Well I have really been connecting to my spirit and spirit helpers.

I have been asking some questions, and getting some interesting answers!

One of my questions had to do with my weight! I got a very interesting answer with that one!

The answer to why I am overweight has to do with FEAR! Fear of Keith, and wanting to chase him away! To him I was his trophy wife! I was blond hair blue eyed tallish perfect size eight wife who looked good on his arm! I quickly figured out that if I gained weight then he would not want me anymore! What a wierd world we create for ourselve!

So Keith is gone! Why do I keep it? I am terrified of MEN! LOL that would explain why the only men in my life are either on the internet or the phone! Oh there is this one guy at work that wants me to call him... Like that is going to happen, and I don't even know if he wants more than friendship or just friendship. Anyways the idea of even having a male friend who lives close to me is terrifying. I don't mind talking to this man at work, but he scares me! Seriously! I need to process some of this fear in a big way! I could definitely use some corrections in this area of my life!

As for my sugar addictions they will disapear after I stop sabotaging my weightloss efforts. I am seeing big steps since you started to do corrections on me, but I seem to start to change and then go back to the old stuff! This fear has to go!

On another note there I got up in the middle of the night and did a little shopping! I was awakened and decided to price out treadmills... They cost more than I really want to spend, but I have been wanting a little trampoline cause it looked like fun and I know my daughter and son will love it too. Well, I ended up ordering one in the middle of the night as the price was just perfect! I was then allowed to go back to bed and sleep! Turns out my spirit wanted that too! I need it to get healthy... Sounds good to me! I have decided to take my kids hiking this weekend cause I need to get grounded back with nature as I have lost all touch with nature for so many years it is not even funny!

Okay I don't know if any of this rambling makes sense to you, but when it came to me it made perfect sense! Had some more breakthroughs today, but I am too tired to tell you all about them now. It was funny I almost PM'd you Grace about this, but this little feeling in my stomach said NO you need to share all this stuff with the world... It will help you and others! So here it all is!

Blessings And HUGS Sj