hello.
well i hope you had a great x-mas...
I have discovered for myself that i have been a bit of scrooge about x-mas... and soooooo, not enthused about it... glad it is over.. I am thinking that working in a grocery store with tones of people shopping for x-mas and there parties has gotten me down (cuz i allowed it) perhaps some self pity too.. cuz it was just Tristan and I for x-mas and i have desperately desired celebrating the holidays with many friends and family... so I think i focused more on what i didn't have then what i did have...

hey SallyJane,
although not the same type of kid stuff... alot a pissy attitude from my son this holiday cuz of an absent father...Sigh...
So if ya could add Tristan in for some of those attitude adjustements corrections...

Ultimatly I really think/coming to realize that this is all a creation of my consciousness... so no matter what is happening in my world... I am creating it...
and it seems that i have this attatchement to chaos and drama.. although not quite as intense as it has been for me... the situation doesn't have to be big, but the emotional experience i have around it is what I am noticing...GEEZE...
Sooooo, in this need for attachement i notice when i go to use ME.. i have a definite agenda... cuz i want it to be better.. and also this agenda seems to be serving the purpose of hanging onto it too... cuz OMG if i didn't have these dramas and emotional chaoses in my life.. What would i do.. I would be so board....
Yes this sound kind of insane... and it feels insane to me..
I think that if i let go i could experience so much wonder and amazement...
Not sure what i am getting at... but attachement is what stands out for me...
So point being.. my son is still on crutches and his x-ray has come out fine and he also saw the doctor and the doctor says his reactions to what he was checking for are inconsistent.. yet he insists on hoppingon one leg and using crutches..... I am at a loss... and regardless I am creating this...Sigh..
And my freakin eye is still acting up...the right eye...
Oh BTW Grace i switched over to the moduals you recomended for me... and wow... Thank you... have had an odd range of emotions...
like feelings of being alone/lonely then the thought of OMG i am so blessed...Wierd...
I am on the Gratitude mod SLP1 and 3 and the heart health mod...
that is am amazing combo for me...
thanks and i absolutely love you
just wanted to share...have an awesome new year everyone
Love and light...Adrienne