Hello everyone.........I'm relatively new to this forum, but love the energy and almost feel as though I know all of you after reading here for the last few weeks. I posted an introduction on the matrix forum if any of you feel inspired to check it out. I'm hoping responding to a post directed to someone else is not inappropriate.......please let me know if it is.

Aren't mothers amazing?? Doesn't it just blow your mind how they can bring out the parts of us that we most dislike about ourselves. My own mother recently visited me, and my usual calm, accepting composure crumbled within the first couple of days. I think what happens is that all the hurts and frustrations of our childhood that were left unresolved, come rushing back up to the surface again for healing.....but instead of recognizing the opportunity we fall back into our usual patterns of resistance and resentment, and the drama continues right where we left it. I think we actually revert back to the child within, who feels totally powerless to change our circumstances. Not sure if any of you follow Abraham teachings, but I remember them once saying that after Esther visited her mother she finally understood what homesickness meant.......it's when going home makes you sick!!!

So, Sallyjane, having said all this.....I'm not sure I have any practical solutions for you. Trying to resolve old patterns in the heat of the moment is a bigger challenge than most of us are up for! We're usually in a state of reaction, and detachment is the only state that's going to help us see the drama for what it is. If you can find a way to make peace with where you are in this game, and find thoughts about your mother that bring you back to your new empowered self.....you'll feel much better. Who you are now, is much wiser, stronger, more passionate, etc. than who you were during your last encounter with your mother. Jeez, I can see all your growth over the last while, and I don't even know you personally!! Maybe your mother is seeing things in you that frighten her....maybe she's afraid of losing the "you" that she's always known. She's probably feeling SO much better, now that the old "you" has come back again. She just hasn't figured out how to relate to the woman you've become, and so she draws out her little girl. Maybe it would be helpful if you had a nice cup of coffee with her at your favorite place.....just you and her, and you asked her about her interactions with her own mother....and if she ever noticed how the mother/child thingy just flares up and ruins a perfectly good time!

The amazing, beautiful Grace will probably have some constructive solutions for you, and tweaking your energy patterns will certainly help............but the work will still be waiting for you. Soon as my mother left, I put the work right back up on the shelf.....and it's calling me! She's the only one left that can still draw out that helpless insecure little girl that I used to be.....and I truly want to help the little girl in me feel safe enuff to merge with the woman I've become. The next time I see my mother, I wanna see all the things that I love and admire about her instead of the things that make me wanna climb walls and scream So, I'm off to think some thoughts about the triggers that evoke those old hurts, and bring them up for healing and soothing.....because I know that this is really all about me, and nothing to do with my mother. Now that feels a little more powerful......I can't change my mother, but I know that I can change myself.

xxxoo
Debbie

Hi Debbie, those are some great observations! I agree with you that all these old feelings come back to us because they need to be healed. (I believe that anytime we experience an uncomfortable emotion or one that doesn't feel good, that it is a signal to us that we need some healing).What a great way to look at visits from Mom! It's a wonderful opportunity to heal. And maybe in the process we can get to experience our moms as the wonderful people they actually are!!

But the main reason why I'm butting my head into this conversation is because I have found that the Breakthrough to Enlightenment module is a great one for this very situation. I was on it several months ago and found that it helped me to recognize when I was running an old pattern or program that was not healthy for me. It litterally helped me to stop myself in my tracks as I was about to say or do something that was, in my opinion a stupid thing to say or do. And I even was able to figure out why or what triggered me to want to do so. And I have started back on that module and am getting similar results. So I wanted to point that out as something that might help if anyone is consciously trying to work on breaking old patterns. I've also started on the Ho'oponopono mod because I think it helps with that also, as I think it focuses on forgiving and letting go, which is another method to the same end in my opinion.

Stacey

I have been applying the process from the BL to my MOM situtation, and it is helping, but I also realized that what was really happening was she was inadvertently pointing out to me one of my Obsessive complusive issue dealing with time and being late. I have this thing where I completely freak out if I am not at least 15 minutes early someplace... But it gets worse if someone tries to calm me down about the time issue. To me it is like they are disrespecting me and telling me that time is not important. Funny thing is it really isn't cause it is a made issue to begin with! So I guess I really need some work in this area of time and the fear of being late.

I also have been setting time aside to listen to my paths more... with the move I had missed a week or so and so was loosing some of my peace of mind that I get from my paths!

New corrections requested! I started my walking program this morning and walked with my wallking tape for one mile. I am not really even tired from it so I am thinking I will go for a second mile tonight! tomorrow I will just do the two mile walk with the video. My goal is to walk 3 miles everyday! I need to strengthen my lungs and body, and well it is just good for us! A skinnier waist would be a good thing too. I have been loosing weight with just processing my weight issues using the BL process and two pointing it, but since then I have had this desire to walk 3 miles a day, so I am thinking this is my spiritual self telling me that I am supposed to play the walking game! It is fun and gives me so much energy and it is easy. The lady that leads it doesn't expect me to be able to touch my toes let alone be able to practically do the splits! I like this program!

