Just wanted to post some majik... This maybe what many of your lives are normally like...I feel I(in the unified Grace field) have just turned on and up the syncronicity volume that seems to be answering my questions. Some of the questions posed to Grace were around fallowing my joy...but I felt frozen. I listed what I thought i enjoyed...not sure where to begin...Now i know I knew it...already...(that, Before you can even form the question it is answered, thing)... AANNDD... I dont have to know everything...thats about control which is my ego... I just need to know whats next? what will be benificial or "useful"? And trust enough to move into it. Staying connected with my heart (or figuring out what that is) and my Godself too is Big.

This Matrix weekend one of the reoccuring themes for me was that I would always end up talking to people who did things that were on my list to grace...singer song writer, writers, storytellers, artist sculptress, and this one guy you would never have guessed... ballroom dancer! and salsa and a few others! and Ive had this unexplainable yearning for dance??? not sur what kind... but that as well as singing bumps me up against some of my greatest fears!! THEN on my bus ride back there were these two women. Also not what I'd figure the classic dance type... and one had this big ballroom dance insignia on the back of her jacket!!....She kept popping up infront of mwe when wed get off the bus for a break... Ballroom...Ballroom... Ballroom! so i figure something is up with the Ballroom thing...

cut to my job...janitor in a hospital...theres this Dr who for some strange reason has for a month + been trying to get me to take a Ballet class shes in cuz all women almost no guys to "pod de duo" with -if I said that right...Ive been so dense to keep saying no. Youve got to be kidding! MmE!? BALLET? I think i might have even said "thats soo gay" ...she knows my not so "secret" identity...if it is that. Dose she think all homosexuals instictually want to dance ballet? I like her...Shes nice, but she had never said a word to me before this! Sooo the second day I'm back from the Matrix LA La land she comes up to me and I ask her a bout a recital they did-(Peter and the wolf?) and I'm expecting another recruiting session...but she had completely changed gears and now shes pimping me out to the nurses who also want to dance but have no partner...She said I need to talk to soinso...a cute little middle aged Russian(or close)nurse lady who wants to take a BALLROOM dance class! I laughed and now have to awknowledge the persistance of mySelf to get through to me!! I sais we'll see... but I know I have to fallow this . The Nurse just now caught me on my trash and linnen run... and...Its ON! Shes incontrol...Im just fallowing this...until we dance- I guess...then I am the preverbial MAn...She IS a Russian-ish (Ukranian?) woman...maybe we can trade ...I'm sure I'll be a good lead??? Sooo a smallish thing but majical and definately something different! "Look for whats different" the Matrixians keep sayin...I get the distict feeling "whats different" now is looking for me.

More later
Blake