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11-29-2007, 04:52 PM
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Bobbi
Bobbi, You know it is true that most of us have been taught to not ask for help! What amazes me is when we do ask for help we usually end up helping others at the same time! I too have been dragging this last week, but some of mine was I ran out of spirulina over the holiday and then forgot to buy it on Friday and Saturday here is the Sabbath (not for me, but the store was closed  ) Hehee! I am back on it and been doubling up a little to catch up, but noticed also when I get that way if I also increase my water intake it helps a great deal no matter what the cause of it was! Just thought that might help you next time you are feeling that way! I am like you all of the modules sound so wonderful and have some fit to me, so choosing was tough till I figured out that Grace could test them for me! Wow, how wonderful is that! I went through a lot of trial and error before getting to where I am with my modules! I do really love the Ho Oponopono module and for me the breakthrough to enlightenment has really brought some cool stuff into my life!!!! The deserving too! I just love that we can test for strength on the modules!  Well blessings Sj zartgirl     
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11-29-2007, 06:13 PM
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Dear Bobi,
The materials I used for my artwork is wood. The artwork is almost a 3D artwork as I carved the animals and the landscape from wood so that my artwork is not flat but has different widths (or heights) to get a more 3D kind of artwork. As paint I used the paint to paint aircraft models. I am also an aircraft enthousiastic and as a boy I build many model aircrafts painted them with special paint for plastic model aircrafts, cars or boats. It is nice to hear that my artwork is appreciated! With greetings from Holland, Jan
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11-30-2007, 03:50 PM
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Hi Jan, I have been working on You for all these concerns. They have all been worked on since you first started posting and especially when we spoke on the phone. With CEM, as issues are corrected the problems lift with out much notice on your part. What happens also is that as layers of issues are corrected (being infinite beings) other "issues/problems" then beg for attention. So you may not notice a certain feeling of anxiety has lifted because a more intense sense of sadness has come into your awareness and to the surface for further corrections. I will continue to work on your problem of exhaustion which is still stemming from your emotional and spiritual bodies. I will post again to your next post, I have already skyped you concerning this, but I do have more to tell you. I think your swans are beautiful and inspiring and yes The healing art thread is a perfect thread to post your art again! 
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11-30-2007, 06:37 PM
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Grace...Chase request regarding Immunization shots
Good afternoon Grace,
Would you please help Chase out over the weekend with having a speedy recovery from his immunization shots he will be getting today? I would greatly appreciate it. I have been working on myself being neutral to him getting shots and removing the fear I get when I think about them.
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11-30-2007, 07:28 PM
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Grace
Grace, I have been working on myself and others for the last week or so... but I would love it if you would help me to clear any issues I am having pertaining to getting a job, and an apartment. I really want and need to get out of the shelter by the 15th of December, and I need to get a job for at least long enough to live till I can get my posters going and whatever else is out there for me with the abundance! I guess today I am really fighting with myself! Belief seems to be a big issue and it seems to stem around my getting the or any phone call that I have gotten a job! I need to get rid of these issues, because I am blocking myself. I have been working on clearing these issues on my own, but I could use a little help! Thank you! Blessings and a Big HUG Sallyjane zartgirl
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11-30-2007, 07:44 PM
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Wow!
