Chinese Energetic Medicine by Grace

[Sunshine]

Hi Kim

Glad you went ahead and got the book and hope it does good stuff for you.

Just thinking about your business I'm wondering if there's a mismatch of goals here? Just sort of thinking out loud. Do the people that work in the salon have the same goal of making kids feel special? Or are they more enjoying the hair bit? You aren't interested in hair but want kids to feel special. Are the people working there interested in hair but not so much in making kids feel special? What you say about having a business you don't have to work at on site makes sense but I'm thinking that for it to work better for you, you and the people there need to be singing from the same hymn book - so to speak. And if it's a hair salon then of course the focus is going to be on hair so I'm wondering if the fact that you have no interest in hair is affecting how successful the salon is. Don't know. Just questions to ask yourself.
And riding horses all day and making kids empowered. I used to be a volunteer for riding for the disabled and loved seeing how much the children enjoyed it and what it did for them. Have you thought of maybe asking yourself some questions like "what would it take to be able to make a good income from riding horses all day and making kids empowered?" or "what if I could....." etc. And you could also ask similar as regards the salon.
I know how tough it must be for you and especially not knowing what to do for the best. I know it always helps me if I can talk over my dilemas Also, have you tried picturing in your head keeping the salon and making it work and then picturing giving it up and seeing how you feel? See if one option makes you feel better than the other. And picture putting the salon up for sale and see how that makes you feel. You might feel a sense of relief or you might think that actually you really don't want to let it go.
Anyway, don't want to ramble on. Just read your post as I was going to bed and thought I'd post the things that occured to me in case any of it was of any help.

[KimJ]

Thanks Adrienne and Sunshine,

Adrienne,
So, I ended up ordering the book. LOL I just kept going back to the website so I thought I was spending too much time dwelling on it and just to go ahead. So far I totally resonate with what she's saying from what I've read in the first couple of chapters. Can't say I've experienced more than that yet though, but will see - don't want to judge it.

Sunshine,
Thank you for looking into the Lola Jones site for me! Very interesting your perception of the web site as it was the total opposite of mine! LOL What I found there was that you're not supposed to "do" anything really - that's what I like about it...less of do this, remember that, etc. I do understand what you mean about the courses and videos though...there is a lot to go through, but the I like that you don't have to though, just if you feel like it.

About my business, yes, I know it seems odd! The thing is I'm passionate about what we offer - we're a kids' hair salon, so the big thing for me is making kids feel special, however that happens. I'm all about kids feeling cared for and important. The thing is, I'm not a hairdresser and have no interest in hair! LOL I'm not really a girly-girl, etc., so the hair part isn't for me - I just love what it means to the kids and parents. Does that make sense? I don't want to work there all the time - I just wanted to bring this business to our city for the kids and parents - and hire great people to work there who do love it. Based on that, I'm not sure...does that mean that because I'm not passionate about it as a day-to-day job for me personally that it's going to continue to be a struggle...? My original goal was to have a business that I didn't have to work at on site (except as needed, and managing the business side at home), so that I could eventually also pursue other interests.

That being said, if I could figure out how to have an income riding horses all day and make kids feel empowered at the same time, then I'd be in heaven. I'm taking riding lessons so that's a start!

Thank you again both so much for telling me your thoughts and allowing me to continue the conversation. Just sitting down and typing it out is a way of releasing, so I appreciate it! Sorry for rambling though!


Kim

[Sunshine]

Hi Kim

I found it interesting what you said about your business. That it's not your passion and it's a constant battle. Have you thought about what you'd like to do instead? Maybe just thinking about/writing down what you don't like about your business and then what you'd like instead might help? Might just help clarify some thoughts. I know what it's like when you just seem to be so busy trying hard to make things work that you don't have time to relax or think. maybe just thinking about if money didn't come into it, how would you like your life to be? What would you be doing each day and why? Might just give you some insights.


And about the Lola Jones book. I haven't read it so can't say. But I did follow the link to the website and for me it was just too much the part 1 and part 2 course and over 70 videos etc etc was just information overload for me! it made me feel all cluttered! I checked out the free video on there so maybe you could have a look at that and see if you like her style etc. not trying to dis the site or anything because I know Adrienne has found her book really good, just giving my thoughts. I sometimes feel I could be reading all this stuff and listening to videos and doing courses etc 'til the cows come home and never learn it all and not have time to live my life! And I also feel a need right now for simple. Sometimes I get a headache trying to remember everything I "should" be doing and all the advice and ideas in all the books etc and just shut it all out and send myself some love and light.

