I posted this in the CEM thread too but I am looking for advice and some ME help on the subject below. I wonder if I am too personally involved to really allow the letting go piece.

I have been spotty in the forum lately. I have been going through some major shifts and admitting to some pieces of me that no longer serve me and letting them go. I released a big one relating to being sneaky about money and hiding my spending from my husband and not being honest with myself about what I am doing. I had used this part of me for so long that I didn't want to see what I was doing. NE way... This happened right before I went to the Matrix Energetics seminar last week. Because of that I changed my PATHS modules from a platinum to a 4 module. I picked the following ones:

Dynamic Biofield
SLP1
INCREASED BUSINESS
PRODUCTIVITY & CREATIVITY
Stimulate Intuition and Insight

Ever since I made the switch, my desire to do them is completely gone. I have sat and did them twice in the past 4 weeks.

As I am writing this, I'm getting that anxious feeling in my stomach like something very big is going to change. I'm just observing.

Another thing has shown up this week. My father is visiting for the week.

Another big 'issue' that has been brought forward is this 'urge' that both me and my father have about putting ourselves in situations that require us to be bound by a 'contract' of some sort.....Loan, verbal agreement ..etc.. to someone or to an organization. Then getting upset that we put ourselves in the situation and not wanting to honor our part of the agreement. I recognized it for what it was before I left for the ME seminar and I am in the process of rectifying things for myself as we speak.

One of my father's situations showed up this week by me getting a voicemail from a creditor looking for my father... no need to get into the details but I did see that it came up while we are together for us to resolve/heal this piece of us.

It is such a touchy subject for my father that I am finding it hard to approach him about it and how to go about it. I have used some ME stuff on it and asked for change in myself and in him.

If anyone would like to do a distance ME telephone session, I am up for it. I am logging my hours toward Practioner's certification.


Also if you could see what's going with me and the PATHS modules, I would be greatful.

Marnyka