I am just finding all the corrections and my reading and all the posts and conversations, so absolutely in perfect harmony with this Whole issue of duality and looking outward vs. inward. I have to admit this has been not an easy thing to face off with, but I also know it is what I have been asking for! Does that make sense? I have felt that need to grow or move into this new area of peace in my life. My X really has no power in my life to push buttons anymore, so I needed to bring someone who had an even bigger or longer ability to push my buttons... Hence my MOM! I needed her to come into my personal space this last month and a half to really push every button she could to force me to face this issue of duality. To really push me into a corner, where I could not get out and had to face this issue or EGG in my life!

The more I have quietly contemplated the whole issue with my MOM, the more and more I see how she was just mirroring in the things in me that I have wanted to be rid of. I was truly writing her script, and she played the part beautifully, as she always has! My reaction, was my reaction! A reaction to the things that I was bringing up inside of me that I needed to deal with! The battle was never with me and my MOM, but with me and myself... It was the ego fighting to keep power as I kept throwing more and more of the tools that I have learned here at it! Talk about duality! The ego was fighting to keep control of me, and only my MOM can push my buttons to that point. My X used to be able to do that, but now I stand up to him, he just helps me in whatever way I ask him to. He actually went and bought me a new washer a week and a half ago, because it was that or give me his. This week I asked him to help me by paying for my insurance licensing school and testing... He said he would help me out financially with the monies to pay for that.

This is really exciting, because when you think about it, or go back and read way back when I first got here... I was totally afraid of Keith! So this means that soon I will for the first time in my life be able to have a great relationship with my MOM! I will start to rewrite her script to one that has us working together and no one trying to control the other! Isn't that exciting!

Doug, thank you for the encouragement. I am thinking that instead of looking at your friends sister who is trying to mess with the gal trying to loose weight... Look inside the gal loosing the weight! The sister is probably just speaking outloud the gal's own fears and trepidations about loosing weight, and her ? her worthiness to do so, and probably her fears about this new person she is finding inside herself? Just a thought, Stephen our good friend here is always telling me whenever I meet someone who bugs me or the likes, that that person is just mirroring in me what I do not like in myself. They are playing out a role for me that i wrote for them to act out, because I need to see what is inside me! Hope that make sense! We are such powerful creators that we are able to create mirrors of people around us to show us who we really are.

I am almost done with the book the Power of NOW, and it is soooo awesome. I will have to go find that movie to watch on DVD this weekend with my daughter. I bought two more books to read, so I have a lot more learning to do. One of them just jumped off the online bookstore page at me, so I am intrigued to see what that one will have me learning about who I really am!

Oh man, I have had my rest from growing and now I am back to that lightening speed growth again!! When I read your post Grace aout re-reading... to speed up growth... I will have to do that, but I have to admit, I thought I can not handle any faster learning and growing right now... Probably a sign that I need to take on that challenge and that you were talking to me!

Blessings Sallyjane

Oh this is kind of cool... lately I have been giving into the fear of running out of money! That somehow it is limited! So I am kind of stressing about my bills and how I am going to pay them. So this morning I finally get up early and go into my online bank and look at all my accounts. I had almost twice as much as I thought I would for paying my bills and then I have plenty left over for the stuff I want and need for the month! Especially since the X is paying for my licensing for my new job. Next month I get an extra 600 dollars on top of my normal pay and then by June I will have started my new job and be making more money!

So the whole money issue was all in my minds ego, just trying to take back some power. Hmmm as hard as my ego is hitting me from every direction, I must be on the right track with things! I must be getting closer to being in a place with out the duality, because my ego is hitting me from every direction, and I am able to observe it and recognise it. Kind of cool!

Blessings Sallyjane

Congratulations Grace!

This Amazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzing thread you started on Chinese Energetic Medicine is sooooooo popular online that it is now ranked #2 in Google when you search for Chinese Energetic Medicine....2nd only to Dr. Yuen's own website!!! You definitely have the most popular Chinese Energetic Medicine forum on the internet! Way to go!!

Go to Google and type in Chinese Energetic Medicine to see for yourself and then click on the link to come back to this forum! Very cool
Stephen did the same with Matrix Energetics!

Hi Grace and everyone in the forum,
I had a terrible day yesterday...couldn't stop crying...waiting anxiously to find out about a business situation and blindsided by a financial tangle. I was just miserable. I meditated and watched my PATHS modules but then reverted back to the strong feelings of misery and anxiety. Spoke to Moria, who was the most wonderful friend she always is, Skyped Grace and got a wonderful reminder...and lapsed right back into the mud.

