! Isn't that cool!) Thank you! It's so good to hear from you all! I missed you all tremendously!!

thanks for the welcome back, means alot

hugs

[belle99]

What a beautiful synchronicity. I used to always wish the Swanson truck would turn over on my street so I could have some of that super-rich ice cream, haha! I loved reading this! Belle

[zartgirl]

Ooooh more manifestations

Hey all, This was an amazing little manifestation! Last night, I was in the kitchen and I noticed my room-mate trying to fix up some disgusting looking food... I asked her what she was eating and she went on to explain that she was out of money and her food card was empty! She was eating food she had scavenged out of the community cupboards that others had left behind! Well I decided I was going to help her, but my card cycle is only two days off from hers so my food card is getting low! I have been running out each month a couple of days early. We are alotted 3.33 cents a day for each person to eat for a full day on the cards! Not much, but it usually lasts me till a few days before and I am fine on food. So now I am trying to figure out how to buy enough food for me and her family of three! I found out that Safeway had a sale on milk, so I went and got to gallons of milk, and then I went to my X's house to do his taxes for him and I am getting half of the money too! I get there and I start telling him I need his help to get some food for my friend, and he says well go look in the downstairs freezer! I am like what? He says you know that Swanson Food Truck that tipped over this last week on the highway? Yea, well they had to empty the truck out before they could right it. A Friend of ours was he one who had to empty it out, and because it got above 0 the food could not be sold, but the food never got above 32 degrees or freezing! They had brought the truck load home and gave Keith a bunch of it!

Is that amazing! You know, I had no idea of how I was going to get her food I just determined to do so! It happened! It happened before I even knew I was going to need it to happen!

Blessings Sallyjane Zartgirl

[KimJ]

Sallyjane and Blake

Amazing posts as usual here! Sallyjane, your post was very powerful and I got a lot from it. Blake, as always, is asking the same questions I'm struggling with as well... that pesky "doingness" of BEing () and you answered it so clearly! I'm one of those analytical souls so this refusing to analyze thoughts to death is a hard one for me. Thank goodness I believe in it so much or there would be no hope for me! I'm just now realizing though how trapped I must be (have been) in the ego to have spent so long analyzing everything I've ever done or will do! Gives me a whole new perspective!

Blake, I LOVED your friend's box dream and your analogy. That cracked me up. I came across the AW book but because I'm not "artsy" at all I got drawn to others instead and I picked up Power of Now again which I read many years ago when it was kind of "bizarre" to me at the time, though resonated somewhere in there! LOL It's very interesting that here I am again talking about AW though... hmmm. If it pops up again I think I'll have to go get it!

With gratitude for you all!
Kim

[zartgirl]

and GRACE, Ok, still WoW. I am soo grateful for your response. I believe I will be reading, reread, chewing, doing.... BE-ING what you have written for a while! At first it felt like it was a call to action.... but now I know its a call to BEINGNESS! a call to my/our TRUTH...or GOD-NESS. What an energetic kick in my illusion! ...(I sooo felt your second response before I ever read it. Something felt out of wack with my response...and that night I thought... "BEING IT!!"...then I saw the next day your correction!) What you wrote is a gift but I know nothing unless I use it...I hope I can make ya'll (ME) proud.

Help me with this BEing thought though. I still think theres a doing to do, to get to the being. ??? When E Tolle talked aout the beingness I was baffled. To focus on my True Self when its counter to my hypnotized humanoid illusion you even say is the "hardest work" we will ever do. Sooo..."The work" is to "BE" ?...the infinate Truth... the infinate Joy...infinate Love....infinate Power....infinate Peace...that I am? So you BE this without doing? ...I just thought "by remembering." ....Its a wierd contradiction...I am soo getting hung up on simantics.I should shut up and go back to my BEING. Yesterday I, through out my day, kept "reminding" myself of my greatness and the illusion and tried to conjure up feelings of joy and gratitude. That was work! I crashed when I got home I was so tired..and forgot the rest of the night....(and most of today). Oh, well...the race isnt over!!! Up and at em!!!! ... I mean... up and BE em!

So thanks for rescuing me from my "path of least resistance"!!! (smilie face)(I think)... So much for the easier softer way!

All My Infinate Power, Peace, and Love, Blake!

Blake! Sweety... I feel as you are working to hard on just being! You need less doing! Oh I am sure this is like a big "WHAT???" to you... but I guarrantee you can do this! How to just be? Hmmm.... Let me try to describe this! For me it was more of a process of observing and letting go of my ego mind! So how did I do this? Well for starters whenever I felt any discomfort... I put the BL process to the discomfort. Then I like you tried to keep being grateful but that was too hard. One thing I started doing was as I was driving around and doing my daily stuff... I would say to myself thank you for this or thankyou for that (In my case it was thank you for my new permanent housing, thank you for other physical desires I had) Then one day I had this idea, of how to express extreme gratitude and checked with Grace about it to see if I was on the right track... But from my days (16 years of days) in a fundamentalist pentecostal church, I learned to Praise God! Well here we are working on connecting to God (less all of the dualistic and judgement brought on by the church IMHO) So I started just saying things like Praise God, Hallelujia, Whoooohooo!, and just saying praises all day long. In either senario, I did not worry about if I was getting it right... there was a reprogramming going on!