Wow!!!  After posting five minutes ago, I walked down to the office at the shelter, and picked up my mail... in my mail was a letter from the housing authority, and I got my group interview!!!! Yeahhhh!!! This is sooo exciting, they are going to get me into a 3 bedroom house or apt. where the kids and I can live!!!! This is just a huge breakthrough for me! Now all I need is an income! I did some clearing on that, and it was interesting, cause I asked it if I personally had any blockages and it said no, so I asked it if there were any blockages from someone else... i.e. Keith... It tested very strong, so I immediately cleared that too. I believe I will have an income very soon!!!! Blessings and hugs Sallyjane zartgirl
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11-30-2007, 11:55 PM
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LOL Thanks
Marnyka, First I want to wish you a Happy Birthday! I have been meaning to go to that post and say that, but never got there! And a big thanks! Somehow it is all coming together... I get frustrated sometimes mostly because I want this stage to be over with and move on to the next stage of this game!!!  Yea, I have been working on the whole patients issue! I get it cleared in one area and then it seems to rear its ugly head in another area! Today I realized everything is really working itself out in just the right order! In my head I was supposed to get the job first and then the apartment... but this way I get help getting into the place and don't have to qualify on my credit... Once I get into the house, then I can make as much money as I want (and although I won't qualify for the help anymore, I will be in the place). Then I will focus on great credit! I am learning that it does not look like what it really looks like! If it looks bad, it is probably really good! Either we are learning something great or something big is about to fly at us from a different direction. So never judge anything! Ah man, here I go a quick post turns really long with me!  The cool things is once I have a house I can start to paint my faeries by hand too, and getting income from them will be even easier. Oh I almost forgot, but yesterday the state started giving me 500 dollars a month till I make too much income! Everything is starting to just fall into place! It is really cool! Soon I will be in my own place with my kids, and have a great income, and my art will be starting to sell like wild fire, and be posting about all the changes that have happened in my life. Hmmm... most would think that living in a shelter and having to get help from the government and all the so called crap I have been through would be a bad thing, but when you start this journey from so far down... it is awesome, because when you get through it and your hologram starts to change and your manifesting great things in your life... You get to see the distance you have traveled! You really get to appreciate even the littlest things like 500 dollars!!!! That is cool! Blessings Sallyjane zartgirl
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12-02-2007, 03:05 AM
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Jan
 Not sure how, but somehow I missed your post up above where you were talking about quitting medical school! Is being an MD something you have a passion for and this is just the minds constant talk and stress talking telling you, that you can not do this? It is what it sounded like! Jan, I know it is hard to turn those off, but you need to learn to do just that! Learn to be in the NOW. That is a place where you learn to stop listening to the constant chatter of the mind and just be in the here and now. There are some great breathing techniques that can help you relax and be in the here and now! You can also use those when the MD's are asking you questions and you start to get nervous! There are some good books that I have read and many that Grace can recommend to you that will also help you get into that place! This is the best time for you to learn to go to this place (well actually learn to live in this place), so once you graduate and start practicing natural medicine, you will already know how to connect with the source and heal people. I can not imagine that after already getting to be an RN you could not do the MD! Remember who you are! You are the AWESOME POWER OF GOD! You can do anything! You are creating this, so if it is seeming to hard then recreate the way you want it! Remember that everything that is in your hologram right now is there in perfection, and that perfection is guiding you to who you really are! All the mind chatter that says you CAN'T do it, is a lie! You ego mind is telling you all of this to get you to stay as far from who you really are and let it keep the power it has over you! Stop giving it the power! One way of reclaiming the power is to OBSERVE the mind chatter (not listen to it, but observe it). Really see where it is coming from and see the lies it is telling you... Like you can't possibly give the right answer! That is a total lie! The other thing is be very aware of areas of fear in you... Fear is an emotion just like gratitude, and fear will manifest whatever it is focussed on as fast or faster than gratitude! Whenever you start to get that fear of "I can't do this!" Go to gratitude and start thanking the source that you can do this and you can give right answers! As a matter of fact walk around all day focussed on gratitude of the things you want to happen in your life. For me I have walked around thanking God for my new place to live, even when that goal seemed  impossible!!!! Thank God it was not impossible as nothing we want is ! The new place is becoming truth as we speak, and so can the things in your life! Remember that the funds you need can be manifested into your life strictly from abundance and prosperity, but first you need to stop fighting it with resistance! You say you just don't know of any other way of apreciating yourself other than to work as an RN, and you are never sure if there will be extra work for you in your non-school times... Start off with never saying those things! Say things like Thank you for supplying all my needs! Thank you for the monies I want and need to finish my education! Thank you for the ability to manifest monies I need to live and enjoy life while I am in school. Thank you for understanding what I am studying in Med School. Thank you for the right answers right when I need them. Thank you for all the rest I need to feel rested and not stressed out! Thank you should start every sentence when you are talking to yourself all day long!!! Okay, now that I have said all that... I will do some clearing on you to remove the resistance and fear that you are having! I know that Grace is already working on it as I am typing this out! Blessings Sallyjane zartgirl
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12-02-2007, 07:09 PM
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Early morning hunger
Hello everybody!
