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    thank you in advance for reading this, I will try to keep it from getting too long. I really need some advice on what is happening, why its happening, what I can do, or if I am just losing my mind lol. Let me start from the beginning. As a child I seemed to have a lot of instances of Deja-vu as i got older it happened more often, but thats about it. Im now 32 yrs old, in my late 20's I was injured and became addicted to painkillers, and kinda was in a fog for a few years. i have now been clean and off them for over 2 years and that is when everything began. I started having very weird, vivid, extremely real feeling dreams. Sometimes very terrifying sometimes just strange, also around this same time my niece who I am very close with but live in separate houses started having similar dream also. She is now 9 and when she was around 5 or 6 she had some experiences that terrified her with people she was seeing at night. Anyways i have been trying to keep track and it seems like when i have these dreams, she also has them either the same or next night. I dont really know how to explain why these dont seem like normal dreams, they just are so real, and recently the bad ones have started happening more and more and are now happening ever few days apart. the bad ones are real horrible, it usually involves this demon/devil like thing that torments me by either trying to get inside of me, trying to terrify me, hiding the people I love. ETC. Sometimes I wake from these and if i was screaming in my dream my throat will hurt, Ive woken up with scratches (I do not want to sound off the wall posting this, but its the truth and I know they werent there before i went to sleep, and they burn really bad), also the feeling of this thing in my dream like a heavy cloud, I can feel when i wake up and after a few minutes it usually goes away but lately I feel like I cant shake these dreams or get over them. i am to the point where I am scared to go to sleep because i dont want to dream, and stay up until i cant fight it anymore. Even the ones without that thing in them just are creepy with how real they feel. Here I am telling my niece their just dreams and she dont need to be scared when i am terrified myself to dream but I obviously do not want her to know that. Are her and i just sensitive and thats why this is happening? Is there something strange going on? Am I just crazy and losing my mind over dreams? i would really appreciate anyone who could maybe give me some answers or point me in some right directions. My niece and i are both very happy people, we have great lives that are happy and full of love, I just dont understand what is going on. im not a skeptic but on the other hand I am not sure what I believe in or how much I believe in, but I know in my heart these are not like my normal dreams. feel free to E-mail me if any one would like to, its Jmep80@yahoo.com. Thank you so much in advance if you read this and can help in any way, also feel free to email me or ask if anyone wants more detailed accounts of the dreams themselves.Jaime

  • #2
    Dont fear your dreams.

    Dreams are very powerful. I've seen pencil drawn art in my dreams that were so amazing and unlike anything ive ever seen in my life that its beyond belief that i could imagine and see something so clearly and so easily in a dream. The power of our own creativity is one of the most amazing things our brains are capable of. I think its a two way street. Not only can we dream amazingly creative dreams which are good, but also ones which are bad. In my own experiences i tend to dream of things which i "believe" are real. I believe ghosts are real and exist among us, Therefore I have scary vivid nightmares about them all the time. We naturally fear what we dont understand which is why I think my dreams of them are mostly scary. I never in my life had a dream of telekinesis until I knew/believed it was real. Now i have dreams in which i can control distant objects effortlessly with my mind.

    This tells me that dreams are based largly on your own belief system.

    Fear is a powerful emotion, you never will fear something unless you 100% believe it is real. The first step to help you is to stop fearing your dreams.
    Think of it this way, of your entire life has any dream ever really injured you?
    The scratches may simply be self inflicted while fighting off these demons you dream that are trying to get inside you. No one that I know has ever been seriously injured from a dream. No broken bones, no stab wounds. You have to believe in that. Nothing that you create with your mind can harm your body. Its not real. I have problems falling asleep due to hearing and seeing things, but you know what, I've never been injured. So I know, there is nothing to fear. It probably wont go away altogether. Fear can exist deep within the subconsciousness and your dreams will pick up on it. However instead of becomming more afraid of them, you have to become less afraid. Thats the first step.

    Note:
    I once turned a T-Rex into a puppy because I refused to be afraid of it.
    When you confront a demon say: "I dont fear you, you should fear me!"
    It will run from you.

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    • #3
      Thank you so much for your reply. Im not really sure what my beliefs are on things that can't be seen in normal life, and it is something I do think and wonder about often so maybe it is subconciencly comming from those thoughts. I mean it makes sense. I know how weird it sounds to hear a grown woman complaining ofbad dreams, but to have gotten to this point that its effecting my life is too much, and I know i see my neice suffering with her tooand I feel so bad because I know how horrible it is.
      I had posted this samje message on anothermessage board that came up in my search, and I was given the idea to look into learning to controll my dreams so i can try to change them if they start going bad and I think I am going to start there.
      Hopefully I will get more information and more things I can look into and maybe get them to stop or lessen up. I dont think i believe in things like demons and maybe that was the wrong word to use because I dont know what it is. When I woke up with the scrathes I had fallen asleep on the couch after not sleeping the night before. My boyfriend was on the other end of the couch playing on the computer and when I woke up from the dream I started crying telling him about it and it finally dawned on me that my arm was burning and shouldnt be and thats when I seen the scratches so it really freaked me out just seeing them there, but I'm not sure i believe theres anything crazy to it. it was just really bad timing lol.
      And you're right, dreams are so powerful and amazing at the things our brains can do. Thank you so much!

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      • #4
        Your very welcome,

        I deal with bad dreams quite a bit, even to this day. The one thing that should help you the quickest is just believing that it not real and that it cant hurt you. Take some time and focus on being the aggressive one during a confrontation. The dreams will enact your human fight or flight response, focus on taking the fight to whatever dreams that confront you.