Remember how, when the babies were little, you watched with baited breath for them to learn to comfort themselves? And how, amazingly, they learned to use a thumb or something to soothe themselves into sleep?

That was me yesterday. LOL. I came to this thread and happened to read Grace's post about going back to the beginning of the forum and reading every page. So I did. I started last night and just finished a few minutes ago. I have re-read evey single post in this thread.

It has been an amazing journey...I am filled with wonder and respect for the distance all of us have travelled over the past year. Re-reading and really thinking about some of the posts has provided some important reminders and I am so grateful for that.

Just wanted to thank all of you for your contributions...I have found this to be a moving and wondrous experience.

Grace, I focused on completing this task and am so grateful that you suggested it. I would recommend it to anyone.

OK...back to work! Thanks again.

Oh this is absolutely amazing and wild and fun! (Stephen told me I should be the poster child for transformation... hehehehe wait till you hear this!)

So I have been feeling the need to get into better shape and get some excersize! But it takes so much time and I so much on my plate! Well Grace told me that I could do the same thing by visualizing myself doing the exersize... hmmm tried to do it, but was struggling with it. Well Stephen taught me to do a two point (ME STUFF)! So I decided a couple of nights ago to try the visualization while in the ME trance... So walked three miles did 75 sit ups and 25 push ups... in about three minutes! Okay so yesterday and today I have been walking around with sore muscles! My stomach especiallly because I am the most out of shape there! Hehehe!

Then also during this time I started asking open ended questions as I fall off to sleep, and because I am a lucid dreamer... I carry that far into the night in my dreams. One of the questions I have been asking as I fall off to sleep is what would it feel like to have an amazingly fast metabolism? No big deal right... very little effort put in here!

I lost 5 lbs in the last 2 days!!! Hows that for size? hehehe!

Let me tell you it is sooo much fun to do a 3 minute visualization workout than a real workout, and loose weight too! hehehehe! Let me tell you at this rate I am going to be one thin little hotty soon!

I want to work next on intuition and communicating tepathically... cause I am always thinking things and thinking I said them outloud... and no-one hears my thoughts! I think I am starting to do this cause my cell phone with out my assistance from my pocket (it is flip phone that was closed) called my daughter 10-15 times today during her liturature class.

Okay I know I am just having TOO much fun with this!!!!!

Love you all Sallyjane Woods... Just talking about my virtual excersize has made my tummy muscles tired! Hehee

This just happened and it is soooo cool! As I mentioned my X husband (who I use to be absolutely terrified of) is helping me get the licensing for my new job. He is actually helping me to the tune of 350.00 dollars worth of help! So as he was dropping off Nathaniel tonight he came in and he had me look up the information to see what I needed and how much it was going to cost. He was telling me how he was going to pay for it so I could get started on Monday/Tuesday my first day off. As he was leaving I was telling him how grateful I was of his helping me to get into something I could make more money at. His response was "I am just so glad to see you feeling so much better and doing so good!" This came from my X Husband who I use to look at as the enemy, but now just see as a friend that I can call and ask for some help from. You know the farther down this rabbit hole I go, the fewer enemies I have.

So my daughter came in and was telling me that one of her friends was being bullied by a girl at school, and she did not want me to do anything about it. My responce was I can two point both girls and the relationship! This is so much more powerful than trying to deal with it in a physical reality! So tonight I am going to quietly two point both girls and my daughter with peace and joy and gratitude and love... Then just leave it up to the universe to take care of it! Its a done deal!

Well one of these days I am going to have to learn more about CEM, but for now I have the tools I have and will have to work with them!

Grace mentioned what she was reading, so I thought I would mention what I am reading. Devine matrix which is awesome, because it is taking back to the scientifical part of the equation that I kind of just skipped over, because it had the word science associated with it... Although I knows I am smart I was afraid of it! I remember two things about science first thing is that it was like Math, and second thing was it had this cool rat that I liked to play with and scare the other girls with! This kind of science is not like that at all! I am actually enjoying it. The other book is Matrix Energetix book... thought since I am already two pointing stuff I should probably read it! ( I guess I need to hang out with Grace more often so the CEM will rub off on me, like the ME stuff did from Stephen... Amazing what you can get out of a conversation over MSN typing).