So I decided to post this here as some of you might identify with this and thus will get the benefit of Grace's corrections as well!!  Ok Grace, here goes: In the past couple of weeks (more or less) I have been experiencing hunger between 4-5 a.m. I drink water and do my best to get back to sleep but it keeps "insisting" and I find myself getting up to eat something. Well, that starts off my metabolism and then I'm hungry again 2-2.5 hours later and so on for the rest of the day!  I surely do NOT want to gain back any of the 40 lbs I have lost thus far this year from all the food I'm eating. And of course I value my sleep! I need to sleep through the night and not be awakened by the "munchies monster."  This morning I thought it might be my "Positive Attitude and Vitality" module, maybe too much vitality there!  Could you please correct this issue(s) for me? I have been doing my best to do CEM on this for myself but neutrality is not quite 100%.   very very much!!!  ~Viviana - 
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12-03-2007, 01:33 AM
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Viviana
Viviana, I read this earlier and it has been a lingering thought ever since that I need to reply to you about this! First off congrats on your weight loss of 40 lbs.! Something that I have been learning about in the books I have been reading and the threads I have also learned a lot about... Is that we will only gain weight if 1. We focus on a fear of gaining! 2. If we believe that something will cause weight gain! 3. We believe we should weigh a certain amount! I have recently been loosing weight, and it has been very exciting for me! Last week or so I put on a pair of pants that I had not been able to wear in a very long time, and they were not even tight! People are also starting to notice the change in my size too! I have also noticed that my favorite sweats that my daughter hates and wants me to throw away are starting to slide down with little or no help... Iza was happy to hear that soon I would have to get rid of them... So what did I do? Well I have been making adjustments on myself pertaining to my weight and my beliefs. Like what I eat does not control how much I weigh! I have also processed my feelings about my body and my weight and been clearing those thoughts too. I have cleared my thoughts about sugar and any cravings I might have... I continue to work on all of these areas in my life. Where I live right now I don't have a scale, so I decided to test with my pendulum and asked if I had lost 1 lb., 2 lbs, etc... till the pendulum stoped saying yes and started saying no.... Hmmmm... I believe it said I had lost 115 lbs. LOL I realized that it was giving me the weight that I weigh right now in the field, and not quite the answer I was looking for... I have decided that I am not going to weigh myself and just let source take care of my weight loss! The only changes I have made physically in my diet is that sugar and sweets don't have control over me like they use to! I still eat them... I also suddenly want to eat foods I never liked before Kind of interesting! I am one who sometimes wakes up in the middle of the night hungry too... I will get up and have just a little something, and go back to bed, so I can sleep. If I don't do that then I have trouble sleeping. Here is the deal... I am an incredibly small eater, but I get hungry often. My weight problems stemmed more from emotional issues and beliefs than from eating habits! That said if you believe in cause and effect and food is the cause of weight gain then you will gain weight, so until you process those beliefs and get rid of that fear you will have to be extremely careful of what you eat! It was after reading Busting loose from the Money game that I got the idea that food had nothing to do with my weight! I also believe that some of my weight loss has to do with the Paths Modules I am on, although I am not on any of the Path's modules for weight loss or body shape... But as I change my beliefs about myself, my body is following suit! That said I will work on you and some of your beliefs about food and that you will stop eating in the middle of the night. Namely as you said, it is a pain in the butt to get up in the middle of the night to eat and then try to go back to sleep! During the day as long as you are eating small meals even with your current belief system, you will not gain weight! Smaller meals are actually better for you if you believe in cause and effect! Personally I kind of like the manifesting or creating a smaller me! Where I live now we do not have good place to keep food or cook it, so I do not eat "Healthy at all, because it is almost impossible. Three of us share a small refrigerator and I have one small shelf to keep non nonperishables on. I am forced to shop almost everyday and buy only what I can eat that day! The cookware I believe was bought at the dollar store, and there is not much here... that is because stuff gets stolen if it is nice! I am still loosing weight! Soon I will be in a place of my own where I can cook again! Yeahooooo! Very soon!  Blessings Sj zartgirl
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12-03-2007, 06:02 PM
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12-03-2007, 06:56 PM