Stephen started a thread on Memes. Memes are little thoughts we have that are either helpful to us or nonhelpful to us! We need to get rid of the old ones that are unhelpful and fill the gaps with new helpful ones! He suggests setting up a stargate and blasting the ones that are non-helpful out into never never land (okay he had a different word for it but I can not remember what it is). That is true, and what is involved in that is observing what you are saying to yourself and when you say something unhelpful, then immediately blast it out! I tend to say to myself "Cancell! Cancell! Cancell! Replace with..."

The main thing is that these little things just helped me through while I remembered who I was! These are not the only ways, but they are what I found helpful! The important thing is to get the intellectual out of the way! A friend of mine once told me that it is important to not analyze everything with the intellect! I said great! Cause intellect is not my thing! LOL! I do think this journey has been a little easier, cause of my artistness! I believe you have that in you too, but struggling to let it out. Process any resistance that comes up!!!! Just remember to let yourself feel the hot plate under your tush! Then process the heat and celebrate it, that will take you closer to just being than anything! If it feels like work then you are probably doing it in the ego mind! If it exhausts you then you are probably doing it in your ego mind... Just observe everything you say and think as if you are standing outside of yourself, watching it as if you were at a movie. Just let the chatter chatter and watch it... Look at it see it as separate from who you are... Then release it, and let it go... letting it have no effect on you.

Hmmmm... at night when you get home from work and nothing and nobody is calling your name or going to interupt you...

Sit in a quiet place (as in a place where nothing will bother you... let the outside noises just be outside of you, and don't let them inside. I can do this with my kids in the other room.) Totally relax... Start with the top of your head and work your way down, or the opposite from feet to top of head releasing all the tension out of your body. Do some breathing... I like to just breath in a circle, but whatever works for you! Now just listen to the silence (not the outside silence the inside silence. Let the outside remain outside tune it out). Just be there with the silence, observe it! Observe any mind chatter your ego tries to interupt with. Observe it don't fight it! Resistance will take you away from peace and the silence. It is in this place where you will meet yourself! That is why so many people don't like to go into the silence, because they are afraid of themselves. I like to tell people there is beautiful music in the silence, but few ever understand what I am saying. Listen for your music (not the kind of music you hear on the radio, but an internal music). Just be there! OBSERVE! OBSERVE! OBSERVE! Yes your ego mind will try hard to pick a fight with you at first, but just observe it, like you would someone who is in a glass box and is trying to fight with you... you would probably just laugh at them and watch them, cause they can not get out! Well put your ego in the glass box and don't let it out, just watch it... you can even laugh at its antics as you see them. This will take away the power the ego has on you, and will train you to be in just being more and more till you can live in that place with out having to try to work on anything...

Hope this long rambling helps you!
Blessings my friend
Sallyjane zartgirl

[CeCee]

Kim J,

Moxxie!!! thanks for your poems. "What if" is so poinient and powerful...especially for me where I am at right now! Your just a modern day Rumi with all your deep and profound and melodic musings! You inspire me! Thank you!

All My Infinate Power, Peace, and Love, Blake!

Hi Blake,
I am always so blessed when I hear comments about the words I have written. Having the confidence to share them has brought me a long way from where I was just a year ago - when no one had seen any of my poems. This forum and the great people that are a part of it are truly the ones to support and encourage all of us on our individual paths to remembering who we are. Getting to know one another, share our hearts, and grow together is truly magnificent. Enjoy the journey along your path always remembering in this moment - Everything is Perfect!
Blake, with your permission, I would love to use your words as part of my book review.
Love, Light, Gratitude & Joy,
Maggie

[zartgirl]

Welcome Back!

SJ (Sonora) Welcome Back, so glad to hear from you! You have been in my thoughts lately, as I noticed you were not posting or I had not read any posts anyways. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you!

Marnyka You get hug! Isn't the energy here awesome! Welcome back too! I am with you, the posts here are so awesome, because all the posters are so awesome!!!!

Ooh! Ooh! Ooh! I have more stuff manifesting!!! I got a call and one of the companies I interviewed with last week is checking references on me, so I may have even another job to choose from! They accidetally called me for reference! We had a great laugh on the phone and I told her... That I would be glad to give myself a fantastic reference!

Well, my computer is acting wierd, and very slow, so think i had better go now while I have a hope in getting this posted!

Blessings Sj Sallyjane zartgirl

[Blake]

Dear Perfect Fragments of my Perfect Self !!