So I am at work and I am reading away in my books, cause I got both going at the same time... Reading between phone calls that is. I tell you if it weren't for those phone calls at work I would get a lot more done! hehehe! So last night when I get home, Izzi my daughter is like MOM! Why did you call me 15 times durring humanities class? I was like Izzi we are not allowed to have cell phones at work... it never came out of my pocket, because I can get written up for even having it there! I never called you! Turns out as I was reading about the Devine Matrix my cell phone was making ghost calls to my daughter with out even my knowledge! From my pocket. By the way I have a flip phone so no buttons could be pushed by accident! So how is that for some powerful manifestation? Now I just need to learn to control it when it comes to electronics! I must have been thinking about Izzi... probably Nat too, but he does not have a cell phone yet!

Blessings and HUGS Sallyjane

Hi again! It's been a little while but thought I'd give an update. I don't usually do this but seeing Zartgirl doing it, I thought, hey why not?! Maybe it'll be a little cathartic... By the way, way to go Zartgirl! You are just amazing! I pulled out my Matrix Energetics book last night after reading your post and I just cannot "get" the whole two-point thing at all no matter how many different "how-to"s I read. Maybe it's just not my "thing"??

Still having some staffing issues but I have faith it will all work out. My business though has slowed down, or rather not grown as quickly as had been, so that's bothering me a bit and not helping keeping staff as busy as I'd like, but again, I'm just focusing on faith (plus doing extra marketing! ).

Personally, I'm going up and down with my own growth (hmmmm... reflection here in my business??) and I'm getting frustrated with that. It seems so much work (another reflection??)... having to be mindful of drifting aimless/negative thoughts, behavior, etc. I'm hoping my ego is just struggling for control and giving a valiant effort to maintain its position, and conversely that must mean that I'm making headway if it feels necessary to do that! That's what I'm telling myself anyway!

And I'm also going back and forth on weight and health issues.... Hmmm focus on it and do the action-oriented "typical" stuff, or relax and accept. I tend to be a little too relaxed if I don't focus. Bring out the nachos, "all is good"! Zartgirl, if I could figure out that two-point I'd be all over it with this! That's amazing what you've accomplished!

I get a little confused on issues like this as on the one hand I believe "all is perfect as is", etc., yet on the other I feel we need to have a vision and take inspired action to get there. That pretty much sums up my confusion on everything, now that I mention it! I'm really trying to focus on being grateful for everything but I have that nasty ego just trying to bully its way in and not allow me to actual "feel" that way beyond just thinking it on the surface. I guess I'm a little stuck on getting there beyond the surface level and perhaps that's where I'm blocking myself.

Anway, I'm babbling now! Thanks Grace for touching on your methods for muscle testing. That will really be helpful. I can't seem to find North for the other method for the life of me!!! I sway in every direction! What a visual! Also, I love that you're reading A Course in Miracles again! I've been hearing about that book so much lately and I began reading it myself a couple of weeks ago and just love it! I'm also reading Return to Love my Marianne Williamson. I have to order A Course .... though as I took it out from the library and have to return it and my local bookstore doesn't have it. On that note, has anyone read The Moses Code yet? I'm trying to decide if it's worth ordering or not? Perhaps I spend too much time reading??!! I just was listening to Wayne Dyer the other day and he was saying to someone that they're thinking/doing too much and they just need to "be". I think that's me in a nutshell but I sure can't figure out how to "just be".

So, enough babbling. Hope I didn't run off in too many directions, just got on a roll! Thanks for reading!

Love and blessings.
Kim

Kim,

The first thought that came to my mind when I was reading... Was the thought about accepting it as it is, and then the feelings of inspired actions... When you truly accept it as it is and all is truly good... (The act of just being by the way) Then the only actions you will want to take will be truly inspired by the desires of who you are. Otherwise you are taking action out of the ego mind, because you are not truly okay with it or just being with it! A great book I would recommend to you that really helped me get this whole concept is called the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. Awesome book!!!! Also the busting loose from the money game helped me to deal and still does with the ego mind when it is feeding me chatter. Right now I am reading Devine Matrix very scientifical!!! I have spent my whole life trying to avoid scientifical stuff and here I am reading about quantum physics! Go Figure! Seriously though it is very good to really understand how we are all connected and why it is we can change reality! I thought today at work I would be real smart and skip a couple of pages to get to the more interesting part... Hehehe! More scientifical stuff! I have to say though I am getting a lot more out of it than I would have thought. It makes the ME stuff make more sense too! Most importantly in really emphasized the importance of the language of emotions in the matrix. Highly reccommend it! If I can read it anyone can understand it! Hehehe

If you want some help with the 2 point... I would love to help you with that, but PM me about it. Mostly, it is just about an altered state of being! It is cool cause it shuts off all of the mind chatter. I also believe that Grace and some of the gals here teach the CEM a bit... Not sure about that though! ME for me took less time to pick it up, but for me as an artist I have always known altered states, because that is how I paint! Walk up behind me sometime when I am painting and you will know you brought me out of an altered state of being, and I will exit it with a very loud squeel! I believe you challenge you are having with the 2 point is the same you are struggling with in the other parts of your life and that is just being and accepting!