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Dear Zartgirl,
I love Your support! I read some books about being in the NOW and used some breathing techniques. Which books and breathing techniques would You recommend me? I used in the past a lot of affirmation techniques and read many books about this subject. But the different view of many authors and specialist about this technique is very confusing. Many say that You can say many positive statements during a day but when Your subconscious belief is otherwise it will reject Your conscious intentions. Some say when there is a conflict between the conscious and subconscious mind the use of affirmation will make it only worse. I like the way to thank everything You like to receive or want to manifest. Although when I am depressed or frustrated it is often difficult to be grateful for my situation. Whats the most frustrating me is that I have used many techniques in the last 15 years but not with obvious positive results which created in me a kind of state that I need first to see or feel the difference otherwise I cannot believe it. Also it is difficult to see a life of fulfillment, happinmess, success and love when You only had the experience that life is a struggle with many dissapointments and sometimes after a lot of effort a positive outcome. But I love the stories You told me that You are now creating Your life as You want it to be that gives me the strength to continu and give me the hope that is is possible! With love from Holland, Jan
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12-04-2007, 12:44 AM
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Grace: Thank you for the "karate chop" motion and aligning proceedure you mentioned. (I couldn't find it again to reference directly) I've been muscle testing for years, though use a different method than I've heard others mention. (I place the tip of my middle finger over the nail base/first knuckle area of my index finger and apply downward pressure. Left hand. I'm right handed)
The first tries with the karate chop motion all came out positve/postive regardless how my feet were positioned. Hmmm. And then suddenly it "corrected" itself. Positive=pigeon toed, Negative=ballet feet. (hope I'm remembering that correctly) Often now I test opposite that and correct after a single "chop". I've not applied any true testing of how effective my testing is though am very grateful for this tool. Thank you. Jan: the paint you use sure transforms the look of the wood - or so it appears from the picture! It looks almost as if it were poured into a mold. Also - on a seperate topic... best wishes on finding your path through the MD question and frustration. It sounds as though exhaustion is adding to your stress. It's a challenge to feel positive and focused when you barely have time to catch your breath. I hope you can find quiet, peace and a restful center both in body and mind soon. About finding that positive feeling when it feels illusive... for me...sometimes, even though my life is/was filled with blessings, I would have a hard time feeling gratitude. I just couldn't muster it when overwhelmed by sadness or at some low point. At those times I would take it down to basics. "I am so grateful I have lungs that draw full breath which nourishes my body." It might seem a simple thing but for some people it is a luxury they don't have. Wow... Next might be "I am so grateful for strong legs that take me whereever I want to go." Again, not a given for some. With these the "funk" would begin to lessen as I became truly grateful for such wonderous gifts and from there I could fall asleep quietly or rev it up a notch or two with more gratitudes. I hope it might help you as well. Bobi
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12-05-2007, 02:28 PM
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Clearing Myself
I thought this would be the best place to put this since it was Grace
who got me interested in CEM in the first place and has helped me and Chase out over the past month or so. Last week I had a session with a woman named Cheryl Anderson who uses a combination of Matrix Energetics and CEM in her sessions. I had her for an hour and wanted her to work on me and my husband's experience when I was pregnant. I was a mess the whole time  I was sick the whole time, got gestational diabetes, we were moving  )....we both were miserable. In turn it manifested into not wanting another kid out of FEAR of what would happen, being afraid to even be intimate...blah blah blah. Then I had some individual things between us......Before the session started, she gave me some things. 1. She gave me and my husband a 'NEUTRAL' button. This button gives you the opportunity to be neutral to EVERYTHING. So you can truly choose how you want to react. She also taught me how to 'CORRECT' or 'CLEAR' my emotional attachments that are not benenficial. She had me think about something between me and my husband that I didn't care for (nothing huge). Recognize where it shows up. Mine showed up in my stomach. She said bring it to the middle and say 'Correct it' or 'Remove it'. Keep saying it until it's gone. She taught me this in leiu of 'muscle testing'. 