        I should have said something differently in my last post. My scary dreams are more about my fear than what it is that i believe. I know dinosaurs arnt real but i still have scary dreams of them because I fear them. So it seems to be less of what you believe and more of what you fear.

        Look at it this way, I've Never had a scary dream about the devil.
        Simply because I dont believe in any form of devil. Therefore I dont fear it.

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        • #5
          Oh no I know what you mean, and it really helped me think that even if I dont think I believe in those things, I do wonder about things so theyare probably floating around in there somewhere. I always think about the crazy, not scary weird dreams, if only i could record them and share them lol.
          I do talk a little about them with my family but I really wanted some objective opinions so again thanks. My Boyfriend is pretty religious and even though I was raised Catholic during my childhood I'm not like him, If I had to label my beliefs I guess they would fall more toward Pagan/Wiccan beliefs,and even though he was helpful and supportive when the dreams started, hes getting annoyed with me getting up and down all night and crying ETC and he thinks if I was more believing in his faith I wouldn't be having them, which to each their own, but it's kinda hard to talk about it at home.
          I will definitely work on using your advice and hopefully I'll get some good results!

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          • #6
            jmep80, hello.
            Nadda is quite right about the role of fear and how it is playing out in your dreams. Perhaps this is your 'baptism of fire' in light of you beginning to realise your true potential and the feelings inside of yourself. I once had a dark demonic figure come to me in a dream and beckon me towards him- I said no in the dream and it went away. Nadda has spoken wise words if you are willing to listen.

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            • #7
              I concur with Nadda. You have nothing to fear but fear itself, teehee. Do a search on this site for lucid dreaming. I found an excellent guide to developing this ability. You start off by mentally training yourself to look at your hand while in a dream just before you fall asleep. Keep reminding yourself to look at your hand. Eventually, you'll get to the point where you will remember to look at your hand while dreaming and be able to tell yourself that you are dreaming. An important aspect of this is to write down your dreams. As soon as you wake up, write it down. Eventually, you should be able to wake yourself up to write it down. Read the book, he's a lot better at explaining it than I am. If you have trouble finding it, PM me, I think I have a copy around here somewhere.

              Next, I think that you may do well to develop the quality of fearlessness in your life in general. All of the information I've been able to find on the subject leads me to conclude that we are infinite beings that are part of the infinite whole. Our illusion of separateness is just that, an illusion. We have nothing to fear as all of the things that we typically are afraid of are just an illusion, no matter how real they may seem. We don't cease to exist when our body dies. We just leave our body behind and continue on. Get familiar with it and accept it. Love yourself and your life. Remind yourself that love and joy are your right and develop in yourself a place where that is true for you no matter what external circumstances you may find yourself in. Always remember that you are the one who is choosing how you respond to life's challenges & circumstances.

              There is a possibility that during your period of drug usage, you attracted a malevolent entity to yourself that is still lingering in your aura. You may need to find a psychic to find out if this has happened and then take the necessary steps to remove it. Do a search for a Spiritualist church near you to find a reliable medium or ask around amongst your friends and acquaintances. The phone book should be your last resort. Use your discernment and any recommendations to make sure you aren't dealing with a phony. The medium should only need your first name and should be able to read you from any distance (like on the phone).

              Good luck! I feel for you and wish you all the best.
              My reality does not equal your reality, but my reality is neither > nor < your reality.
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              • #8
                Yes, listenly closely to ImBill. He's known about much of what I now believe about life and even dreams. He's talked of doing things in dreams that i never knew was possible until recently.

                I think when you think of yourself as an eternal being theres nothing left but love. You realize its pointless to hate, or to be greedy. There is nothing to fear because nothing can ever really hurt you, when you realize death is not the end of life. It's only the start of a new beginning.

                The worst thing about most all religons is that they are fear based.
                Everyone is so afraid of going to hell, so afraid of the devil. It some cases that fear alone creates a cult status which leads to people doing crazy and tragic things. Even some of the 10 commandments are bad...You should never love god more than everything else. You should love yourself, your family, friends, and neighbors more than anything else. Love life.

                People should never be controlled by fear.

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                • #9
                  I agree with Imbill. My colleague has a spiritual practice and has seen and cleared alot of energetic sticky entities. I've had a shape shifter attached to me that was cleared with love. Not to sound flake-y but I too do not believe in devil energy, but I do welcome god or source energy.

                  In my experience when I dream and feel/sense negative energy or situation I ask that anything not of the highest (insert your personal preference) leave immediately; in short I ask for help now. I've had some weird energy in my dreams too.

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                  • #10
                    Originally posted by Nadda View Post
                    When you confront a demon say: "I dont fear you, you should fear me!"
                    It will run from you.
                    yea right... the odds are if its a real demon it will hand you your ass on a platter

                    there is a difference between justifiable fear or rational fear as opposed to paranoia based fear.

                    you better fear a a gun with a gun who is going smack off but don't fear the dragons in your dreams or invisible man in the corner of your bedroom

                    as for dream we all have them and even when I am hallucinating on mind bending drugs those dreams can get really scary but they are only dreams

                    the dreams you and your niece seem to share seem to be more of a form of subconscious communication from the other side than anything else. Ive known people that had those types of dreams between multiple people and often the people were either related or had something in common.
                    Obamisim ; “descriptive term” ; = Something so blindingly full of hope and optimism to heal or fix any situation yet only resulting in a most catastrophic cluster f*ck of failure.

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