Blessings and thank you sallyjane

Thank you so much, Grace, for your wonderful insight regarding letting go and your kind words. I'm practicing what you're saying and I believe I'm making a shift. I've been inspired today to start doing things for myself more and taking the steps to do that, and I haven't felt that way in a long time, even with all my practicing gratitude and "knowing" what I think I know. Today I've been more conscious of negative thinking habits and stopping myself in the midst of it, or planning ahead, setting positive intentions when in situations where I know I have a tendency to fall headfirst into the illusion! Thank you for the tips and reminder!

Blessings to you.
Kim

Hello Grace,
I have been spotty in the forum lately. I have been going through some major shifts and admitting to some pieces of me that no longer serve me and letting them go. I released a big one relating to being sneaky about money and hiding my spending from my husband and not being honest with myself about what I am doing. I had used this part of me for so long that I didn't want to see what I was doing. NE way... This happened right before I went to the Matrix Energetics seminar last week. Because of that I changed my PATHS modules from a platinum to a 4 module. I picked the following ones:

Dynamic Biofield
SLP1
INCREASED BUSINESS
PRODUCTIVITY & CREATIVITY
Stimulate Intuition and Insight

Ever since I made the switch, my desire to do them is completely gone. I have sat and did them twice in the past 4 weeks.

As I am writing this, I'm getting that anxious feeling in my stomach like something very big is going to change. I'm just observing.

Another thing has shown up this week. My father is visiting for the week.

Another big 'issue' that has been brought forward is this 'urge' that both me and my father have about putting ourselves in situations that require us to be bound by a 'contract' of some sort.....Loan, verbal agreement ..etc.. to someone or to an organization. Then getting upset that we put ourselves in the situation and not wanting to honor our part of the agreement. I recognized it for what it was before I left for the ME seminar and I am in the process of rectifying things for myself as we speak.

One of my father's situations showed up this week by me getting a voicemail from a creditor looking for my father... no need to get into the details but I did see that it came up while we are together for us to resolve/heal this piece of us.

It is such a touchy subject for my father that I am finding it hard to approach him about it and how to go about it. I have used some ME stuff on it and asked for change in myself and in him.

If you could make corrections for me and my dad I would greatly appreciate it on this piece.

Also if you could see what's going with me and the PATHS modules, I would be greatful.

Marnyka

I haven't had the time to be on here for a while, but as I get ready for my trip to FL I have been thinking about you, Grace. There is so much I don't know where to begin. Thank you for the inspiration of turning a potentially negative button pushing into a positive "isn't it fun" life experience. Sometimes I can get negative and need those reminders. People don't seem to push my buttons, but I sure push my own. I tend to put so much on my plate that I can't keep up and then I rag on myself for not getting it all done. My mind has been chaotic recently and it is reflected in the mess in my room. I have so many things that I want to do that are really wonderful projects. I have no time since I am travelling so much (which I love) but is a big stress on my body and takes so much time to organize. I am on the Stress Reduction module and that has helped so much. I also got on the Antioxidant module because I was sick with a flu, then a cold then a sinus infection which I had to take antibiotics for before I went to Australia. I hate taking antibiotics!

So Grace I look forward to meeting you in person and sharing healing modalities! I will call you in the next few days.

In health to you all!

Hi Inika!


I am very excited to meet you too Inika! I see on your website that you have two trips to Fort Lauderdale. http://www.healingdance.org/ When we talk you can tell me more about the classes. We are going to have plenty to talk about, I have many questions for you!

I will make some corrections for removing residual effects from the antibiotics, so do not give it another thought. I will work on your emotional and spiritual bodies right now too. You are a Fabulous Healer and we need to keep you in tip top shape!!

Grace,

I am sending you a PM. I started to type everything here, but then it came off as too personal for the larger board.

Welcome back, thanks for being here.

SJ, this is exactly what I needed to read tonight!

And congrats on the house.

Grace and everyone!
Thanks so much! I will take all of that to heart as I do my walks and exersise each day!!! I love that about the just before bed, just how powerful is that! Soooo way cool!

Well I am off to bed tonight after an awesome, but tiring day! I did not get everything done as I wanted too, but I did get a new couch today! It is a futon, but it is sooo cool to have something to sit on in the living room that is not lawn furniture, and plastic at that! Well it has been an awesome day with lots of new experiences!

I am tired, and looking forward to going to bed and doing my walk tonight in my sleep! I did not have time today to do my walk today with everything that I let myself get pulled into! 2 more weeks till I get my schedule change and my life will calm down! Yahhooo!

Will talk to you all more laterzzzz
Blessings and HUGS sallyjane