2. She set all three of us up with the ability to DETOX, ADD NUTRIENTS, and BALANCE our bodies. She said starting in between your collar bones down into your pelvic area, you can get your body 'right'. 1 - is for detox and make the motion from the collar bone down to your pelvic area. 2 - Add the nutrients for your body (same motion) 3 - balance out your body (same motion) She said to do it as many times as you need. I use this alot, especially when I have stuffed myself. It really gets things moving Then we did our session. I felt some things being removed. It was a very great session. ANYWAY - I decided to take the correcting and removing to the next level. I have read the book 'The 7 healing Chakras' and use to do the meditations to clear my chakras. Every chakra is attached to an age. I used that premise and decided to go through every age 1-34. I say the following: "1 year old self, you are safe. There are no regrets, grief, fear, or collective concious thoughts associated with them." I wait to see what comes up. When I get the 'feelings'. I say "correct and remove them". I say it over and over again. It moves up my body and out my head. Sometimes I have to yell it, sometimes I have to pull it our push it out. Some of the harder things seem to get stuck on my face or in my throat. That's when I start doing the Ho'oponono saying. - I love you, I'm sorry for having this thought or belief, please forgive me and remove it, thank you. Then after it leaves, I tell myself that I am loved unconditionally and wait for that feeling. If I don't get it, I know there is more to get out. The other day something interesting happened. I have been telling myself that I need to start quieting my mind when Chase goes to bed at night. I find a gazillion reasons not to. I finally 'recognized' what I was doing and said to remove it. ALL OF THIS STUFF STARTED COMING OFF OF ME . It was all tied to knowing there is more than what it appears. I kept saying(yelling) 'REMOVE IT' and my body started leaning forward and my body started lifting upwards. I actually thought I was going to float. I have never felt like that before. I got scared because I thought I weighed too much and it stopped. (Still working on that one). Now, things just come off of me out of the blue. They truly feel like weights being lifted. There are those ages and situations that have some strong deep rooted things that I am still working on, but it is amazing. I hope I wasn't too long winded. I say all that to say, we all can remove and clear ourselves. I thought the only way to learn was to ask someone to do it or go to seminars to learn. I still want to go to seminars but I can help myself too.
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12-05-2007, 11:03 PM
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We are most definitely going to speak soon. I will check my Private Messages soon, but I still need to understand our time difference and also if you are on Skype? I have most definitely included you on all these fabulous corrections! I spend time on all the individual posters, and in Group corrections for all the Viewers! When we are on the call together we will have even more fun talking about these "issues"  . It is always wonderful how I resonate with every one I work on!!Thank you for your lovely posts, and I will talk with you soon!!
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12-06-2007, 12:20 AM
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There have been many "layers" that I have removed using CEM (your willingness has helped tremendously), and there are many reasons (issues) that you have experienced such trauma. I skyped you immediately and told you that I "test" strong that you need to continue with your medical training! One of the "issues" was a reverse perception. Meaning what you thought was good for you, was not, and what you thought was bad for you was not. Therefore, you thought and made decisions that created exhaustion. Also, this reverse perception added to your inability to give correct answers to the Doctors AND more importantly to yourself. Which then in turn created a lack of trust in yourself and much fear. So be kind to yourself, and give yourself a pat on the back, and a BIG CONGRATULATIONS for hanging in there and persevering!!  Your life IS becoming more effortless, it is just difficult to see this while you are in the middle of it all! But I promise that you WILL SEE IT and feel Great!! Start focusing on what is Right, and stay away of focusing on what is wrong (or you will manifest more of what you don't desire). This takes practice as it is very easy to fall into noticing all the "bad" stuff. Remember that the "bad" stuff is an illusion, ALL IS GOOD!! I am in the process of finishing a Paper I am writing for My Energetic Science Ministries Course. I will be writing more about this in my paper, so when I am done please read it, I know that you will understand clearly what I mean, and will be able to manifest more quickly what you do desire. Recognize that you are an inspiration to us, and therefore YOU ARE INSPIRATIONAL!! This is but one of your many wonderful aspects!! Focus on these things.  I will continue to make corrections for you until you no longer need to ask me to. 
