ok, i am now moving back to Vanderhoof...
yikes..
this is so huge for me...
still in the middle of accepting that this is really happening...
i am moving in a month..
whoa..
just wanted share this...
it is a good thing...
i guess i thought i would be moving farther away from the place i grew up... and i am moving back to the place i grew up..
i am still processing this...
Love and Light ...Adrienne
and thanks grace and everyone who has contributed to my growth...
not sure what i thought, but i spent alot of time in a fantasy... without action, alot of talk and no action.
and alot of what i have shared in replies to others is coming back to my consciousness... cuz it applies to me too...
wow, this is actually really exciting.
part of me thinks.. OMG, what if i am trapped there....
well, i guess only if i allow myself to be, and if i see it that way.
it is really my perception of things that makes them the way they are... meaning how i look at it...
i chose to see the "good"/positive..
or the negative..
i can attach meaning to what it means if i do this or do that... but it doesn't have to mean anything... othere than what it is.
it is what it is.

you know that for so long i avoided making desicions for myself, and would follow, and look to see what others were doing.. and not really thinking about what i thought about it, or if it was useful for me... and i say this in a general way... cuz there have also been things that i have simply chosen not to do.

Hmmmm, there is like a contradiction in what i have just said.
Hmmmm,
I guess simply... it is how i precieve things...
where i can participate in something and experience in different ways, depending on how i look at the situation.
to be grateful for everything in the moment, and have faith that it is all gonna be fine.. and that it is fine and perfect...
i just read something about inaction... perhaps it was in your posts Pamela...lol
i also did notice how some people watch P1W once and never again..
with people i have sent them a reminder...
and they resume watching there p1w theater...
cuz i am not so sure people realize how powerful it is...
and yes so many are "self-absorbed" and unless there are direct results for the instant gratification... the interest will subside..
and i can also say i have been afflicted by this myself too...
so no judgment when i say this... it seems so unconscious at times when i realize how i was doing this.

this makes me think of how we can live like we are all one... or like we are seperate from everyone else..
and there is no seperation..
however, seems that one can forget this... i know i do from time to time..hehe
but don't need to berate myself for it..

anyhow... thanks for your post on that.
the modules i am now on are:
slp2
positive attitude
breaking through to enlightenment
self-esteem and self confidence
deserving
ulimited creativity
3M
Trauma- free

I Love paths... my thinking has changed so much and how i engage with life...
in my home with my son, with people, within,

somewhere Kevin posted a post.. about how it can be easy to take paths for granted.
i have become so aware of so many things....
no matter what is going on.... i am still functioning... and it isn't the end of the world...
that is a huge thing as often enough my life would crash so often cuz i couldn't cope...
it would be my thinking that would spiral me down to crashing...
I am able to access feelings, like gratitude.. and love... and joy... and also stop the though process of something that isn't so useful..
however it can be ebb and flow for these things...
i can see it now...
this is so amazing...
the acronym of for paths...
Program Authoring the Human Subconscious..

I often see how i am authoring my thoughts...
regardless of whether its a negative or positive outcome

now imagine being able to do this all on purpose...
regarless of the poutcome... and being aware of what the thought process was when the results would and could be viewed as "negative"

wow,
I myself have focused on many moduals that deal with outlook and perception...
and core issues, cuz i beleive that clear those blocks and the rest naturally is cleared too... of course someof the modules target specifics... and i have had some success with them, but have found it is the core things that need shifting/unblocking...
so i am excited about the trauma-free moduale..
wow... what would it be like to not freeze.. and go into fight and flight mode...
although better for me.. but still shows up sometimes more often than i'd like to admit...
and then my mind tags onto it and tries to convince me it's because of me..
well.. the ego is trying to survive... so bless it's heart...
but the things it tells me aren't true...

ok, i think i written enough for now...
it will be interesting to see what happens...
oh, and i just thought of the fact that i am on the writters version of unlimited creativity...
want to see how they each affect me..
and i feel better now, after sharing...
thanks

Love and Light ..... Adrienne