Originally posted by Grace
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I've been a bit of a mess lately. See, i have this strange Jekyll and Hyde personality. On one hand, my main passions in life are healing modalities and spirituality. On the other hand, I am hedonistic and self-destructive, and over the past few years I have treated my body worse than I care to divulge, for the shame of knowing that I am not as pure as I should be.
I have had a lot of substance abuse problems, caused by trying to get away from the pain, but of course this leads to more pain in the long run. Since I found Paths, things have changed a lot. I'm slowly moving away from my old lifestyle. But it has taken a toll on my body and mind. While I do not feel as much anxiety since I last posted, I have felt as if I am in a strange fog, listless, tired, cold and irritable. I don't think it's lack of spirulina or cog diss, as I have felt this way before Paths. In fact, the last time I felt like this, I was on holiday for a month, and these feelings ruined most of it. In the last week of that holiday, I found Paths and went on the Mood Elevator module, which cleared most of it up for me except the tiredness. Incidentally, I am going away on holiday in a few days. I'm on the Mood Elevator again but I know healing may take time, so any little correction helps. I want this holiday to be a good one. I'm taking my vitamins and exercising, hoping to cut down the amount of time it takes me to heal.


). Lots of hugs! Serena



Thank you Serena for following this forum!! 
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