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12-06-2007, 12:29 AM
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Hi Sherry!! MY ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS KARATE SISTER!! Sherry, I am so happy and grateful you have joined me on this Forum!! I am delighted that you will be learning CEM!! You were AWESOME Friday night during Keith, Ryan's and YOUR black belt tests!! The kids were Great. Bill and Emil were fantastic too! But, I have to admit than when I see a confident, powerful woman like you test for her Shodan (1st degree black belt) I feel incredibly Proud!! YOU WERE AWESOME!!   I hope you read this soon, as I know how busy you are and now we are in the middle of the Holidays!! Thank you for posting and here is another for YOU!!
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12-06-2007, 12:36 AM
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Hi Bobi! Toastmaster's is a wonderful group to join!! I was once a part of toastmasters too in the Tampa Area here in Florida. I test your thyroid and Hormones to be physically fine, It is your Mental Body that is manifesting this dis-ease. I will do more corrections for this issue for you. Please keep me posted.
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12-06-2007, 12:45 AM
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Hi Marnyka!
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I need to know what you are desiring to create with your Platinum Package to test and assist you with this. Private message me your email address. I am in the process of testing and helping another couple with their Platinum Package too. I will be happy to also show you my Platinum Package and let you know my desires as well. It probably would be a good idea to skype talk. It will take me longer if I have to type it all up. Most likely with the holidays I would not get to this until after January. If we skyped talked it would happen sooner. I plan to set up an appointment soon with Three others who have Private messaged me before you, but I am happy to talk with you soon after. Private Message me Marnyka and let me know I worked on Chase, but his emotional body is still not testing as strong as I would like, so keep me posted and let me know how he is doing! Last edited by Grace : 12-06-2007 at 12:48 AM.
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12-06-2007, 12:50 AM
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I AM ON IT!!
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12-06-2007, 12:54 AM
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12-06-2007, 01:03 AM
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I have been working on you, even though I am slow to post during these Holidays! Tomorrow we are having another Chinese Energetic Medicine Conference Call 4pm eastern. I will do more individually for you then too. I plan to work on everyone on the call since with the holidays there won't be many of us on.Thank you for your post!! It is always wonderful to see your beautiful pic!
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12-06-2007, 01:11 AM
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SallyJane has given you and Viviana Fabulous Advice! You will find as you remove more layers of issues, which is the same as creating more light within you, that It will become easier and easier to focus on what is right with you, and YOU WILL THEN FEEL GRATITUDE effortlessly! I have become aware of the fact that most people do not consciously breath as they ought to, and that conscious breathing is part of the manifestation process (having your prayers answered). I will be writing about this in my ESM paper too. So next week keep an eye out for it.
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12-06-2007, 01:13 AM
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12-06-2007, 01:28 AM
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Absolutely Fabulous Marnyka!!
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YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT AND POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE!! You are creating your remembrance of your Perfection with every single thing you do for yourself and/or for another!! When you ask for help you are creating your Wholeness. When you make your own corrections you are creating Harmony for yourself and for others! You create all of it! One of my favorite quotes is from The Master Key Systems by Haanel. Here it is with my pleasure to share it with all of you yet again. I AM WHOLE, PERFECT, STRONG, POWERFUL, LOVING, HAPPY AND HARMONIOUS!! This is the absolute TRUTH of who you are, and what you Marnyka are speaking of! What Wonderful work you are doing for yourself and others!! I am very happy and grateful you are posting here on this Forum!!
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12-07-2007, 12:03 AM
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Awesomeness!!! Hehee
Okay just a quick update on my manifestation of a home!
 This morning I went to the first HUD group interview and it was for public housing... I and a few other ladies are at the very top of the list because of DV and temp housing... Monday I go to my second group interview and that one is for a voucher so I can go rent non public housing!  People are telling me I could have a place by Monday night! The funny thing is that I got the letter for Monday meeting that another lady who lives on the other side did not get! I tell you, I am powerful! I am realizing just how awesome I am... If I had gotten the income first... Then I would have had to qualify for housing with credit (My X has worked hard to destroy that for me). Once I am in housing I am already starting to manifest great credit ratings... cause I am creating this all! My job will come once the kids and are in housing! Then I will be ready to manifest my art business just the way I want it!!! Well got to go... Blessings Sj zartgirl
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12-07-2007, 07:16 AM
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another sleepless night
Hello....