Kim J,
Let me know what you think of that A.W. book if you find it (&SJ !). I should give a disclaimer though since I havent been through it after discovering (creating ) the Busting Loose world view... It may be soo phase oneish...I shal crack it open and feel it out again. Some of the tools I am sure would still be useful.

About boxes...A freind of mine told me a story of a reocurring dream he had as a kid. He used to dream he found/scavenged a good size box from his famly....hed take it outside to his back deck and climb in.... then with intense concentration, holdin on to the upper flaps like rudders he would slowly lift the box up and off his deck with his mindpower. He'd then fly it out into his back yard toward their orchard trees...he'd lean and turn and describe trying to make it back to the landing pad but every time the stapples holding the box together would start popping out and then the box would give way to his weight and plop him out onto the lawn below....then hed wake up. (Its funny, he's a very logic drivin scientific type computer programer. I think the scientific method is god to him...emotions and feelings are just bothersome delusions...yet he has such a rich and fanciful and inner life. ) AAannny way, I wonder if thats what were all doing... flyin around in this dream in our customized boxes ...until our seams pop out....and we wake up! I feel my seems starting to pop (expecially with Graces call to BEingness) . I need to let them go. Try not to keep "repairing" my flimsy corregated cardboard reality and trust the fall into my GREATNESS!... "Captin she's breaking up!!!! I cant hold her together much longer!!!..." how do you type with a scottish accent? I think I've used this joke here before)

Moxxie!!! thanks for your poems. "What if" is so poinient and powerful...especially for me where I am at right now! Your just a modern day Rumi with all your deep and profound and melodic musings! You inspire me! Thank you!

Bobi , Your mother sounds AmaZinG!!! Just hearing your description of her left me in awe. She sounds like a Saint!!! Have you thought to commission the Pope and see if they could start the cannonization proceess? I hear its slow so if you start now maybe you can have a cannonization party for her before she moves on and reclaims her full powers of Goddessness!! I jest....one hardly needs the Popes seal of approval to be a saint!!!!!! To have her as a mom must be such a blessing!!!... However being of the reclusive type I totally feel for your attempts at "trying to keep up". All youve said of her(MY) love and compassion and service has inspired me also!!! Thanks for introducing me to her!(ME!)

SJ... thanks again for your kind support. That is sssooooo awesome you are so aware of your little eggies!!! and to see how they might impact your daughter. To get to raise your children free of their parental illusions and help them claim their God/Godessness as you claim yours sounds like the true mission of parenting. "How to raise Gods and Godess'z " by SallyJane ....

and GRACE, Ok, still WoW. I am soo grateful for your response. I believe I will be reading, reread, chewing, doing.... BE-ING what you have written for a while! At first it felt like it was a call to action.... but now I know its a call to BEINGNESS! a call to my/our TRUTH...or GOD-NESS. What an energetic kick in my illusion! ...(I sooo felt your second response before I ever read it. Something felt out of wack with my response...and that night I thought... "BEING IT!!"...then I saw the next day your correction!) What you wrote is a gift but I know nothing unless I use it...I hope I can make ya'll (ME) proud.

Help me with this BEing thought though. I still think theres a doing to do, to get to the being. ??? When E Tolle talked aout the beingness I was baffled. To focus on my True Self when its counter to my hypnotized humanoid illusion you even say is the "hardest work" we will ever do. Sooo..."The work" is to "BE" ?...the infinate Truth... the infinate Joy...infinate Love....infinate Power....infinate Peace...that I am? So you BE this without doing? ...I just thought "by remembering." ....Its a wierd contradiction...I am soo getting hung up on simantics.I should shut up and go back to my BEING. Yesterday I, through out my day, kept "reminding" myself of my greatness and the illusion and tried to conjure up feelings of joy and gratitude. That was work! I crashed when I got home I was so tired..and forgot the rest of the night....(and most of today). Oh, well...the race isnt over!!! Up and at em!!!! ... I mean... up and BE em!

So thanks for rescuing me from my "path of least resistance"!!! (smilie face)(I think)... So much for the easier softer way!

All My Infinate Power, Peace, and Love, Blake!

[marnyka]

WOW Great Posts!!!!!!!!!

Great posts everyone. I seemed to have been going through a resistance, procrastination , financial issue phase from the last time I posted. I didn't even want to come onto the board to read. I knew what was going on and didn't panic too much and just went with the flow and took more spirulina.
I started coming out of it yesterday and I just finished reading all the posts. I got HUGE waves of energy while I was reading them, so thanks to everyone for your posts.

This place is great.
Hugs for everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Grace]

For US!

BEING it, IS the answer!

[Blake]

Grace

You must have posted as I was writing to Zgirl.
All I can say is WoW! Your words pack a punch! I'm buzzing. Doing it is the answer...
Blake