Anyway, just wanted to say don't beat up on yourself by thinking you're creating all this. be gentle on yourself. Don't know if you're near the sea or a river or a lake or somewhere where you could take a walk. I always do my best thinking near water. helps clear the fug out of the brain.

[Adrienne]

HI KimJ

HI,
I know i mentioned the divine openings...
and i bought the book, and i am in awe at how perfect it is for me...
it does talk about stopping everything else... which means for the time being i watch my theater not as often...
i know for me, it was like i was hit upside the head, and am now..
itis very powerful... and is about letting grace (divine grace) in and getting out of the way, which is so perfect and obviously not an accident it showed up for me..
read some of my other posts i have mentioned some of my experience...
some of that is being done working on myself... cuz there is nothing to change and fix, cuz everything is absolutly perfect as is..
cuz it is all happeing now, which possibility/dimension/unvierse (ok the term slips my mind at this moment) are we chosing to experience.

anyhow..
I ALSO love you all...
AND HEY GRACE, sounds like alot of fun, looking eagerly forward to hearing your speal on freedom and what not and all your wonderful insight and wisdom and growth...
I say it this way cuz its how my thoughts are coming forth, but with absolut respect..lol
funny having a moment of omg i didn't write it politely..hehe.. ok, well you know i did, cuz it came form my heart..
and i know you know that...
anyhow,
love and light
Adrienne

[Grace]

For All!

I am present, here, knowing and loving all of you. There is not a moment where I am unaware of what you need. I will get back to each of you. It may not be in the time that you desire, but it will be perfect none the less. I have so much to express, and so much to give. I only desire to be able to make the time to tell you NOW what is, WHAT IS! You are ALL LOVED!! Life is Absolutely Fabulous, AND YOU KNOW THIS!!

ps, Karate has overtaken me, and I will be back soon to give details! XOXOXOXO

[KimJ]

Corrections please.

Hi everyone. I'm posting for corrections, because I seem to be banging my head against the wall, trying too hard or something, I don't know what. Our finances are a mess - just had to refinance our house to not have the bill collectors at the door. I don't think we can sustain our business any longer. It's doing okay but not well enough to sustain itself and pay off its debts and I can't afford to keep doing it for it. I don't even know if I want the business anyway because it's not my passion - I'm very happy to have opened it and I hope the service stays, but it's not my passion to work at it myself. I thought it would be okay that way though, just hire great people which I have and I do love what it's done for people...but it feels like it's a constant battle keeping it afloat money wise, so maybe it's not meant to be at least with me as the owner. Guidance on that would be greatly appreciated.

And all of this financial stuff means I have to pull my kids out of their school - which I posted about that a while ago and that may not be a bad thing, but Grace tested that they should stay...

Sigh.... I know I'm creating this, hence the banging the head against the wall feeling.... so I just need some help getting out of my own way, seeing clearly, clarity, etc. I just can't seem to tell what's going against the flow and what's not...seems a simple concept but I can't seem to see clearly. I've always been one to see equally the pros and cons about everything, which would be great if I was a mediator, but not so good when there are decisions to be made!

Also, I came across a post on ESM about Lola Jones and Divine Openings...anyone else read her book? I like what she has to say, but the last thing I need to do is buy yet another book. LOL

Blessings and thanks.
Kim

[Empath]

Adrienne,
I feel your pain darling! I get caught in the immediate stuff and don't see the miracles blooming all around me like beautiful roses!

This is something that came to me today or last night...

"Through the ashes of the fire, burst forth a beautiful forest.
Through the ashes of the fire, opens the seeds of your destiny" By Sallyjane Woods


Through the ashes of the fire, burst forth a strong and beautiful Sj Woods!

I use to live in the redwood forest. The Redwoods are funny trees as they drop their seeds and the seeds lay dormant till a forest fire comes through, and out of what looks like destruction purification and a re-birthing happens. All of the weak and diseased trees burn easily, but amazingly the really strong old ones survive the fire. Then a new crop of baby trees are brought forth out of the ashes. The cycle begins again!

We have a choice of whether the forest fire will burn us up like the weak and diseased trees or we will stand tall and untouched as the old redwoods have stood for thousands of years through forest fire after forest fire they have forged their own destinies.