Well i have had some very shocking news... From myself to myself... I have been experiencing some anxiety and fear around moneyand finances... and they seemed to pop out of the blue.... not for any logical reason... and i was doing some feeling work(BL)... And OMG...these deep rooted things around being terrified that I would go to hell if i have money, cuz money is bad and money is evil and the people who have are evil and bad then... and you all know the BS that goes with that too... that bad and evil people go to hell... My mother grew up in poverty in hungry during the war in the late 50's and she came here to canada, but displayed many "characteristics" of that there is not enough, as well my understanding is that there has been a beleif that if you are a martyr and poor and in poverty than you are noble.... Read the arc angle channelings that sharyn has posted. Thanks Sharyn.... So in some ways there has been a long line of events that have been leading up to this amazing realization and freedom too.... especially amazing since my natural state is abundance and love (i'll get to that one in a minute) yet i have been denying abundance cuz of fears and beleifs that aren't true.... one of the events tonight was my son left his music playing while in the bathroom... and it was the song By Axel Rose "Knock Knock knockin' on heavin's door"... mind you avril was singing it, and i had burst into tears cuz... and was asking to be let into heaven... and it was strange cuz i didn't know where that feeling had come from, but it was very strong... as though i had felt banished from this place called heaven, cuz i was bad... (a core feeling i had all my life)... then when i was in bed and had these other feelings come up... it was like OMG... what the heck... and i just had to share... the other part i said i'd get to is LOVE.... OMG, I am in love with a friend of mine... (who doesn't recipicate, which i am ok with on the most part) and the details don't matter... but apparently it has been me to be the last to know this, cuz others saw it... as well as my son, who'd always reffer to him as my boyfriend.... Geesh, I know i ignored that on purpose... So once again denying myself of my natural state... which is Love... Abundance... and some.. However this is where the plot thickens... cuz in having a man around, ( keep in mind I was also seeing what i wanted to see too) then i wouldn't have to be able to take care of myself, and so on and so forth... call it what you will... co-dependant, emotionally dependant.... how about deriving your identity from a person (AKA... something outside yourself.. which could include a place or thing...even money) getting to the point... these amazingly constructed beleifs about who i was and how i had to be...all in order to feel that i was ok.... and it turns out none of it is true... OK, holy cow... I guess for me these two things have weaved together very nicely, cuz of the programming i had in childhood..... I am simply in awe right now... and amazement... OH ya, there is also the aspect to of if i keep being in need that is how i will keep someone around... So like this intense fear of being alone is what has kept me in povery and not allowing abundance to flow through me... and same with allowing love in too... cuz if i love i will get hurt, if i love i will be vulnerable.... and not to mention love being who i really am... i came into a world where love was a secret, withheld, denied, painful, conditional, ect.. don't love at all costs, but apparently we love each other cuz????? Crazy stuff... just wanted to share this and wow how profound it is for me to realize these things.... I know things are not true about who i really am,...... and i know that these things aren't things i need to identify myself with.... cuz they are not my identity... WOW, so cool.... it is like an intricate web of stuff all entangled.... i think this is where i get my thrill in discovering this stuff... although at the time of self induced pain and suffering i'd tell you different.... OK, I am a powerful infinite being, I am Love, I am abundance, I am god, I am light, I am infinite potential, I am gratitude, I am perfect...... I am joyousness... And so are all of you... well i feel like a frazzzled writter who editer is gone for the weekend... so i am not gonna edit my spelling... it all flowed out and it is all perfect... Thanks for listening... couldn't find spell check either.... Love and light....Goddess AdrianaPS.I meant to say wow, now look at the amazing moduals paths has... And that money mind set modual... holy cow... addresses all of these issues around money... and then the forgiveness one....H'oponopono... and self-esteem.. the deserving modual... the mood elevation mod...hehe, to balance my hormones and chemicals..(and no i am not taking chemicals) there are many more, but OMG... It would have taken me much longer i beleive... if i wasn't on paths...Totally... Iknow this... and have years of painstaking experience to back it... I have/am done/doing all of these mods and more... and I am so impressed... Ok, good night... SIGH.... More will be revealed...
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