Blessings and HUGS Sallyjane

Yea its me again! Just soooo much happening right now! Well as I told you earlier about what I am reading, both the ME book and the Devine Matrix, and I know I joke about it being soooo scientifical! But I am getting so much out of it!

So today, I am at work, and I am reading again! I get so much reading done there! So anyways, I am reading away... and this idea has been working through me, that if I just intend and put into the matrix the information to transform me into love, gratitude, forgiveness, joy, compassion, patience and any others I might be missing... That everything else that I desire in my life will just work itself out as my true self will emerge stronger and stronger! One of the things I am really getting is that I don't have any weight to loose... That only the image that I project of myself is what it is now and when I come closer and closer to who I really am and to those attributes then the truer image of myself will be projected out to the world! With those attributes I will naturally start to tap into the abundance of the universe, I will naturally attract more wonderful people into my life as awesome friends like you and the ones I have now. It seems to me that I will be in the place where I want to be with my family, friends, and so forth. Because my focus will be right!

In the ME book it says that once you get into the two point that the secret is to do nothing or do NO thing. That started my head spinning around what it was that was really needed to tap into the Matrix and to reach the consciousness level to do so on a daily basis. To me it is like this awesome way to meditate that is hard for me to do with out a paintbrush in my hand! So if I am going to meditate in a deep state of consciousness then what would be the best thing to meditate on? Okay I am just rambling on and on and on these thoughties that have been running through my head.

So on a similar subject but very different... I had the most fun experience this morning early. Izabelle and I have been wanting to upgrade our cell phones to a certain phone that is not on sale very often. I had just misses a sell on them a month and a half ago, so I was not expecting another sale till July or Sept even. So this morning I awoke quite fast and bounded out of bed set for my computer. When I came to full consciousness from my sleep I as on the website of my cell phone provider checking out sales. I looked at the clock and thought what the hell am I doing at 6:30 am in the morning... after working a 12 hour shift last night and having to turn around today and go back in at 9am! Then I realized that the phones I have been waiting for to go on sale were the phones being advertised on the home page of the webpage! My 200.00 dollar phone was on sale for 29.00 dollars! Shake it off I thought it will cost me a 150.00 dollars to get it and then rebates that I have to wait for... so I went back to bed, but it was nagging at me, so I then called at the crack of dawn my cell phone provider and low and behold for me it was 29.00, but for Izzi it would be 79.00 dollars... So I ordered mine, and proceded to wake my teenager up at the crack of dawn on a Saturday to tell her she needed to talk to her dad about some money for her phone and how much it was! She scrambled around droggy handed me a envelop of babysitting money, and asked me to cover her for 8 dollars! So I went back downstairs and ordered a second one for her in another color so we would not mix them up! I had told her she would have to pay half of the 150 dollar price when I started making more money... Today she paid half of that price, and got the phone... I just did not have to pay the rest. I was quite proud of her for saving up and being able to do that!

The best part was that I knew this morning that I had created that sale and then told myself about it! I even made it just the right price for both of us! I was very excited, and the best part is my own cell phone battery only lasts through one phone call! Such perfect timing!

Well that is all I have to say tonight... I need to fall off to sleep after I do my deep meditation on the attributes I want in my life!

Love and Blessings Sallyjane

I swear to you I can manifest anything anything anything! There is nothing out of my power to manifest! OMG!!!!

So my x called me up and was dropping off my son, and told me he wanted to go for a 5 min walk and talk! This freaked me out a bit and I have to tell you that I was sure the cat had died! The cat is fine, but if she does not stop scratching in the middle of the night to get out she may not be fine for long!

What he told me was the most amazing thing! He said he woke up in the middle night of the night and decided that he has been very selfish, in wanting to stay here and keep me here!!!! OMG! He has decided to that next year after we both get our insurance income going good... that we should move somewhere around Sacramento California... He will pick a small town and I and the kids can live in the bigger town!

Grace, you told me I would manifest this peacefully, and you were right! I am almost in tears of joy right now, not because I get to return to California, but because I manifested this awesome thing in my life and it was totally through peace! OMG!!! Words can not begin to describe this right now!!! I am like in totally in just complete awe of what is transpiring... He is even coughing up 350 dollars for me to take the insurance licencing tests!!!! Thank you for teaching me to not fight back, but to just trust!

Thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!!
Love and HUGS Sallyjane