When things look their worse, I am learning that they really are not, and if I am quiet and still and I send my roots deep into the soil of the earth as the old redwoods do out of the fire I find a stronger wiser person standing tall with new seedlings of my destiny coming forth to create a better Woods for me!

Blessings Love Light and Joy
Sallyjane

Sallyjane,

Synchronicity is when what you're thinking about is what is going on...

I work for a company called Redwood, and the metaphor of the tree works for me and for my company (which was recently acquired by a very large company).

I live on the east coast of the US (NJ) so am unfamiliar with the life cycle of the redwood. The renewal through fire process sounds very similar to the fire cycles of the pine barrens near my house.

Thank you for drawing out the metaphor for me. I always knew there had to be a deeper meaning to working for a company called Redwood, and now I know!

BTW, the last software developer I worked for was called Dolphin.
My friends tease me that my next company should have the name of a bird, a mountain, a star or a planet!

[musingmus]

Well it is time to disconnect my modem to my internet, so I can return it as I will be leaving at 4 or 5 am tomorrow!

I just wanted to send you all a warm blanket of LOVE and abundant blessings

Love light and blessings Sallyjane

I hope you have a safe and warm journey....and welcome to california!

Grace- IM still in search of corrections. Still feeling really low and hurting emotionally. I need relief. thank you.

[zartgirl]

Time to disconnect

Well it is time to disconnect my modem to my internet, so I can return it as I will be leaving at 4 or 5 am tomorrow!

I just wanted to send you all a warm blanket of LOVE and abundant blessings

Love light and blessings Sallyjane

[zartgirl]

From the Ashes

i often get frustrated at how easily i get caught in the world of duality and limitation and how real it appears to be when caught in it, and i totally agree it is very tiering, very energy draining.

Adrienne,
I feel your pain darling! I get caught in the immediate stuff and don't see the miracles blooming all around me like beautiful roses!

This is something that came to me today or last night...

"Through the ashes of the fire, burst forth a beautiful forest.
Through the ashes of the fire, opens the seeds of your destiny" By Sallyjane Woods


Through the ashes of the fire, burst forth a strong and beautiful Sj Woods!

I use to live in the redwood forest. The Redwoods are funny trees as they drop their seeds and the seeds lay dormant till a forest fire comes through, and out of what looks like destruction purification and a re-birthing happens. All of the weak and diseased trees burn easily, but amazingly the really strong old ones survive the fire. Then a new crop of baby trees are brought forth out of the ashes. The cycle begins again!

We have a choice of whether the forest fire will burn us up like the weak and diseased trees or we will stand tall and untouched as the old redwoods have stood for thousands of years through forest fire after forest fire they have forged their own destinies.

When things look their worse, I am learning that they really are not, and if I am quiet and still and I send my roots deep into the soil of the earth as the old redwoods do out of the fire I find a stronger wiser person standing tall with new seedlings of my destiny coming forth to create a better Woods for me!

Blessings Love Light and Joy
Sallyjane

[Adrienne]

cool

that awesome SallyJane... wow, how you go for it and then let it go again and again and again.. a skill no doubt...
must have been alot of practice...
cool, isn't life fabulous
Peace
Adrienne

[zartgirl]

Okay I always share my manifestations here...

So I always love to share when I manifest something here... OMG! Here I go again!

So as I shared my X bought me a place down there to live in Calif. I set the intention to move there in 2007, and have been manifesting it ever since. That manifestation includes my X getting a girlfriend in Calif. and moving there to be where she is! Then bugging me to move and finally buying me a home so I can move there!

So after I found out about the home, and business here was not good and I was suffering financially here, I decided to apply for a couple of jobs at a company I just decided I had to work at! Well, I got an email on Friday asking if I would read some information about the company and reply if I was interested in talking further. This morning I did a phone interview with someone from HR Corporate in LA. and set up an in person interview in Sacramento for next week. I continued on through my day I got another call from HR same company asking if I had time to talk, and I said "Yes". Next thing I knew I was interviewing for another job in the same company! I think that is the position I want! What a day!

I will be traveling there over the weekend, and then be interviewing next week... for one or both of the positions. I am intending to get one of the jobs!

I tell you, what an amazing day! Now I just have to calm down so I can go to sleep.

Love, Light, and Joy
Sallyjane

[Adrienne]

This is a major discovery to me! There are 2 economies, and two worlds basically!

The First one we are familiar with and it is the economy of Structure and the egoic mind. It is ruled by dualism and limitation. YUCK! I am tired of this one, as it leaves me drained and lifeless all the time. I feel like I am on a treadmill when I am in this world, just another mouse running needlessly.

The Second world and economy is what I call the Spiritual economy/world. This one is commanded by love and we enter it through love and gratitude through our sacred hearts. When we are here we are quiet and at peace with ourselves and everyone around us. We spend time meditating and focusing on LOVE and GRATITUDE. We just have a deep trust that everything is taken care of for us. All we need to do is follow our hearts and listen to them. (Adrienne your post was so perfect about silence, it is so important for us to stop talking and listen to our hearts!)

To enter the spiritual economy/world we need to first look into a mirror and see who we truly are in the Universe. We need to see our beauty, our talents, our skills, and most importantly we need to see our LOVE and we need to be grateful for all of it. Meditation and focusing on love and gratitude are instrumental in our seeing this. Then we need to take a big step of faith and step off of the worlds treadmill. From there, just be quiet and trust the Universe/God to show you the way.

We all work so hard at being spiritual and raise our vibrational level, but all the time we keep our eyes on just how many apples or pennies there are at anyone time. I see myself doing this from time to time and then I fight to get back to the place I know I need to be... That is a total wrong turn, because what we resist persists! So when we fight to be in the right place then we go farther away from where we want to be! (Again, Bingo Adrienne was talking about this in the above post... You have to let go of letting go! Such wisdom girl!) Instead, you have to just be there, and you get there through Love and Gratitude. When are just being in the moment then everything just becomes so clear for us.

Yesterday, I was very frustrated because, again I had found myself on the treadmill of the Worlds system, fighting to get off, and trying to find the stepping off point. Then I decided I needed a couple of days off to just meditate and create! So I text messaged my boss and told her I was taking some days off! Boom! I had time for me! From there I had a long talk with Grace (spiritually speaking, I do this with here a lot... I skype her and start asking for help and then by the end of the help I have the answers typed into the skype! I then thank her for you assistance, and I go forward! We have had a complete conversation with over 3000 miles between us telepathically. It is so awesome to have a friend that I can connect with like that. I am sure I have others too, but I have not seen those connections yet. I believe Pamela and I have it too.

The end result was that I just needed to continue with a part time job I have making phone calls for my X and forget about a real job... Then move to Calif by the end of June and Watch out BABY! Cause big things are awaiting you. The Universe has been showing me a picture of myself as a Free Spirit! Totally taken care of and provided for with no lack and all abundance! Doing what I love to do... My readings, and my paintings, and some kind of healing modality, but most important being a spiritual coach/guide to people. Me like this!

Wow! What a totally difference from selling insurance and hating every minute of it.

What is your LOVE/PASSION? Find it! Believe in it! LOVE IT! TRUST in it! BE IT!

Blessings Sallyjane

grrr, i just wrote a long post and it dissapeared...
ok to the point then.. i like the distinction between the worlds/realities you reffered too SallyJane
i often get frustrated at how easily i get caught in the world of duality and limitation and how real it appears to be when caught in it, and i totally agree it is very tiering, very energy draining.

Grace could you please do some corrections for me on my work situation.. i feel like i am walking around with a kick me sign on my back and that i have stepped back into to high school after todays stupid incident..

there have been issues with my boss (not isolated to just me)
the other day(last week ) i had luch with a girl i chat with sometimes... we seem to have interests that align, and she told me know one likes me at work.
then this student employee totally mocked me and was totally rude.. and undermines my authority.. actually all the young people do when i have it...
then today a woman i work with who her and i don't connect at all (and i am ok with it) totally demanded i clean up after myself.. i didn't only cuz of her attitude and tone... Honestly it wasn't intentional that i didn't tidy up befor i left just a bunch of things happened and i didn't think of it or even notice. which i know i should have, but god she was an absolute ***** about it and also has no authority either. i could go on about her, so i won't..

it feels rediculous, and i really haven't a clue to why i am creating all of this.
i just layed in bed and cried out my confusion i am feeling to the things that feel so real, although i know aren't.
ya dig..
I feel like i am being walked all over, and dis-respected.. and i know i am being talked about as my lunch buddy devulged to me (would have mentioned how i didn't want her to say these things to and even asked why, but i was kind of shocked at the time)
so honestly i have no desire really even to get to chummy with her..
like hello what is up in the universe...
sometimes i wonder if i am supposed to get angry and sometimes i wonder if i have ever let myself get angry befor... i mean angry in the now so to speak.. opposed to reactionary angry..
you knopw the people pleasing syndrom...
on this note i have been getting angry about somethings and therefor am learning to set boundaries etc..
\ok, well hopefully this post works..
cheers love and light, i am not exactly sure what stand out for corrections... but specifically for work would be awesome..
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
thaks
Love and light
Adrienne

[Adrienne]

hello

Thanks, Sunshine

When I posted that I was crying hysterically and considering cutting myself because that felt like the only way to numb the pain out (used to be a cutter way back when, thought that was over and done with but lately I've been having a lot of relapses!). But some short time after reading this thread and posting I calmed down, and went through some really interesting, albeit painful stuff, just lying and feeling the pain and where in my body it originated. Mostly it struck me how subconsciously I really don't want to let go of my pain, for several reasons - because change is scary, the pain is familiar and a part of me that I've lived with for so long, because the pain is tinged with some kind of strange pleasure - and so on. And those reasons are still there, but it was interesting to realise just how much I'm clinging on to my issues for dear life.

Still, it's disheartening because I've been working *intensely* on my issues (mostly with EFT) for over a year now, and I've had so many of these moments that seem like healing crises, and I keep telling myself it's one step back, two steps forward, but really it just feels like two steps forward, two steps back all the time. Paths really feels like my last hope because I just don't have the energy to be optimistic about my ability to overcome this anymore.

I feel better today. I hope all this @#%& is at least a sign that the Trauma Free module is working for me.

good day,
thank you for sharing that!
hmmmm, i used to cut myself too... the last time i did it i was pregnant 13.5 yrs ago... then thought to myself how rediculous it was as i was a grown up now.. aka gonna be a mother..
point being i get how it was to feel something /anyhting...
No judgement, this just made me think of my son and how we pass on things/patterns through us to our child while pregnant. And in the last yr i have had moments of the thought popping up to cut cuz i just wanted to feel.. not strong feelings of cutting but feelings of it none the less. one tool i have used is playing the tape out.... imagining what it would really be like if i actually did it??? and as i remeber it wasn't desirable.. the pain the negative attention, the regret the blame, the shame, the feeling stupid for doing something like that to myself.
So grace could you please do some correctiopns for tristan on this as he was inside me when i inflicted this hateful behaviour on myself.

Yari: thanks so much for sharing so openly about your children..
i have had struggles with my thirteen yr old son... as he becomes older (teen) he is becoming more defiant... one tool i have been practicing is silence aka not reacting and wait for it, i have had many great results with this.. like him going ahead and doing what was asked of him. its as though there is an uneasyness in the silence and then gives him time to make a decision.. lately he has also been asking "what will happen if" and i say well i guess we will have to wait and see.... i don't ever (if i can help it) give him the consequence to contemplate.. cuz he tends to decide ok i can handle it or don't care (low self worth etc..)
so i let his imagination come up with it i guess... its like being afraid of the unknown, so he doesn't want to find out that way (most of the time)
I get to practice patience.. with my life and every aspect..
cuz its not just not reacting with my child, it is not reacting at work and wait for it to show itself..
not reacting with my boyfriend so i may see the deeper reason for it( this is new to me, so exstremely challenging. talk about the hurt little girl showing up ) in other words allow it to pass through me.. the feeling, not take it personally, and know all is in perfection and of course of my own creation. I can run with it and stay in it and experience drama from it, or wait for it.. the reason it has shown up, or the pattern to fall away, the insight into self. anyhow i just fell off the train of thought..lol
I like to look at things as a reflection of me.. well it is very useful infact.. and as i write this, perhaps it is mirroring my defiance in my relationship... as well as other fight i may be having within, my fight against accepting the love... the resistance to something good...
SIGH
cuz i know this is happening for me..
In-to-me-see has always been difficult for me.. with people (lol )
whether its waiting for the other shoe to drop or fear of being ABANDONED From my boyfriend or my son or my family, or my employer, or simply by life...
ok, i think thats all for now... thanks for all of your posts they inspire me to write and i usually am unaware of what it is gonna be about.
Love and light
peace and GRATITUDE.
Adrienne

[Sunshine]

Hi Grace

Please would you be able to do some corrections for me re moving. thank you.